David's Journal

John Cook  Surgery is the only treatment for heart valve disease.  The alternative is refusing treatment.

I don’t regret my surgery on June 3rd.  While I’m not back to 100% for exercise (and won’t be this year), I probably won’t die in my 50s or 60s like so many people in my family have.

Valerie Allen  Severe depression generally does not just go away. Talk to your docs about medication and talk therapy to help you out.

Melinda Donahue  David what is the beta blocker and what are your symptoms ?  At 12 days I was a total mess only home 2. This website helped me immensely. Keep posting and sharing how you feel. I still am a wreck and have ‘buyers remorse’ less than 3 weeks ago but still it creeps in. 

Melinda Donahue  David, are you feeling better physically?  
Honestly, every day is a small improvement. Sometimes it’s hard to see it, but there is. Anyone that’s around you probably will notice it before you do. I’m a nervous wreck! I’m nervous about the metal parts left in my body and I obsess about them-I obsess about endocarditis blood clots, bacterial infections anything that you could read on the Internet I obsessed about it! These amazing  people on this site help me realize that it’s not a problem. I read some of the comments from people who got surgery 15 years ago and they’re all doing well we all hope that you’re feeling better. I think I win the prize for the nervous wreck of the year. 

David Pearl  I've been in the counseling since 1988. And I'm dedicated to destroying my life. Hasn't helped at all. Antidepressants all that stuff I've got treatment resistant depression. My only wish is to be dead. I feel a million times worse since I did the surgery. I regret having done the surgery. I was asymptomatic at the time of surgery now I'm a basket case. I'm in a nursing home right now and every hour I just wake up screaming and crying I can't sleep well I'm depressed I feel utterly hopeless about life

Susan Lynn  Keep looking ahead.   Focus on where you want to go, not where you are.  We got through it - you will, too!  Believe! 

John Cook  I felt a little demoralized going home with a cane to help me balance and I felt more tired at home for several days than I did in the hospital.

It’s important to try to get back a sense of normalcy to hang onto.  Make a routine for yourself.  Get short walks in even if you are just pacing around the room. Get some sunshine and fresh air if you enjoy that sort of thing. Keep your nutrition and protein up.

Valerie Allen  Just doing some reading on “post-illness integration.” Interesting, you may want to read some on that. It talks about reconciling pride about what you’ve been through with usually temporary feelings of loss or grief. Anyway something to work through, more so for some than others.

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  David, think that all of us here with valve problems, more or less serious, are thinking of you and understand and support you. Think of the good people around, who can be sure there are everywhere.

Thomas Brusstar  David, it is definitely a traumatic operation. You’re probably wondering why you did this to your body and whether you will get better. The truth is that you have solved a problem and can lead the rest of your life without worrying about your heart valves please just give your body time to recover And take heart in the milestones of recovery. You are young and have moved past what would have been a chronic health problem for the rest of your life.  The surgery doesn’t erase all the worry leading up to the surgery and it doesn’t erase the memories of the brutal procedure and recovery.  But it does solve the actual problem.

John Cook  Between the stress, trauma, & drugs, heart surgery is something that can dial your emotions up to 10.  A lot of the first couple weeks is just getting to the next day and the promise you will eventually feel better.

David Pearl  Going out of ICU was horrific Monday - the grief was brutal. Now getting ready to leave the  hospital for the nursing home in less than one day. Any good advice in regards to this major transition/loss/grief ?  Regards

David Pearl  So it turns out the biggest 2 sources of pain related to the surgery are:
1) The profound sense off loss related to being released from ICU and being released from the hospital.

Carmen P  David, 3 days out, I'm sure you are in pain and it seems that it may never get better.  Hang in there.  It will take some time, but it will get better.  The good news is, that you came through surgery.  Trying to remain positive when you are hurting is not an easy job.  I can relate. Try to stay ahead of the pain.  I hated "playing the pain number game".  How do you know what a 10 is,  unless you have felt it?  I know it's hard, but try to keep a sense of humor and keep on ticking.  Good luck and hopefully tomorrow will be a little better than today.  

John Cook  I hear you. I went into the hospital doing 3 mile runs the week before surgery & came home from the hospital walking with a cane because of weakness in my hip from being in bed for 9 days.

Most of my first week after surgery was in ICU. I felt so bad, I didn’t want to look at myself.

Unfortunately, for us with heart valve disease, the only treatment is surgery and without treatment, it’s terminal.

Not every day is going to feel like a good day, but every week you will feel better than the previous week until one day you realize you feel normal again.  It’s probably going to be around 12 weeks +/- a couple weeks.

It’s a long journey to get there, but I know you will get there even though today feels like a struggle just getting through the day.

Valerie Allen  Don’t use 3 days after surgery as a measuring stick of how you are going to feel. Each day gets significantly better.
You do have to put some work into it. Welcome to recovery!

Robert Miller  I think the question you have to ask yourself is how you would feel a year away if you didn't get surgery (hypothetical question as you can't predict the future). Most surgeons don't put you through surgery, even if it's their profession, if it isn't necessary. So you probably needed the surgery and you will be of a lot better in the long run even if it doesn't feel like it right now. 

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  Of course David, before surgery, all want at first to sidestep and escape from it, but after God - f you has religious beliefs - only medical science remains and doctors as a reasonable fix. Cheers up! Things will work out.

Janet Gaffney  David, it is so normal to want to escape from everything - it’s so scary and overwhelming. At first I, too, thought dying would just be easier than going through any of this, I was sort of hoping I’d just go to sleep and not wake up. 
But. 
Look at how brave you are. I’d NEVER be able to move to and live in Thailand. That seems really hard to do! (And look at your pic all full of personality!)
For some reason, you are being called to be extra brave now, too. 
Your work here on earth is not done. God is still writing your story - and there’s a lot of life left for you to enjoy. 
Yes, recovery will be a challenge. But not impossible. Afterwards, you will join the ranks of others on here who are absolute warriors as they overcame really tough surgery. Keep scrolling through and try to gain inspiration from those who shared their stories. 
Take a deep breath. We’re all here thinking of you. 

Thomas Brusstar  David, I really felt empowered by my healing after the surgery.  The human body is amazing, and you will be amazed at what your body is doing.  I had my valve repair in 2018, and far from ruining my life, it really took cardiac issues off the table for me.  I still get an annual echo and meet with a cardiologist, just because I like hearing good news!  Even cardiologists say listening to my heart they literally wouldn't know I ever had a failing mitral valve.  I have a clean little chest scar (disappearing more all the time) to prove it, but you owe yourself this fix so you can enjoy your amazing life for decades more!

David Pearl  Interesting I guess everybody wants to escape for the surgery I get that one of my doctors here in Bangkok said do you understand you need to do the surgery?

Janet Gaffney  David, you are going through the worst of it right now. It’s bad, I know. You had open heart surgery! Try to look forward and track your progress week to week - and then month to month. Baby steps. Small, tiny (frustrating) baby steps, maddeningly slow at times - like now - but steps forward, nonetheless. Picture yourself doing something enjoyable - in the future - and doing it with a fixed, healthy heart. Do you have access to YouTube? There are a lot of post-surgery meditations for healing that you can find; they help put you in a positive frame of mind. Or if you are a person of faith, prayer will help, too. If you’re ‘woo-woo’, like me, and again if you have YouTube, you can find videos with healing frequencies - it’s just music played at different hertz (hz). 432 hz is the ‘healing’ frequency and they are easy to find. 

David Pearl  Going out of ICU was horrific Monday - the grief was brutal. Now getting ready to leave the  hospital for the nursing home in less than one day. Any good advice in regards to this major transition/loss/grief ?  Regards

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  Hang in there, David! Try to cheer yourself up. It'll help you on the surgery and afterward, too.

Valerie Allen  You can do it. Just go with the flow now, listen to music or an audiobook. Meditate to quiet your mind. You will feel differently once in recovery! Deep breaths. You are fighting yourself. These things will help. Ask for anti-anxiety meds.

Maureen Hoganson  Don't give up David!!!! This is a lifechanging operation -- and you sound worn out and overwhelmed, which is to be expected and not uncommon in your situation. I came across this article today, which may be helpful. Just remember you are NOT alone -- and continued prayers for your surgery and recovery!!! https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/what-i-learned-from-my-open-heart-surgery-part-1/ 

John Cook  Recovery is a long & difficult road but you can manage the journey.  Every week you get a little bit better and better until one day you realize you feel normal again for almost all your activities.

It took me about 10 weeks to get there.  Now at Week 16, my only complaint is my ability to run is 75% of what it was pre-surgery.  I’ll get it back, it just takes more time.

Sue Maize  David, I feel so much empathy for you and I know you don’t have a strong support network around you. Let us be that for you in the days, weeks and months to come! Heart surgery is so hard to face not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Recovery can be like that too but you are not alone. This community was an absolute God-send to me above and beyond having good support from friends and family. 
you may not be able to take certain medications until a certain point post-surgery, but I highly recommend you advocate for yourself  on this if the anxiety and depression become too much. I had no idea what I was in for, but I’m so grateful I didn’t give up—you don’t have to either. Keep connected to your HVS family! Praying for you. 🙏🏻❤️‍🩹

Robert Miller  I am not sure what to say but this surgery is just a little hiccup in your life. It's a lot easier than it sounds. I understand you don't have a big support network but this can be done without any help. It just needs some planning. Ending your life would be the completely wrong way to go. Your heart surgery will give you many more years. And while I never lived in Thailand, I travelled enough in Asian countries and there is a lot to live for. 

David Pearl  I feel very alone I'm in a foreign country I don't have family I've got a toxic girlfriend I'm with I don't have much to look forward to I've just got one sick brother in San Jose I'm a cash patient I don't have a home I don't have a job I feel very alone in the world I suffer from severe depression anxiety insomnia self-doubt I'm actually hoping I die in the operating table

David Pearl  Thanks for all the kind words and just to clarify I do have some cousins aunts and uncles but I didn't grow up with them they're not responding to me I just really grew up with two brothers and two parents. One of my brothers is still alive thank God he's been with a wonderful woman for 30 years so her family has become my family my other brother died of a heart attack a while back only 46 his widow is sort of like my sister she kept the family name never got married I'm lucky I've got friends going back to when I was a small child growing up in California so I've got people I know going back over 50 years I'm not just in California but here in Thailand all over the world I do have a psychologist a psychiatrist a coach I'm started going to church again on Buddhist I'm meditation anyways it's 1:30 in the afternoon surgeries at 7:00 I'm still hoping to ask one more critical question of the surgeon I'm going to get out of my room soon and take a walk get out of here but I'm trying to meditate my hotel room is getting pretty dialed in and I'm vegan I made it all dressed up for me I just met my cardiologist again and I told him how good the food was he was laughing I just gave a good review of the hospital like I said I'm very strictly plant-based in these guys are really knocking it out of the ballpark here give me really good clean food I'm trying to have a lot of gratitude I even left some money and a you know I left a

Rose Madura  David, you are making this harder on yourself than you need to.  You aren't going to be an invalid after OHS. You will be surprised at how well you do. The waiting can be rough but it's usually not as bad as our minds tell us. There are lots of good people in the world who will help you open doors if you just tell them you need help. Don't worry about the scar, you can barely see mine. Use time now to see about getting groceries delivered when you need them.  Bottom line ...good people in the world will help if you ask for it.  👍

Kimberly Eisenhut  Rose, you answered so perfectly. I agree, you will get the things you need and help from anyone around you, if you just ask. Most people feel good helping someone else with small tasks like opening a door or carrying some groceries. Look to your neighbors and let them know also. You will be o.k. May Peace be in your heart and mind David

David Pearl  I live in a building in Thailand I could get stuck on the ground floor where I live the 7th floor not being able to open the door. I'm currently in a toxic relationship and I want to get a couple more weeks before surgery so I can rid myself of my current girlfriend. I don't have any living family or anybody to take care of me so I'm really concerned about getting back to normal and getting help after surgery. I'm going to go to a nursing home for one month and after that I'm looking at home health care I live in a tiny molecular studio and it's going to be awkward to have a stranger staying with me. I don't have a car there's no social services here laundry is downstairs and I'm worried about grocery shopping. I don't drive a car I haven't driven a car in 8 years so I'm dependent on Taxi subways trains planes buses whatever get around. I live a very active lifestyle. I live for traveling internationally and I'm worried about that. I'm not living the conventional lives that you people are living back in America no insurance no family to take care of me living in a tall disabled unfriendly building I don't drive a car I don't have laundry in my unit I live in Thailand since May 4th 2017. I wish I'd gotten to know more disabled friendly condom here in Bangkok I wish I gotten out of my current relationship sometimes I wish I was back in America but I'm not. Again I'm envious of you people who somehow managed to live conventional life with security. I didn't set out to live an unconventional lifestyle or live overseas it just worked out that way. I didn't intend to have all my family dead but that's what happened I'm the last person alive in my family I didn't intend to be single childless unmarried are not married but I'm in that situation I've had trouble letting go of my girlfriend because I don't have anybody else

David Pearl  There aren't any neighbors around to open the elevator door on my floor I might have to just sit there and wait for a long time. I'm not so worried about the glass doors in the ground for I'm in Thailand nobody speaks English here I don't have any English speaking neighbors. You guys need to reread my messages no offense I appreciate you helping me it's going to be hard for me to get out of my front door into the elevator if the door is not open. This is Thailand nobody speaks English here. And I'm going to need help with laundry grocery shopping I'm trying to break up with my girlfriend I don't ride I don't have a car so I'm relying on on motorbike taxis or regular taxis or Subways to get around. I'm worried about grocery shopping and laundry this is Thailand not America guys come on it's not the same thing. Nobody speaks English here there's no social services there's no nobody to take care of you I think the nursing home is a good idea then the next two months I get people to stay with me but again I live in a molecular studio apartment it's going to be awkward to have stranger Stay With Me again this is not America this is Thailand people don't speak English here.

David Pearl  I'm worried about getting trapped in my unit. On the 7th floor where I live there's no way to open the door easily. I could end up waiting for a long time I'm afraid I'm going to need somebody to stay with me for about 3 months after surgery stop telling me to get help from people in my building they don't speak English and I could get stuck on my floor for a long time before somebody shows up to help me out. They've got really heavy glass doors all over the building and to get into other buildings for security issues there's over a thousand people living in all three of my buildings. The security guards don't speak English nor do the people in my condo office.

David Pearl  It's hard to talk to people on heart valve groups because you guys are living conventional lives. You've got families you've got security you've got stability you're back in America you've got cars you got insurance that covers your surgery this is a foreign country that never was conquered by colonial power so the level of English speaking is really low. I haven't lived in a house since 1990. I've never been married I don't have kids in my family is dead. That's one of the reasons I moved overseas because everybody is dead in my family except for one sick brother who can barely leave the house for 18 years.

David Pearl  Okay let me try to spell it out - how long will I need help or how long will it be until I can do a full grocery store trip keeping in mind that I don't have a car? How long will I have problems opening heavy glass to worse for? When will I be able to do light laundry loads downstairs in my building? How long will I need help at home for and for what activities? When will I be able to ride the subway again? Is it safe to take a taxi after surgery cuz that's the only way I got to get around? When can I start writing on the back of motorcycle taxis? When can I start writing the bus? When can I start writing trains? When will I be able to go back to the gym? When will I be able to take long International trips?

David Pearl  The laundry machines in my building are top loading how am I going to reach deep into the machine to put and pull things out? I've almost strained myself even without heart surgery. There's no front loading everything is top loading. And how am I going to drag even light loads back upstairs? Secondly I don't have a car I don't have anybody to try me around so all I can do is rely on taxis how am I going to do grocery shopping after surgery? What if I get stranded on my floor for a while waiting for somebody to open the door for me? Well there's always a lot of people on the ground floor there's not always people on my floor the 7th floor to open and close doors. Also if I have a cardiac emergency off hours there may not be anybody around to help me with the doors. It's not that people don't want to help it's that nobody may be available and language is definitely a barrier. And again how am I going to do laundry shopping what about activities of daily living early on like showering cooking eating cleaning up? I also only have a half size refrigerator so I have to bend down all the time to get anything out of it. I've also got a fairly heavy glass door that leads out to my own balcony. Also the kitchen is on a balcony behind another glass door. I'm trying to keep everything at waste level but it could be challenging I did put non-skid mats in both parts of the bathroom I put a handicap bars in both parts the bathroom I just built myself a small handicap chair for the bathroom by the way there is no stove or oven where I live it's just a pan that I cook with. My unit is extremely small only 300 ft so having somebody stay over with me for home health care will be awkward. I'm still trying to figure out what to do about my abusive toxic relationship I thought about pushing the surgery out a couple more weeks so I could break up with her and get used to being alone again I just want to reconfirm my family is dead except for my sick brother who lives 8,000 miles away. I haven't lived in America since May 4th 2017 I don't have surgery I don't have a home so please don't suggest anything about related to America I don't have a car either since May 4th 2017. And yes my main mode of transportation is either the Subway or riding on the back of a motorcycle taxi. I'm assuming both those are going to go away for at least 3 months along with the gym swimming air travel.

David Pearl  Anyone gone through surgery at a tall disabled unfriendly building overseas without family? If so how did you cope? Anybody get through without a car?

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  David, this poem of Calderón de la Barca, can be applied in the life sufferings of every one. I hope you like it .
"They
tell of a wise man who one day

was so poor and wretched,

that he only lived

on some herbs he picked.



"Is there anyone," he said to
himself,

"poorer and sadder than I?"



And when he turned his face,

he found the answer, seeing

that another wise man was picking

the herbs he had thrown away".

John Cook  It’s not so much that you can’t do things with your arms. It’s that you can’t do things with your arms extended. My hospital calls it, “move in the tube.” For anything heavy or difficult for your arms, do it with both hands at the same time and with them close to your body.

For opening doors, grab the handle with both hands, keep your hands close, and use your shoulder to help you push or pull if you can.

With stairs, up will be more difficult than down.  Just take your time. Take a break if you need to. I had some post-op weakness in my left leg and used a cane for balance for a week after leaving the hospital.

As Rose said, you won’t be an invalid. You’ll just be weaker and slower for a while. You’ll get through it.

Sometimes recovery will feel frustratingly slow and sometimes it will feel amazingly fast. 

For laundry, I saw a guy who taped a laundry basket to a skateboard to get it back and forth without having to carry anything. 

You could get a wagon, trolly, or stroller that you could use for both laundry & groceries so you don’t have to carry those things. Something you can push with both hands would be preferable to pulling with one hand.

Taxis, buses, & trains should be fine. You’ll want to sit on buses & trains. Having a pillow to put between you and a seatbelt is good to have for the first 4 - 6 weeks.

No motorcycles (or bicycles) until your sternum restrictions are lifted, the standard is 12 weeks.

If a Cardiac Rehab program isn’t available to you at the hospital, the gym should wait until Week 6. You can do treadmill and stationary cycling in the RPE 4 to 6 range (look up the modified Borg Scale of Perceived Exertion).

You can start using very light weights (5lb dumbbells or lower) at Week 10. The point of using weights is more about getting your torso accustomed to stretching and turning again more than it is about trying to build muscle.

I started working again at Week 4.  I didn’t start driving into work until Week 6, I worked at a shipyard and it could be a 2 hour drive on bad days.  I didn’t start feeling mostly normal most of the time until Week 8.  At Week 13, I started feeling back to normal, just slow.

If you can postpone international travel until Week 12, I would recommend it.  If you can’t wait that long, I’d recommend after Week 6.  Before Week 6, it will likely be exhausting.

John Cook  Somethings you aren’t thinking about that you should are: appetite, calories, & protein.

A lot of people experience reduced appetite post-surgery for 4-6 weeks, which is bad because 20% of your calories are going into healing.m. I could only eat 2 meals a day into my 6th week. I supplemented my calories & nutrition with protein powder and fruit smoothies. You’ll want to figure out a strategy that will work for your situation.

Yumiko Ishida  My friend calls it T-rex arms. There are also tools you could get to extend your reach. I have a grabber that allows me to pick things up from the floor without bending down I got when I had a knee injury. Still use it to protect my back. There is a tool for almost every household challenge you could possibly face. You just have to plan ahead. Move things you use regularly to a reachable height, etc. And as John says, going down stairs is not hard as long as you don’t have other health issues (like a bad knee). The hospital is not going to release you if they think you’re not capable of living at home.

David Pearl  I'm big on protein I'm vegan and I'm ordering a lot of vegan protein powder and protein bars. I'm going to nursing home for a month. Thanks for all the help everybody. As far as laundry goes after I get home which will be about day 40 I'm just thinking about taking small little cloth shopping bags the problem is the laundry everything is top loading not front loading maybe I could just pay to have laundry sent in and out.

David Pearl  1) I do NOT live in a house. I live in a high rise building in Bangkok Thailand with heavy security and thousands of people. I am 7 floors up. There are no stairs.  There are heavy glass doors that are very hard to open even healthy.  In order to access the elevator, the gym, the pool or common areas these heavy glass doors must be opened and closed PLUS you also need to wave you key FOB to allow the doors to open. You have to be very fast or the doors will lock again
2) I have not lived in the USA for 8 years
3) I don't have any living family and I live alone
4) I have not had a car for 8 years and I do not have anyone who will drive me around post op------
5) Laundry is downstairs, top loading
6) I have thought of using small cloth bags and a grabber tool to do laundry solo or grocery shop solo.
7) My primary mode of transport is motorbike taxis, bumpy subways. I will have to use taxis
8) I am self pay for all things including surgery
9) There are no social workers here and the hospitals have not been able to provide me with any help post op
10) I have not lived in a house since April of 1990

David Pearl  I feel like no one gets me. Y'all seem to be living traditional protected lives in America so frankly it is hard to relate to anyone on these valve groups sadly as my situation and challenges seem to so different.  My life in Asia works for me for the most part but getting through the recovery of AVR will be harder.  I am really concerned about the 1st 3 months post op. I will do a nursing home for a month I am not sure what kind of help I will need and for how long, I am working on home healthcare, cleaners, etc. etc. 

I have a live in girlfriend but we are both on the verge of ending the relationship which is stressful right before surgery. I am anticipating a break up shortly before or after surgery which adds to my stress levels.  I am scared, overwhelmed and exhausted and have no family to lean on anywhere in the world. I am never married no kids. Also in a foreign country. I had nothing when I lived in the US except an apartment and an old car. I survive off investments and inheritance. I don't move back to the USA because everyone is dead and there is nothing to go back to.  

David Pearl  My understanding is takes about 3 months to get back to anywhere near normal ? BTW_-Cardiac rehab is offered at the nursing home and the hospital.  I have  gym where I lived but again the heavy glass doors. Lots of places to walk in Bangkok and sunny and hot all year. I am vegan and exercise every day for 40 years. Silicon Valley/Hollywood Actor.native former techie so highly educated. I have lived.worked.visited over 20 countries on 3 continents. I moved to Asia alone at age 54--I had nothing to lose and was bored/finished with the USA and never intend to move back.

David Pearl  John--yes I may order a trolley or light cart and then catch a taxi home..Nearest mall/large grocery store which also has non food items and is like small Wal Mart only a 1/2 mile away. We have a small convenience store and a big 7/11 vending machine on site which I keep forgetting about...I do orders all the time from grocery stores, eCommerece sites, ride sharing apps, from resteraunts etc etc. and also get mail/Ebay and Amazon orders from time to time. 

John Cook  Everyone’s recovery is different. “12 Weeks for recovery” is the standard guidance from doctors because it covers most people.

I was doing 0.5 mile walks at Week 3.

At 5 week, I felt good almost all of the time and could do 2 mile walks with hills with no problems. Sometimes I would have to stop, take a couple breaths and then I could keep going.  I was also back to working from home at Week 4. I could have started remote working at Week 3 but it would have exhausted me.

At Week 6, I was fine for driving myself and making a 2-hour monster commute into work a couple days a week.

At Week 8, sternum restrictions come off.

At Week 10, I felt 100% normal for ordinary things and walking on flat surfaces.  For walking up hills and stairs, I’m still about 75% of where I was pre-surgery.

I’m now at Week 15 and I’ve done a couple 5K distances as trail run/hikes. I did over 3 miles of flat walking at work today without any problems.

David Pearl  Need assist at home 1 week 24 hr 
- After 1 week can do normal activity at home by your self
- After 2 week can go outside your home and work by BTS MRT or bus and train 
- After 1 month can fly to travel 
- not bring heavy package or Gym 2 month 
- can open heavy glass doors after 1 week 
- Need maid to clean room 1 month

David Pearl  I'm 9 days away from going to the hospital 11 days from surgery and I'm still thinking about breaking up with my girlfriend insanity. I know she's the wrong person but gosh it's already been 30 days since I got diagnosed with severe just yeah really embarrassed to admit

David Buchanan  David 

Best of luck this week



You and I are both in surgery this week 



Take care , god speed 

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  In my opinión, the help from your girlfriend is very important at this time. For me, my wife support was crucial during surgery and in post-op .

David Pearl  She is about to leave me and I am about to leave her...The relationship is dead. Out of my hands. I will go to a nursing home for one month then get home health care for a month and hope at 2 months post op I can make it on my own. What else can I do? My family is dead. Never count on other people for anything...ever...Pay professionals to assist you when needed but expect ZERO from friends, lovers, family etc., etc. They have their own agenda(s). Save yourself first and expect nothing from others. All else is madness. You are your own best friend

David Pearl  I HAVE NO WIFE> I HAVE NO ONE I CAN COUNT ON FIDEL. COUNT YOURSELF AS LUCKY.. I AM 62 NEVER MARRIED NO KIDS...AT THE END OF A TOXIC ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP. MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN IS DEAD...I AM THE LAST ONE ALIVE...I DON'T HAVE TIME TO GET ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND..I WILL BREAK UP WITH PARTNER AND GO THROUGH SURGERY AT THE SAME TIME AND BE ALONE POST OP..PAY OTHERS TO CARE FOR ME...IT IS WHAT IT IS AS THEY SAY IN THE HOOOD

David Pearl  I DO NOT USE THE WORD FAMILY....THIS DOES NOT EXIST IN MY WORLD.. I 100% RELY ON ME AND ME ONLY......THIS IS MY REALITY...I MUST DEAL THE CARDS DEALT TO ME...I AM A LOVER OF REALITY..WHEN I ARGUE WITH REALITY I LOSE 100% OF THE TIME..

Valerie Allen  I think at 9 weeks you can live independently and with cleaners coming in. You need someone to check on you. Do they have cardiac rehab there? Will you be able to get there alright?

David Pearl  YES HAVE cardiac rehab...We have some of the best medical on earth..I will get it at the nursing home and my hospital. I also don't have a car and will need help shopping (due to the weight limitation). We have heavy glass doors to enter and exit the elevator shaft so I am worried I might need help for 12 weeks (?)

David Pearl  I am scared to go through this alone and go through a break up at the same time. Plus I live overseas. Plus I am a cash patient. Plus I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, low self esteem, other medical issues, insane amounts of loss....I have been alone and single most of my adult life

Valerie Allen  You will get through it. Get as much in place as you can between now and surgery, you will be glad once done.

David Pearl  I am and I'm looking at a nursing home as well I guess I'm confused about the hospital I think you have to pay extra money to have a nurse look after you after you get out of ICU I've never heard this from any other hospital but I've heard it's common here from talking to another american.

David Pearl  It is Thailand--the American mindset does not work here. You are on your own--Wild West/Wild East. I am an immigrant, self pay, I have no family anywhere in the world, no support here, no social workers or churches you can count on for assistance. It's hard to talk to anyone on these valve groups because my situation is so different

David Pearl  The American mindset doesn't apply to Thailand or Asia. It's not logical and there's no support here...My family is dead and I am single

Chris Germano  David, have the surgery... there's a great chance it could improve your mental well-being.  You got this!

Marie Myers  Have you ever seen anyone up close die of heart failure? I doubt you would think it is “cool” when you see it live…Struggling to breathe is definitely not fun.

Fidel Martínez Ruiz  True Marie, I had that experience visiting a friend of mine in his last days and was terrible. David, I think you have to get into surgery a.s.a.p and without any doubt despite any doubts you have into your head.

Valerie Allen  David, this surgery has been plaguing you for years. It is time to get it done and give yourself the opportunity to move on. Just think, a new life. It is possible with today’s medical advances. No even experimental, but well established. No, your thought is not a cool option. Seriously research where your surgeon options are and let us know!

David Pearl  I hope to die in my sleep of heart failure..I have zero interest in living,  I am also about to break up with my girlfriend. I have no living family, no post op support, no one to take care of me.  Here in Thailand they also require someone to stay with you after ICU and I have no one I can turn to. Cannot count on neighbors, friends and don't work.  I am done ......ready for the afterlife...

David Pearl  I am alone, breaking up with my GF, cash patient, etc etc.  I will od'd on meds before my heart fails...Cannot handle life anymore..Goodbye and good luck all !

Kimberly Eisenhut  David, I will be thinking of you and sending lots of hugs and love to you. I also will be having surgery in a month, Sept 26th for my tricuspid valve.

David Pearl  No surgery date I get that all the time next Echo is on the 6th here in Bangkok next Cardiology exam is on the 7th . I did start on repatha by the way to bring down my LPA

Christopher T  I think you can have nurses stay at your home. A lot of elderly and disabled people have nurses in home. My sister is a RN and does this. 

meg oconnell  David, I think this is a great option. My vote would be to get the care in your home, it will help with recovery to be in your own space. I rented a lift chair which I pretty much slept in the first 30 days post surgery. It is helpful to have someone around to help with meds, check your pressure, and just help you relax when you may feel a little nervous. Nursing homes have their own set of challenges and you may not get the one on one attention you would like and need. Just my two cents.

susan harris  About 6-8 months ago, a woman on this site had OHS at Cleveland Clinic (I believe) and posted about how she went home with minimal/no support - I'll try to find her name...she mentioned things she did to prepare like - she moved all dishes and cooking things from upper kitchen cabinets to her counter so she could reach them without reaching up (same with bathroom cabinet), stocked up on crossword puzzle books, etc. and long charging cable for laptop, made soup, dinners and froze them, made sure she had button down or zip shirts to get on easily, got a chair to go in bathtub/shower to sit instead of stand...also, think about grocery delivery - do you have something like Instacart?, regardless of your religious views, churches are usually good places to find reputable people -- maybe a local priest/minister knows someone who would be willing to come in and help you -- maybe they'll want you to work out payment 1 on 1 or if they won't take $, make a donation to charity for them?, in U.S., we have at-home care agencies for elderly who are not nurses so they are less expensive but would be able to help, when I had surgery (admittedly not OHS), my husband had to go to work each day, so he packed a cooler for me at night with breakfast and lunch the next day and put it by my chair night before.  This can be done!    

Anna Ma  David, I remember you asked similar question before. If my memory serves me right, you lived in Thailand. You may try to do some research and ask your doctor to see if there are any recovery facility near or in the same city where you are going to have the surgery. My dad has his surgery in Beijing and he was wheelchaired to a heart surgery recovery facility next to the hospital. It was great, he had his own room and doctors, nurses, therapist and nutritionists, basically the whole team to take care of him. It is kind of expensive though and the insurance they have didn't cover much. 

Robert Miller  Unless you have other health issues, you really don't need any help at all. It's just a lot more cumbersome for 2-6 weeks. If you put on cloths, use a large t-shirt so you don't need to bend your arms too much (which moves your chest). If you want tea, put the pan on the stove and go back and forth to fill up the pan with a cup. If you just need one cup, nuke it for a couple of minutes on high. If you need groceries, chose one that offers delivery service.  

David Pearl  I'm also looking at what's known in Thailand as a service department where they're going to be regular cleaning turning things over try to get a separate room for another person to help me out everything is close by in Bangkok even though it's 10 million people. There's literally a hospital every couple of miles or every mile where I live. The subway is everywhere food deliveries everywhere malls are everywhere grocery stores are everywhere we're not having anything shut down like in America due to Crime inflation or people working from home or ordering too much from amazon. People still go to malls people are outside it's great 10 million people here so everything is close by thanks for all your feedback I'm sure between my girlfriend my friends and other people I'll find a way to make

David Pearl  Hey Robert my current apartment is actually pretty good if I don't end up bringing a stranger in here and I just have my girlfriend or friends come over it's pretty good my place is only about 300 square feet the balcony and the kitchen of course are both outside all I've got is a small bathroom and a pretty big bedroom it's very easy to maneuver my only problem is these damn glass doors in the building makes it hard to get in and out of the elevator so I'm looking to move or relocate somewhere else temporarily

David Pearl  My place is difficult because the glass doors that are heavy I'm going to go to nursing home for a month

David Pearl  Thanks everyone !  I think nursing home is best--no need to rely on others, everything turnkey--before surgery dump off a bunch of books and food--can order more food when I am in the home....My home is small and the condo complex is not disabled friendly..Do a nursing home for a month ok then can get back to normal ?

Robert Miller  I nursing home for a month sounds like a reasonably good plan for you. As for the glass doors, they can be a pain. Instead of using my hands, I would use my butt and feet to open and close them.  Or since you have a girlfriend, I would assume she stays over most of the time during this time so she should be able to help. 

Dan Fouratt  David,  Hope all is well.  A lot depends on your surgery.  I had a mini and could have taken care of myself post surgery.  My bride was with me which helped a lot but I would have survived without her and glad she was there.

Robert Miller  I had my wife and I am grateful for her help. But you really don't need anyone. You have to adjust but it's doable. There should be services for grocery shopping, etc. For cooking, etc don't carry a big pot of water but put the pan on the stove and then pure cups of water into it. It's more time but it's quite doable. 

David Pearl  I've got a girlfriend but I never know these things are going to end. I've also thought about reaching out the neighbors but conversely I'm looking to move out of my apartment because it's small and there's heavy glass doors. I'm looking to potentially live in what's known in Thailand as a serviced apartment. My place is molecular barely a studio so I think I'm going to need to have a place with at least two bedrooms at least temporarily if a stranger is going to be sleeping with me for the first month or so. Yes I'm thinking about getting a mini sternotomy .. I'm assuming the worst as I've never been married never have kids and my family's dead. If any neighbors friends show up that's icing on the cake if not I'll do it on my own and with professionals.

David Pearl  I'm used to being alone pretty much since my 30s. Just the way it is my family died off and I wasn't able to find a partner or have a kid. It just didn't work out that way

Christiane Bauts  Il faut aller dans un centre de revalidation 3 semaines pour ma part plus de place je suis Allee en geriatrie 

David Pearl  I am 4 weeks from surgery and no idea how to get the help I need ! Help !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pamela Gregory  Hi David, if you pre-plan easy meals and have people who can drop in daily to make sure you are ok and help you a bit would be ok I think. Make sure your medications are organized before leaving the hospital, have a spot set up to comfortably watch TV, and you will have to walk 2 times per day at least. I think you will be able to do more than you think but definitely have a good friend check in on you the first couple of weeks to make sure all is good. You won't want to lift anything too heavy so have a bed set up with pillows and whatever makes you comfortable. Just my opinion 

Susan Dunne  David, is there any way you can go to acute cardiac rehab.  It is only 10 or 12 days and it can set you up for being able to deal with the healing  at home.  If you have health insurance check it out.  I fought against going but was convinced after surgery and boy did I benefit from it.  Think about it if you can.

Robert Miller  It's harder but quite doable. Make sure you have everything taken care of that you think will require heavy lifting, etc. a couple months after surgery. Adjust how you do things. For instance, instead of taking a pan full of water and poor the water in a thermostat, take a ladle to transfer the water. Do smaller loads of laundry or don't do the whole load at the same time. The hospital should also be asking if you have someone to help. If not, there should be resources to help. Same goes for emotional support, btw. 

David Pearl  Susan--maybe but I am 100% cash patient so worried about cost containment..Best idea is a nursing home, home healthcare, non skilled support and friends..I am live with my girlfriend now but it's a bad relationship and may end at any moment...

David Pearl  Hey Robert here in Asia/Thailand the hospitals don't seem to care or have any control over things once you get released. I think it's assumed because it's Asia you must have family because it's such a communal, family oriented part of the world. There's not really any sort of outpatient outreach beyond follow up appointments, They don't at all or ask about emotional support either sadly. It's every man or women for themselves here..In Japan I understand old people die and there corpses aren't found for months...

Robert Miller  Without going into details, I know what you are talking about. I don't think the hospitals are this way because it is assumed there is family support. If anything, I think it's the other way around. There is family support because you can't rely on outside sources. In any case, recovery from heart valve surgery in most cases is a lot easier than what one would think. Having a partner helps for sure and I appreciate the help I got. But I could have done it myself without too many issue. My biggest issue was back/muscle pain from having to lay on my back. A partner won't be able to help with this. You do need to look out for complications like irregular heartbeats, etc. but again a partner won't be able to help with that. 

Robert Miller  Sorry for the late reply but this is doable even without any family at all. The biggest issue for the first couple of months will be grocery shopping, cooking, carrying around laundry baskets, etc. You can either see if there are services that can help with that. Or you have to break down things into small tasks. Like filling a thermostat with tea, you can't just lift the (heavy copper) pan. Instead, you have to use a ladle. Use tongs to move food from the pan into a serving dish instead of lifting the pan. It's cumbersome. I did all these things. It's manageable, though. Also, if I haven't mentioned it yet, at "check out" the hospital will/should ask you if you have someone that can support you. If not, they will be arranging somethings. 

David Pearl  Hey reading everybody's messages I'm just very independent don't have living family and I'm always thinking about breaking up with my partner. I've got a number of Home Health Care even people off Craigslist if and when the surgery happens I'll start reviewing all my support systems. I mostly thinking about moving out of my building because the heavy glass doors but the downside is I've got friends here I can count on whereas and a new condominium I don't know how long it's going to take time to find new friends. Who knows I might have a different girlfriend or many girlfriends and of course I'll reach out to every friend every social group. The condos overseas are very small so it's not that difficult to manage everything. Anyways reminds me again that I have a good owner and I have a lot of friends in my condominium which is actually three buildings probably over a thousand people live in these three buildings but again the lack of a separate bedroom the lack of it's going to be really hard to get in and out of the doors of the elevator here because they're super heavy so I need to get moving on moving before I need surgery by the way I got seen at UCSF and they're backing up everything that they're saying here in Thailand which is good and if I ever do move back to America I'm now fully connected to UCSF and 3 years and a few months I'll be eligible for Medicare I'm guessing the surgery will be next year or the year after

Daneen Douglas  David, Sorry that happened.  You must be frustrated.  Hope you get it figured out soon.  Any way you can come back to the states?

David Pearl  Daneen...No reason to come back to the USA--haven't lived there in years..No wife, kids, girlfriends, living family, home, career, car, job, partner, etc etc. I have zero infrastructure in the USA...Have not lived there since 2017.. At age 61 there would be zero reason to go back......I have an easy life here in Thailand for  the most part and I feel much less alone here...I never was able to have a career/wife/girlfriend/kids/home ownership in the USA so I left the country at age 54 because of loneliness...

David Pearl  I visited the USA for the 1st time in 5 years and was horrified at bad things have become there...Other than my cardiac issue I have a relatively easy life here

Daneen Douglas  Yeah it’s pretty crazy lately in a lot of parts.  That’s  great David!  Hoping you are able to get your problem resolved in the near future. 

Daneen Douglas  Awesome!  I was moderate for a long time!  Just keep monitoring it every 6 months to 1 year.  Glad your surgery date was canceled, after all! 

Jennifer Fuller  My surgery was also postponed a few days before it was scheduled. I believe there was an emergency and the OR was needed for another patient. It was certainly disappointing, but I was rescheduled and everything went fine. I think it happens a lot. 

David Pearl  Mine has been cancelled--the doctor was arrogant and couldn't handle my questions and cancelled the surgery just 5 days before the surgery so I am looking for a new surgeon/hospital. The hospital has stopped communicating with me

Sue Maize  It may need replacing without you being symptomatic. I have symptoms now but my surgeon said that ideally, I would have had my surgery a year ago! 😬

Tiago Rocha  Hi. I was always asymptomatic throughout the years and when I turned to severe regurgitation and the left ventricle dilated I didn’t notice anything. That was the right time to AVR. 5 days after the surgery my left ventricle recovered 100% and returned to normal size. So I do believe that in some situations we shouldn’t wait for the symptoms because it could be late to a full recovery. However every case is a different case and you should decide always with your doctor and in full informed conscience.

Allen Carkner  Even symptoms during exertion or times of stress count as symptoms when it come to aortic stenosis. And depending on your case it’s sometimes indicated before symptom onset. 

Dan Fouratt  I am asymptomatic, the last three days i have spent 2:20 minutes on a tread mill alternating between 6 degrees and 10 degrees and 3.6 miles per hour. I am still looking forward to the replacement job next week, with the same valve as yours. As Valerie stated it is your decision.  I made the decision to get it done.  My doctor friend said I could probably last another year, maybe two, but if I was ready get it now.  Good luck with your decision.

christine blackway  Don't put it off, life expectancy declines with a leaky valve that goes past moderate, even without symptoms.

Brady Busch  Prior to finding out about my(previous)heart condition,I wasn't visiting doctors or getting checkups too much.If not seeing one,for something unrelated and her detecting a murmur,there is no telling what might have happened,as there were no symptoms.Maybe just a little tired,walking up long hills.
Heart disease is called a silent killer,for a reason.

David Pearl  Thanks everyone..>Dreading the scar, cost (Asia gotta pay), the long uncertain dispruptive painful recovery.....Re: Timing. Yes everything is leading to doing it earlier when still strong and asymptomatic

DeWayne Adamson  My scar has practically vanished. It is not as painful as I thought it would be. Easily controlled w meds. Time Flys with improvement every week. Just find a surgeon who has done a lot of them and get it over with. 

David Pearl  Mine has been cancelled--the doctor was arrogant and couldn't handle my questions and cancelled the surgery just 5 days before the surgery so I am looking for a new surgeon/hospital. The hospital has stopped communicating with me

Ana Brusso  It’s been a long road for you. Glad you are getting your surgery done finally. Will keep you in prayer 🙏❤️

Klara Čičić  Finally! I am happy for you David, you waited and researched for a long time! Hope everything goes well! You can do this!!!

David Pearl  I am looking at skipping surgery and dying of natural causes. Anyone else relate ?  I want out of this life ASAP and AS is my salvation

David Pearl  Mine has been cancelled--the doctor was arrogant and couldn't handle my questions and cancelled the surgery just 5 days before the surgery so I am looking for a new surgeon/hospital. The hospital has stopped communicating with me

Anna Ma  Hi David, I’m sorry to hear about your cancellation and poor experience with the medical team. If you can wait, maybe give yourself some time to find a better surgeon and hospital? Also give yourself to adjust and overcome depression. From your updates, you may be suffering from depression. We are never alone and I know God is always with us and loves us. 

Marie Myers  Please don’t assume that everyone else has it easier than you do. I have read many stories of heart patients on here who traveled on their own, across the country, to have their surgery and then return alone to recovery on their own. Many people pay a lot of money out of pocket for deductibles and home care also. Some probably pay bills for life if they do not have insurance. Everyone is fighting their own mighty battle in some way. 

David Pearl  My cardiac issues are pre-existing so they won't cover me. I checked with all the private insurance companies. I'm not employed here either. Only way to get free insurance here is if you're an actual citizen in the country. I could have moved back to America but it's 61 years old as a single man with no family there's no point in Living in America at this point in my life.

David Pearl  I guess it's odd because most people are living very conventional 9 to 5 live still living outside the country not having living family etc etc is probably hard for people to imagine

Joanne Heckmann  Your beliefs are limiting you.  Stop looking to what others are doing and look at yourself.  There are always possibilities.  You could move back, even if it's just for a year or so.  You could get involved with your community and build your own "family".  What would someone who loves himself do?

Valerie Allen  Joanne Heckmann… I am totally stealing that line! What would someone who loves himself do? Thoughtful question. ❤️

David Pearl  I was hoping for something more legitimate than a joke. Is that supposed to help richard? Where is the value in your cynicism?

Kimberly Eisenhut  David, I am so sorry you are going through so much. I thought your surgery had already happened because it was on the upcoming surgery list. Please reach out to us whenever you need a virtual hug , encouragement or just to let us know how you are. I will be looking for your updates. Wish there was a way I could better help you, I just do not know anything about where you live. Maybe if you can give us some more detailed information, we may be of more help. I am also sure Adam would be able to help you more, since he has such close ties to so many surgeons and hospitals. All the best and stay srong

Valerie Allen  There is one surgeon under Thailand in the SurgeonFinder, top right menu dropdown. Many more in India if you can get there.

David Pearl  So some of you asked me about where I live I know most Americans don't even have a passport don't know anything about living overseas I live in Bangkok Thailand there's hundreds of thousands of Americans living here it's a common retirement destination which is sort of if it came for me it's got the best medical in Southeast Asia after Singapore it's got medical quality that often meets or seeds American care. However Insurance here does not cover pre-existing conditions I was already on record having heart issues even before I moved here. So on basically shopping around trying to find the the best you know intersection of price and quality. Of course like all of you I'm trying to figure out which valve to get when to do it and then I've got to move some money over here from the states into my Thailand bank account. I do not have living family I can count on anywhere in the world that's why I moved here I came here at age 54 because I was lonely and I was single and never married the kids and never found a partner in America so 7 years ago at age 54 I picked up and moved to Asia it wasn't anything that happened out of nowhere a friend mentioned that I'd be better off in Asia I started visiting here and I eventually picked up and moved here. I have a lot of friends here I've got a small apartment which is good because it's easy to get things but it's going to make it awkward for some stranger to Stay With Me Like Home Health Care I basically just live in a small one bedroom you know it's just one room with a small bathroom small kitchen and a small town of course and that's it you know I just live a very simple existence here few hundred dollars a month rent I liv

David Pearl  I didn't see any surgeons in Thailand I'll take a look again but I've already been visiting hospitals for 5 years I know about 20 surgeons that over 10 hospitals. I've already know what I'm doing here it's just making decisions about which surgery which hospital and where and then being comfortable with whatever fall out there is one of the biggest concerns at a government hospital here is communication after I get home but do I want to pay you know instead of 20 or 25,000 closer to 50,000 for communication I'm also like I said worried that my partner and I could break up soon I don't have living family in America either so please don't suggest that I go back there that's not an option at this point there isn't anybody there my brothers and I never had children one of my brothers's dad there's no nieces and nephews I didn't grow up with uncles aunts and cousins most of the people on 61 years old like you know older people like me my most of my friends and family are long dead I haven't lived in the San Francisco Bay Area since 2007

David Pearl  Dr. Suphachai Chuaratanaphong
Heart Surgeon.. I found him however he's in Northern Thailand hundreds of miles from me okay I need to be more specific here I've already got Doctors Hospitals and surgeons lined up I'm just trying to figure out where to go unfortunately cost is an issue so I have to pay cash I'm hoping to do one last appointment next week I've had this condition for 5 years I've been to like 15 hospitals in Thailand I know what I'm doing here I'm just sad that I don't have the vanilla 9 to 5:00 American lifestyle that's safe somehow I ended up living overseas I don't have a partner I don't have family and I don't have proper Insurance here and I'm 61 it's cool for me to start over in the states

David Pearl  He doesn't work at that hospital. And they don't have a cardiac Division and nobody in the city knows him

David Pearl  Mine has been cancelled--the doctor was arrogant and couldn't handle my questions and cancelled the surgery just 5 days before the surgery so I am looking for a new surgeon/hospital. The hospital has stopped communicating with me

Ana Kelton-Brand  I agree with Rose.  Things may look bleak now but that doesn't mean you'll always feel this way.  Find a good therapist for yourself to help get you through this.

Andrea Babcock  David!!! Don't give up!! Your life is definitely worth living and trying to pay for this surgery. After things will get better for sure. Please don't give up!

Brady Busch  Hi David,I was in a similar situation,after getting out of the hospital.A coworker was able provide transportation.I checked into a hotel for two weeks,because of an easy access shower and long hallways to walk.I used a service to pick up groceries a few times.Fortunately,there weren't any major difficulties,that occurred.

David Pearl  Hi Brady--thanks. I live with my girlfriend but I suspect that will end soon. I am looking to friends and professional or non professional care givers to stay with  me although my place is small.   I have a tiny apartment here in Thailand which will make it easy to get around but hard for another person to stay with me

J Alexander Lassally  Having just gone thorough this, I could advise a part time helper maybe 3-4 hours a day the first week or so.  (could phase down after 1-2 weeks)  They could help you with meals, and showering (which is a big deal first week). It eases up pretty fast, but definitely need someone around a  bit.Also think about the bed or recliner situation. You will need help if it is not an electric recliner.  
Hope this helps. 

Abhishek Sharma  Well arrange some helper , not for physical help but for emotional help.because during recovery u should need someone to talk with u.

David Pearl  Hey Brady that's interesting I live in Thailand and my condominium is kind of like a hotel it's actually good that it's small it's just a bedroom which is got everything in it but it's totally compact I've got a small kitchen outside of the balcony I've got a separate balcony and I've got a small bathroom luckily there is a elevator just a few feet away from my room there's probably about a thousand people living in my three buildings a lot of community a lot of connection where I live although I don't know if I can count on any of my neighbors I'm might be able to tap some of them I've also got a huge social networking Bangkok that's really good another thing is everything is super close where I live I can catch taxis really easily and get everywhere like everything is like super close here bangkok's like in New York it's like a you know bangkok's like in New York but there's no crime and it's small and everything is brand new and everything is like super close together here I figure if I'm single at the time of my surgery or even if I have a girlfriend I'll just hire professional or non-professional Home Health Care people cuz even if I've got a partner at that time that person may not be living with me or they may be busy with work but I definitely have more support here than I would in the states

David Pearl  Hey Jay Alexander just coming out of a week-long Meditation Retreat maybe I'm in better shape than I think I'm still currently in a relationship I've been with somebody for a year and a half my place is super small I'm just going to load it up with food it's super easy to get food delivered it's cheap we've got to elevator just a few feet away from my my apartment condo there's tons of people living in my building thousand people probably really easy to get food delivered and mail delivered once I have a surgical date I'm just going to fill my place up with books and food and you know I can have food all over the place and again because my place is so small it's easy to get around I just have a 250 square foot apartment it's just a balcony and a kitchen that's also on the balcony believe it or not and a small bathroom and yeah it's really easy you know to get around you know everything is just like inches or a feet or two away from me but I have every creature Comfort like I said I can get food delivered yeah the emotional part of it that's what I'm worried about of course once I know the surgery date I'll hit all my friends here I'll talk to people in my building my landlord I'll just talk to everybody and I'll work on Craigslist and Facebook and what the hospital to get home health but I'm a fitness fanatic I'm vegan I don't drink I don't smoke I don't do drugs I exercise like mad I've been this way since my twenties and I think my recovery is going to be short and I had covid for 16 days 2 years ago when I was probably sick aggregatly for a couple months and I know what it's like to be in the hospital for a while and I know what it's like to be really sick and when I had the coronavirus it was horrible because I had no girlfriend and everybody was everybody was still hiding out this is during the the worst outbreak in 2021 so I know what it's like to be in the hospital 16 days I had pneumonia almost died although I wasn't on a ventilator and I was sick for a month afterwards and a month before so I know the hospital experience I know what it's like to be alone at home after the hospital but as bad as almost dying from pneumonia was I think it's going to be much worse with the heart surgery

Brady Busch  People and things being close by,should be big plus.It sounds like your physical needs will be no problem.
My surgeon recommended getting some easy microwave meals,like the Healthy Choice brand.After going through the first supply,3-4 deliveries were needed for the two weeks.
It sounds like there were some tough health issues.Personally,I don't think the recovery will be like those.I remember being very tired,at least for the first week out of the hospital.
Having a friend or relative visit is nice,but mostly,I wanted to rest.

David Pearl  J Alexander Lassally  We don't have room for and I don't have a recliner---just wedge pillows.  What will I need in regards to getting in and out of bed?

Brady Busch  Basically I did,with brief,couple of visits from coworkers.I think believing,will get a person through a lot of life's challenges.
Sometimes,people use the saying,"What doesn't kill a person,makes them stronger",in a humorous way,but there is truth to that.There are obstacles and overcoming them is a part of growing.
But honestly,we can't do it all on our own and need someone's help at times.
 

Marie Myers  No, not terrible! The surgeons will enlarge the aortic root to accommodate a bigger valve. I was only saying that the minimum size aortic valve to implant would be a 23 mm for future TAVR. 

Rich Butela  My Surgeon told me prior to surgery that they can enlarge the annulus. He was hoping to put a 23 in me, but once he cut away the old valve, a 25 fit perfectly.   Talk with your surgeon about your options and if you aren't satisfied, get a second or third opinion

Timothy Andre  I wear my scar proudly. Probably common to feel that way before surgery, but after I think many become proud of it. It’s a symbol of survival and strength 

Richard Munson  Its a badge of courage in my eyes. Anyone finding it offensive can take a hike. I can think of worse things one might display unclothed. 

Marie Myers  My scar does not bother me in the least! Days of low cut dresses were over for me even before I had the surgery…

Richard Munson  I think anyone having an issue with a heart surgery scar might be pretty shallow and not worth the trouble.

Klara Čičić  Dear David, as Richard said, partner who is concerned with something like a heart surgery scar, and not proud and supportive of your heart journey really isn't worth your time, so the scar may have a higher purpose in fact and serve you as a filter of sort :)))
The article, on the other hand, talks about something much more important, meaningful, and impactful which should be addressed more often. 

STEPHEN MORRIS  My scar used to bother me because it was a constant reminder of what I went through. I saw it every day in the mirror. It is also a reminder I survived. I joke with my kids that my modeling career is over now because of the scar. It's seems so long now, I photo shopped a picture from our last vacation just to see what it would look like without a scar...lol

Trygve Harris  Hi.
I'm not  sure about Thailand but Cleveland Clinic Abu
Dhabi was just voted best hospital in the Middle East so if you can wing
it, I can recommend highly. 

Klara Čičić  Dear David, those are some questions. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Educate yourself and read as much as possible, talk to your doctors, ask for a second opinion if needed and slowly you will make your decision that is best for you. This isn't easy. We are here for the support!