Cris's Journal

I was talking to a friend whose mom just went through surgery and I sent her this link for a heart hugger. My surgeons had never heard of it (4 years ago) & like many I was given a heart pillow. The heart hugger turned out to be one of the few things that helped a lot post op , along with accupuncture (&I was very hesitant about that). So, I thought I'd share the link with those of you who are preop or recently post op. https://www.hearthugger.com/after-your-surgery

I can't believe it's been a year since I've posted!! SO much has happened this year. I've survived moving across country, Hurricane Matthew, climate change, career change, a terrible ffl season, but the cherry on top was the Cubs winning the World Series! Matt has been an awesome partner through this wild ride and is now putting up with my frustrations of finding new docs, reviewing meds and an impending surgery to fix a tear in my A1 pulley (finger). I'm fortunate to have family and friends who are wonderful & incredibly grateful for starting new career at my alma mater, Graceland University. Who knows what the future brings, but I can't wait to find out!!

Just a quick note to check-in. All is well in post-op land. Coumadin and INR has finally leveled out. To be honest it seemed to only take a balancing of having a salad on days when I wanted to have wine. Who knew it could be that simple?! (*note that this was approved by a doctor, but there is not any research*) I'm about to start making my 2 year check-ups. This will (hopefully) be the last annual check-up for the coronary aneurysms. If they have not changed, then we will move to every 2-3 years. Thank you all for your support and I'll check-in again soon!

I just realized I never posted for my 1 year! So, here's the 17 month update :) Things are going great. Life has taken me in some new directions both personally and professionally and I'm grateful for all the twists and turns. Health is good. All yearly check-ups were positive. No enlargement of the coronary aneurysms! I had 6 weeks of "within-range" INR readings & then it shot up and back to normal. It's a roller coaster, but the techs are great and I honestly look forward to seeing them a few times a month. The valve noise never went away. The cardiologist told me at my 1 year that it probably never would. Don't get me wrong, I want it to keep beating, but MAN IS IT LOUD sometimes. most of the time I don't notice, but it can effect my concentration on Game of Thrones. I still really miss ibuprofen and decongestants. I mean I REALLY REALLY miss them. But the loss is nothing compared to the idea that I would have had to replace a pig valve and do surgery all over again. YEA for mechanical valves! All in all the last few months have been awesome! The first year may have sucked (a lot of it from the random other injuries I sustained), but it did in fact get back to normal!

So, 11 months have come and gone and I’m still kicking! This month has been really, really good, especially compared to the previous year! Only one “new” injury, another trigger finger, but that seems to have been resolved with another round of cortisone. INR has been up (5.6) and down (1.3) like CRAZY. It’s a bit frustrating, but the docs are keeping a close eye on it. Have I mentioned how much I miss Brussel sprouts… and decongestants…. I am a bit nervous about my upcoming annual checkups. There’s no reason to think that things are going bad, but the CT scan next Tuesday will let us know if the coronary aneurysms have changed at all. They docs think they were caused by a childhood illness (Kawasaki’s), so odds are pretty good that they have either stayed the same or possibly gotten smaller. Today I met a girl at Chick-fil-a who had gone through open heart surgery just 5 months ago. She recognized my scar and inquired about my surgery. This is not the first time this has happened and I hope it’s not the last. The “zipper” is a badge of courage and strength and the longer I have it the more it becomes a part of me (although I’m still not 100%). The gals and I are in ATL for work (and a bit of play ;) to kick off my favorite/birthday month. It’s hard to believe that a year ago I asked to postpone my surgery so that I could have a month of fun first. This time I can relax and enjoy all the activities (ATL, Film Fest, camping, etc) and know that the month won’t (hopefully) end in an 8 inch scar! Thank you again for all of the thoughts, well wishes, and prayers. They have truly been felt and it’s great to know I have such an awesome support group!

My 10th month was a bit if a blur. Lots of work, healing bones, a newly diagnosed trigger finger & lots of pool time. I made it through with no new injuries and no illnesses ! Occasionally words still escape my mind, but until the doc says to worry I'll consider it a run of "pumphead". I'm starting to set up my 1 year appointments and so far it looks like I may be able to come out unscathed except for a chest ct (for the coronary aneurysms ). I can't believe it's been almost a year! 11 months is quickly approaching and I promise to have better pics and a better update then! :)

Wanted to get the group's insight- I'm almost 10 months post-op and tonight (for the first time in probably 4 months) i started having sternum pain, just v luke after surgery. I have been coughing pretty hard and figure this is probably normal (although very unfun). I'm wondering if anyone else has gone months without pain and then it's come back (when sick or otherwise). Thanks!

Here's what month 9 brought to my attention: - sternum pain appears to be gone! - scar appears to be lightening without the use of scar cream (for the past month) - I still haven't learned the words to Ridin' Dirty - Sand can be harder than it looks - the valve has still not quieted down, but i only usually notice it at night (*thank God for sleeping pills!!) - the 6 weeks at the beginning of this journey prepared me for my time with a broken elbow (yep...fractured with a ulna bone chip) -despite trying to track my vitamin K my inr can still drop to a 1.1 :( - & #sandholesaintnojokeson It's been a ride this month! The light at the end of the tunnel is starting to look promising!

It's been 1 year since I found out I had a bicuspid valve & would have to have open heart surgery. It's been an uphill battle BUT I've survived Pnemonia, Dx of aneurysm & bicuspid aortic valve, coughing up an an alien baby, Dx of coronary aneurysms (thanks to an undiagnosed childhood illness), open heart surgery, a throat infection, cut finger = tetnus shot, sciatica, botched medical apparatus = new surgery, 2 blood transfusions, bronchitis, sinus infection, sinus infection, sprained/strained ankle, "factured" elbow, & another sinus infection. Being 8 months post-op I can now say that although it may not appear to have been a great year, each moment was a blessing. God has shown me that by trusting Him I can get through anything! I'd throw in a thumbs up pic for this anniversary, but the arm cast doesn't photograph well ;) So here's to an uneventful 4 months so I can take a great 1 year post-op pic!

I'm wondering if anyone has used Hy-tape or has any other suggestions for covering the open heart surgery scar during beach & pool weather. My scar is 6 months old and the top few inches are still healing and really sensitive. Made my first outing today, kept 50 spf on it and kept it covered with a UV shirt, but Id like to actually get in the pool at some point and I'm not confident this is enough. Thanks!

SO 6 months have official come and gone! Here’s what I’ve learned: - A person can go from 3 months of pure mental anguish to almost perfect just by waking up one afternoon on a cool October day. That first wake up experience may involve puking all over one’s self, but that moment when you realize you are alive and puking..well… that’s priceless! - I truly miss decongestants. - I have not gotten used to the ticking of my valve. It’s fine when I’m engaged in an activity, but is similar to Chinese water torture when it’s quiet. - Even with lettuce & antibiotics, my INR was low today. (1.8…. seriously… it won’t stay in range). - I really, really miss decongestants. - Mind over matter may be a fib. - I’ve been sick for so long (thankfully not heart related, but it’s been 2.5 months) that I have resorted to watching a Canadian show on Netflix because I’ve watched all the good stuff. - I have an amazing support group. - My strength is markedly better than it was a month ago. - I want to cry like a 3 year old when I think about how much I miss decongestants. - There is a forest through the trees, even though it’s hard to see sometimes. - “MOVE.” Kind of like “Just Do It” this is a phrase to live by. - A Sinugator is 103526 times better than a Netti Pot. In fairness, I did know this before. - The top few inches of my incision takes much longer to heal than the bottom 5. Some of these things are not a surprise. I do feel that I was in a better place (although not as strong) 5 weeks after surgery. I was also still taking some pain meds, so that may be the difference :) I pray that the crud part of this experience (and other really random medical stuff) is behind me, and that these next 6 months are going to rock! Or at least decent.

So my INR is just whack. Range 2-3 Last week - 1.6 Today -5.6 Even if you're not good at math,I'm clearly out of range. Been tracking food, meds, etc. Now thinking it could new probiotics (i went off 2 days ago, w docs knowing). So even the good stuff is still wreaking havoc! Great news is Spinach for dinner! !!!!!

So the end of month 4 and in to month 5 were pretty much the worst few weeks of my existence. I felt like absolute dung & got some equally named assistance from an ER doc and one of my (now former) docs (THANKFULLY not my GP or Cardiologist!). I actually think that the awful moments of worrying about death pre-op were better than my latest stint in the hospital and what lead me there. The drugs of post-op are likely what made that less awful than the way I was feeling physically for those few weeks. ON THE BRIGHT SIDE: THAT IS NOW OVER! St Pat's was great, although much less movement than usual due spending the week and a half prior with sciatica, a blood transfusion, "out patient" surgery, a random illness, 16 decent sized bruises and 3 days in the hospital. I was able to have a great time with my friends, and temporarily put the awesomeness of March behind me for 2 days. So where I am now is actually pretty good. Although I'm not quite yet singing the EVERYTHING IS AWESOME song from the Lego Movie, I am feeling fairly confident this will be a reality someday soon. We're in the last quarter of the school year and gearing up for Camp Moja, so things are quite busy. Still sticking with an unusually early bedtime (for me anyway) and getting back on the exercise track this week (since this was not a possibility at all for a few weeks). Finally, I've decided to buy stock in Walgreen's. It's also now my "happy place" which may be a little worrisome but I'm willing to overlook that for now :)

4 months post-op today! How did I celebrate, you ask? Well first I took a trip back to the hospital for blood work, and earned a groovy new sticker (no tears! .. also no tears pre-op... but I don't remember the rest of the day, so can't guarantee there weren't any ) Friday night I got to experience my first sciatic nerve incident. I do believe that that it was a more painful experience than the open heart surgery. All those years of watching tv dad's throw out their backs, and now I was experiencing it first hand. At least with heart surgery they gave you a ton of drugs! Doc(s) say no 5k for me this week - so I guess I'll post-pone that goal. Since I'm now without restriction maybe I can actually jog the next 5k. I did get to take my first ibuprofen since July. It was not as exciting as I was hoping. All else is well here. 15 days until St. Pat's, and my next goal of making through the holiday without any major pain!

Prednesolone = bad? I've taken it before and it helps a lot, but now it may be causing some issues. First the potential adverse effect of lowering my INR (which is back to 2.3) & now some potential nerve issues Went to doc today as I'd been having some odd "numbness" in toes, arms, cheek & tongue (all in minimal time increments and not at same time). Doc thinks could be the steroid. Going to reassess in 2 weeks if not this, then we'll look at heart and other meds. Anyone else have side effects they didnt have before surgery ?

Somehow 8 weeks has gone by since I went back to work. To be honest, the first month felt like 8 years, so it feels like an eternity and a blur all at the same time. The adjustment back was not as I'd expected. It was mostly great when I was there (or at home doing work), but it totally wore me down physically and a bit emotionally. I think my groundhogs day of a recovery and quicker-than-expected physical recovery lead me to believe that I should be able to conquer the world once again. NOPE. I was wrong. Turns out conquering the world is still a ways off, but I am taking steps to get there. Other than the few random hours of crying like a spoiled 4 year old (only for different reasons) I've been fairing pretty well. I'm trying to keep things optimistic and rely on God so that some day I can look back at this whirlwind of a year and breathe a sigh of relief and chuckle. At what more to chuckle at than more aneurysms? Turns out during the heart cath they found not 1 but 4 aneurysms in my coronary artery (1=6mm, 3 =2-3mm). Let's talk about how awesome it was to find this out a few weeks ago! Hmmm second favorite day ever I believe???... AND when the results were looked at by another cardiologist they saw 2 more (although very tiny). SO now I'm getting more tests done. Blood tests this week, a CAT scan in the next few weeks, and possibly another cath in the coming months. Although they aren't sure if this is another luck-of-the-draw congenital thing, a virus I may have had as a kid (muted-Kawaski's) or some random pill my mom may have taken while pregnant, it's being treated all the same. At this point the docs think with the meds I'm already on, plus the monitoring, that the aneurysms could possibly be managed without any further complications. OR I may end up with a by-pass. Fingers crossed and prayers up that it's the former. Could things get any more interesting you ask? Well, of course they can! You know my luck (after all I was nicknamed "gimp" in college) my INR has also been crazy low (1.2-1.4) and I've had some funk of a cold/virus/crud-thingy that keeps lingering. In other news, I'm getting ready for a 5k next week and I'm full swing in the Camp Moja mode. I've gone back to thinking that light at the end of the tunnel might be a miner's cart or a train after all... only time will tell.

For the first 30 days after surgery things were a little foggy. Then my life turned in to Groundhogs Day. Everyday the same thing over and over and over . - wake up - take meds - break up scar tissue - put on Mederma - take out dog - breakfast - cardiac rehab - errands - lunch - break up scar tissue - put on Mederma - rest/hang out w friends - take dog for a walk - break up scar tissue - put on Mederma - dinner - LHOTP/GG tv time - take out dog - break up scar tissue - put on Mederma - take meds - bed It was a simple time, but usually not exciting. During the longest day ever: My speed started to increase on the treadmill (3.5 mph) & my free weights eventually did too (4lbs). Acupuncture or coincidence seemed to be working on the pain. I finished all 3 tv series zip (LHOTP, GG, OUAT) & I successfully started and quit several hobbies. About a week ago the excitement and anxiety of returning set in. Would I remember my passwords? Would my sleeping pills work consistently? How much pain would I be in? Would i have to start back on Tylenol? It was a lot to wrap my brain around. Today, 1/5/15 was finally the big day. Turns out it was great. I loved being back in the thick of things , in a career I lOve, with awesome co-workers & at a great university. Groundhogs day is finally over! & aside for a wretchedly sore rib, I survived!

I can't believe it's been 8 weeks since my surgery & that my eightweekaversary is on Christmas! Although the doctors cleared me to fly I was overwhelmed at the prospect of doing so. I was able to see most of my immediate family in the last 2 months, so that plus phone calls, Skype & my good friends in Savannah made the thought of staying bearable. So after 13 years of traveling I was able to enjoy Christmas in the south. With 65 degree weather today I'm wondering why people don't come here next year. My ribs (or rather the muscles around them) & my incision have been killing me this week. This has been happening occasionally over the last few weeks, but this week was consistent. I went back to having to hug a pillow and completely sit up in bed in order to "roll" over. This pain has not been touched by the Tylenol or leftover hydro. It's starting to feel better, but strange that it regressed ... or maybe it's the cardiac rehab(im up to 3.4 mph & 3 lb weights) that's causing it. .. in either case I shall just grin, groan & bear it. The rib discomfort has definitely caused me to not want to be out as much. I keep reminding myself that I just need to move, because once I do the other part of my brain kicks in and I'm able to have a blast. The extravert in me is finally happy to have some form of a social life again. In news you never thought you'd hear: I started acupuncture this week, primarily because my nose is unhappy without decongestants. I was able to find a non-woowoo doctor, so I'm going to give this a try. I figure worst case scenario I'm only out some gas money. My INR is finally back within range. They told me last week that my age and good liver function might be playing in to the Coumadin being processed faster. Im hoping we can get it to goal soon because I don't want the fear of stroking out to keep me awake at night. The valve is doing a good enough job on its own ;) Im blessed to have you all in my life and I wish you a very merry Christmas

Up until now ive had a rib or two that have been sore. Currently i believe they all are on attack! I realize it's likely the new movement in cardiac rehab and the healing of the sternum, but today definitely laid me out for the first time. in over a month! ( as i type this at 5 am im laying on a heating pad with an icepack on my ribs , under the influence of 1000mg of. Tylenol. Im actually wondering if i have caused this pain. In the last few days i started massaging my scar w Vitamin E (circular motion for just a few minutes twice a day) and putting on mederma once a day. Did anyone. else have issues when they started doing this? Any suggestions on how you helped your scaar or sternum get back to "normal"? Thanks and Merry Christmas!.

This week has been a blessing of normalcy! After recovering from Disney, done the most tame way possible, Mom and I made sure to hit up all of the sites of Savannah before she went home. From River Street to Tybee to the gators at the Crab Shack & Paula Deen's it was a crazy ride. I learned that 1.5 hours of driving, even broken up in to small pieces, is definitely more than I can handle at this point. I'm not a fan of driving, so I think I can handle laying low on this for a while! I made it to both church and Sunday school this week, and found out that I'm also not quite fit to sit in a chair for 3 hours. Looks like I'll be bringing a pillow with me Sunday. Mom went home on Wednesday, and despite a debacle with the suitcases, I'd say she was sent in style. Words can't describe how extremely grateful I am that she was able to spend the last 7 weeks with me, making sure that I had what I needed & that my dog was able to go for walks. Speaking of which, I can now take Reilly out on my own! Cardiac Rehab (or physical therapy .. :) has been interesting. I was fortunate enough to get a class with fun people, who all seem to think I'm young (talk about an ego boost). I've been 3 times so far, and despite my desire to walk faster, we are focusing on time right now. 2.5 miles an hour is slower than you'd expect & it makes it really hard to keep time with JT or Kanye. Tomorrow I should able to increase speed since I've hit the time mark (30 minutes) they wanted. I'm up to 3 lbs of weights, and I can definitely feel that burn. I was informed that I'm not able to swing a driver until 4 months, and after finding out what that was I was able to rest easy. My INR was off again this week (1.5), so I'll be back to get my finger pricked again tomorrow. For many reasons I'm hoping it will be back to normal, with the biggest reason that I don't need the stress of stroking out on my list of things that keep me up at night (right behind the ticking valve and that awful scene from LHOTP this week). Thanks again for the prayers, good thoughts, and friendship you all bring!

Time to start some new stuff this week. First black-Friday shopping in a rascal. Firzt post-op w surgeon. First real annoyance with my valve sound keeping me up & waking me up. First almost breakdown. First drive in my car.first time back to Bible study! Surgeon says all looks well. Apparently i had a vasoval response on the tzable, which was both rare and "impressive". I dont recall seeing any lights, but i guess even under a ton of drugs i am ztill afraid of being sawed in half! (This may explain why my career in magic didnt work out.) Surgeon and cardiologist want to send me to an internist to rule out the connective tissue disorder. They think the bicuspid valve and enlargement may be coincidental, but want her to run more tests. INR was 1.5 today, so the thought is that now since im only taking pain killers to sleep that mayy have gotten me out of whack.Approved way to fix it -take a full dose of Coumadin once....Unapproved suggestions were to start drinking wine or take the pain killers recreationally :-P Next week i will officially start rehab. They think i should be able to take Reilly out on my own in a week and a half. The other option is to sell him to a city market employee and hope he can earn his keep in cuteness.

Well, it's been a month, although it feels like 6! Here's what I've learned: 1. Get up and walk everyday (starting day 3). Some days you can't go far and others you don't want to, but you must. 2. Logging your food will keep you in check, especially with new limits on vitamin K. 3. I am not a crafty person. 4. Accept help, because although in normal life you can do most everything, in most cases that is not true in your first few weeks/months after major surgery. 5. Don't be afraid to ask for pain meds, especially in the hospital. 6. I do not enjoy recreational reading. Reading is fun when it has a purpose. That is all. 7. These journals are a great way to not have to retell everything to everyone you know and love (plus it's a really great way for me to look back at the progress). 8. I am definitely an extrovert, and this recovery process sucks... this is the only time I wish I was an introvert or someone who liked to take naps...or read... or relax... 9. Alarms are great for Coumadin reminders. 10. I love and truly miss my "D" and "PE" sinus/cold products. As I type I have a cold, and it completely sucks more without that Robotussin DM. The regular stuff just doesn't work the same. As you can tell this has not been my best day of the month, but it's DEFINITELY not the worst. I'm heading to the surgeon and to rehab this week, so once I get passed this cold, I think I'll be ready to rock month 2!

Top o the morning to you (530 am)! I've attempted twice to take only Tylenol when I go to bed (I've Been able to take only Tylenol during the day a few times) & when I wake up I feel like I've been stepped on by Bigfoot. I'm not sure if it's just too early (almost 1 month) to do this & I should stick w the hydrocodone at night, or if I just need yup suck it up (which I dint think I can do). Suggestions?

Instead of listing all of the things I'm Thankful for this Thanksgiving (because there are about 5476470 & I've listed most before) I'll just say I'm very thankful this year!  Spent the day with my Savannah family,  the Feldmann's, & my mom.   I had Brussel Sprouts for the first time in a month - so hopefully my INR number won't go completely out of whack! Everything was great,  As always,  everything was A-mazing & the kids were friggin adorable (despite some unhappiness from one). Although I did 0% of the cooking I did manage to work on a banner.   Turns out an hour or so of tracing and cutting is about all I can handle.    We drug mom out to Michaels & got some stuff to keep me occupied the next few weeks.  I figure I feel like I'm 90 so I should just embrace it.... & I deff feel physically 90 after today! Overall I'm doing great.  I have to remind myself I'm not even close to being where I was physically 29 days ago,  but it's getting better each day & I'm pretty sure now the light at the end of the tunnel is not in fact a train. 

Well, it's been 3 weeks and today I made it a full mile (for the first time since surgery)!! For the past 3 weeks, thanks to supersonic hearing and my windpipe, I'e been able to hear my valve conistently click every second or so. Last night, it decided to do a double click each time. Needless to say, this was a little scary, since I could hear every "click-click". Turns out (after speaking to the on-call doc & my bff's mom - who has been invaluable) that too much caffeine is the likely culprit. I saw the cardiologist this week, and he gently reminded me that it was still a few more weeks until I would feel "human" again, and that despite my weird request to do squats or situps, I still needed to rest and stick only to walking for the next two weeks (when I start rehab). So it looks like my groundhog's day experience will continue for a bit longer, but by the time it's over it's likely that LHOTP and Gilmore Girls will be too! Thanks again for the good thoughts and prayers - keep 'em coming, because they're working!

I survived! Everyday I'm feeling better and each day the pain is more manageable. Aside from feeling like I survived a knife-fight,I'm getting out and walking everyday. Thanks to living in SAV there are a lot of cool places to walk. I'm ready to be back out in the real world (being sick is hard on this extrovert), but I'm not ready for the germs yet! 3 more weeks until I can start cardiac rehab, but in the meantime I'm having fun just hanging out with mom! Thanks to everyone who has come by, brought food, sent things, or posted something funny/supportive. It really means a lot! & a special thanks to my mom who has been here day in and day out and been simply awesome!

Today was a challenging day in which I had no desire to go for my walk or eat. I pushed through both and although I'm not ecstatic about it I'm very glad I did.

I am tube free! the draining tubes came out easily. I cannot say the same for the pace-maker wires. Today I walked the whole floor unassisted! Off to get a chest xray!

Went on my first walk today (to the end of the hall and back)! Hopefully getting a nap soon.. Oxygen levels are ok, so no more tubes for nOw. Waiting on surgeon for go ahead to do that without him. I hear it will help the pain -- fingers are crossed! !

Ok folks I'm finally under some good meds and the hot burning knife sensation is becoming less and less! Coughing exercises ate ok- but I'm back on oxygen. The great news is I'm getting up and moving with very little issues. Once the draining tubes chime out I'll be able to walk around the floor. Thank you again for your prayErs and well wishes!