I finally feel like myself emotionally and physically. I am happy to report waking up feeling energetic and optimistic for the day ahead. As a previously highly active person, beginning cardiac rehab ( 2 sessions so far) and returning to my zoom yoga classes, I am finding my center again. I feel that so much of my current status is a result of finding this forum. Overall, my surgical and medical care have been excellent for my physical well being, but extremely lacking for my emotional and spiritual well being. No one prepared me for the emotional impact following my mitral valve repair. By accident, I found this website a few weeks after surgery when I was struggling. I plan to discuss the need for my cardiologist to address these issues with patients and make sure to refer emotional supports, such as this site with patients. Physical healing and emotional healing are so intertwined- to ignore the “ heart” side of open heart surgery is a grave mistake. I realize I may not wake up feeling this positive every day, but I am grateful today for this life and the opportunity to express myself today. The words of encouragement have been so healing. I am not there yet to offer those words to others, but I do offer my best wishes to all for physical and emotional healing❤️
This morning, I begin my initial cardiac rehab evaluation and I begin next week! I am hopeful but tentatively cautious in my expectations. I am on day 3 of new blood pressure meds after dangerously low readings. I had a momentary strange experience this morning I will share with the rehab people. I turned my head and the room moved a moment later ( feeling a little Like vertigo. Then, my lips began to tingle for a few seconds. Scariest thought is I experienced some sort of TIA, mini stroke. -only lasted a few seconds and I feel fine now. I am so looking forward to having professional help to understand my body. Sometimes I feel like a new person inside of a new body and we don’t know one another. I was fortunate to have a yoga teacher offer me a courtesy zoom guided meditation focusing on patience and healing yesterday. The image of a care bear with Healing light shining out of my heart came to mind. What a journey this is - 5 weeks and 3 days post minimally invasive mitral valve repair. Love this forum❤️
At this time, 4 weeks ago, my husband had dropped me off and I walked in alone to Stanford Hospital. Due to Covid, I was on my own- a metaphor really since this experience is one that loved ones can provide support but truly only the patient experiences. Yesterday I did my treadmill visit at the cardiologist to get clearance for cardiac rehab. I am trying to scale my expectations but the idea of having somewhere to go 3 times a week for 4 weeks seems delightful. We will see.
I feel like this moment is a milestone in recovery and healing that is so difficult to imagine when there are a multitude of tubes coming out of the body in a hospital bed. I am grateful to have found this forum and am reading and rereading the kind comments emphasizing patience and slowing down.
Heart surgery has been the most difficult unexpected turn of events in my life thus far- I am looking forward to this experience being in the “rear view mirror”.
I had minimally invasive mitral valve repair August 4th. We think it should be called “less invasive”. I left the hospital the 10th and have had a few setbacks with recovery. Four days home, I had to have an ER visit to rule out stroke due to some momentary loss of vision in a field of my eye. Turned out to be a mini stroke in my eye which thankfully did not result in any permanent damage. I had some A- fib after surgery so after my follow visit with my cardiologist, he has me wearing a device glued to my chest since the 21st to monitor A - fib ( which I never had before. ) By the way, I was one of those asymptomatic ones who was monitoring mvp and mod to severe regurgitation. I was highly active 63 year old - yoga, hiking, running, stretching , etc bragging about how nothing hurts. So, after this surgery, I’m questioning if I’ll ever feel better again! I’m in Northern California where we had excessive heat, power outage for 48 hours, fires nearby with unhealthy air, and a very cranky me. I’m walking up to 2-3 miles daily, waiting ( hopefully) to begin cardiac rehab soon, sleeping a lot, crying a lot and feeling very irritable with my loving family. Please tell me I will feel better again and the risk of congestive heart failure is way worse than this ordeal.
Thanks for listening