Hi Everyone! I don't get on here very often, I don't know why? Y'all seem to be the only ones that know what I'm really going through, or at least have a ...Read more
Hi Everyone! I don't get on here very often, I don't know why? Y'all seem to be the only ones that know what I'm really going through, or at least have a better idea. Which is why I'm on here now .... I need your help, in the form of feedback, ideas, etc.
At the end of November, I went back into the hospital to have a hole in my heart repaired. I had to go in two days before the procedure, they had to wien me of the Coumadin and do a Heparin bridge, and they said I would be there a couple days after just until my INR was back were it should be. But what was supposed to be a 5 day stay turned out to be 14 days!! The procedure was done like an angiogram and they went in through my leg. It was all supposed to be
"routine". When I woke up, my chest was so sore and I couldn't understand why. Then the Doctor came and talked to me and told me it was from the chest compressions that he had to do because I CODED TWICE!!! Thank God, they were able to fix the hole.
The next day, my chest was bruised and I could barely move. Mind you, I'm not fully recovered from the three open heart surgeries from earlier in the year. And I felt like I had been hit by a bus. But the newest echo shows my heart finally working well. YAY!!
But here's the problem. I'm struggling, personally, emotionally. I don't know exactly how to explain it but I don't feel like myself. My tastes have changed, my mood and way of thinking has changed. I can't seem to get enough sleep, I practically slept the whole time I was in the hospital during the day because the night shift wouldn't leave me alone. After I came home, I dealt with insomnia at night and slept during the day but that's kinda passed. My Doctor prescribed me a pill to keep me up during the day and give me energy but even that doesn't work half the time. I miss the me that I used to be. I feel like 2018 aged me 10 years. I was expecting to feel so much better after my heart was fixed so I could get back to living my life. But I'm having a really hard time stepping back into it.
Mabel Juric Hello, Nikki: First and foremost, you have been through so much in a short amount of time. Your bod ... Read more
Mabel Juric Hello, Nikki: First and foremost, you have been through so much in a short amount of time. Your body has endured surgery, trauma, stress, so many factors that will make you question your physical and mental strength. I felt so sad and drained for about two months after my mitral valve repair. I cried, was really angry at times and most frustrated because this surgery truly interrupted my life. Please give yourself some time to heal. Sleep is so important and I too suffered from insonmina, still do some nights. Its time to commend all the hard work you have done just getting through the surgeries, operations, etc. You are not alone, we truly get how you feel. I didn't have taste for about a month. I think when we struggle with healing, knowing we went through so much to get better and we dont feel that way very soon, we will feel sadness, and frustration. I am so proud of all your progress, stay strong and know you aren't alone. May you rest tonight .
Bruce Adams Everything you described seems about right after surgery. I pretty much had the same postop sysmtoms. ... Read more
Bruce Adams Everything you described seems about right after surgery. I pretty much had the same postop sysmtoms. It will get better I assure you.
Susan Lynn Nikki - You are absolutely Wonder Woman! Wow - you have shown tremendous courage and strength.
I ... Read more
Susan Lynn Nikki - You are absolutely Wonder Woman! Wow - you have shown tremendous courage and strength.
I recall feeling a bit off after my surgery, but chalked it up to all the medication. The feeling did eventually dissipate and I suspect yours will, too. You've been through alot and it may take a little longer, but you'll get there. It sounds like you have a lovely family and great adventures ahead. Be forthcoming with your doctor and keep going back until you feel improvement. All the best! ❤
Jennifer McInerney Nikki, after surgery I lost my confidence and was full of anxiety. I think what your feeling is perf ... Read more
Jennifer McInerney Nikki, after surgery I lost my confidence and was full of anxiety. I think what your feeling is perfectly normal and understandable. Cardiac rehab will help a lot and find someone you can trust to share your fears and anxieties. Good luck, hope all goes well
Rita Savelis Oh, Nikki. I feel for you. You have been through so much. Of course 2018 and too many surgeries have ... Read more
Rita Savelis Oh, Nikki. I feel for you. You have been through so much. Of course 2018 and too many surgeries have "aged" you. Now you are going through the emotional and physical aftereffects as you and your body process all that you have been through. I so remember wanting to get back to living my life, but spending over a year wondering why I didn't feel better... It all took so long with many ups and downs and with an exhaustion that took months to pass. Getting through what you have been through requires such strength. And time. And rest. I admire your honesty as you process. Keep posting. You will return to the me you used to be. Take care.
Shannon Gray Nikki... you are a a warrior! You have been through so much, of course this is a difficult time. I wi ... Read more
Shannon Gray Nikki... you are a a warrior! You have been through so much, of course this is a difficult time. I wish so much more focus was on the emotional aftermath of heart surgery... we are changed, life is not like it used to be, life forever more is different. Thank you for being such a brave soul and writing this... you are certainly not alone. Gentle hugs.
Nikki Escue Thank you all so much! I knew you would understand. My family just doesn't get it. In their minds, ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you all so much! I knew you would understand. My family just doesn't get it. In their minds, they've been supportive long enough so everything that I'm going through now falls on deaf ears. Like it's old news already. And I feel guilty because it's been one thing after another and this has been a long recovery and process.
Mabel, I totally understand what you mean about it interrupting your life. I literally lost all of 2018. And yes, it made me sad, angry and frustrated too. A whole year of my life gone and in the process I think I aged 10. How fair is that?? lol
Susan, I don't know about Wonder Woman, but thank you. When I do stop and think about it and look back at the pictures, it is hard to believe that I've been through all of that. But it also reminds me of how much progress I've made. But I still can't help feeling like I've climbed so many mountains and I'm stuck at the bottom of another one one and I lost my rope. If that makes any sense.
Thank you guys for the support. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this.
Nikki Escue Oh Rita and Shannon, you gals nailed it! The emotional aftermath is just about as bad as the surgery ... Read more
Nikki Escue Oh Rita and Shannon, you gals nailed it! The emotional aftermath is just about as bad as the surgery itself. Well it has been for me anyhow. I don't know if it's because I had so many in such a short amount of time or it's like that for everyone but Shannon, you're right, they really should do more to address the emotional healing after the physical healing.
Thank you all for your kind words, understanding and being here. I just want you to know that I greatly appreciate it 💕
Susan Lynn Nikki - there may be a support group for cardiac patients in your area. My local hospital offers one ... Read more
Susan Lynn Nikki - there may be a support group for cardiac patients in your area. My local hospital offers one as part of an expanded cardiac rehab program. The American Heart Association may also have resources. Stay positive - better days are ahead. ❤
Fay Kozas Hi Nikki, I am so sorry that you have been through so much. OHS is no small matter. It is a shock to ... Read more
Fay Kozas Hi Nikki, I am so sorry that you have been through so much. OHS is no small matter. It is a shock to the heart, the body, and the brain. It will take time but you will get stronger both physically and emotionally as each day goes by. Just BELIEVE!
Nikki Escue Thank you Fay. My Faith helped get me through all those surgeries, however, I have to admit, as time ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you Fay. My Faith helped get me through all those surgeries, however, I have to admit, as time has gone on, that Faith has wavered some. But I still turn to Him everyday🙏🏻
Fay Kozas Nikki, I hear you loud and clear. Yes, sometimes our Faith wavers but in the end it is He who guides ... Read more
Fay Kozas Nikki, I hear you loud and clear. Yes, sometimes our Faith wavers but in the end it is He who guides us and knows best. Trust Him and keep
praying. One day soon, all this will be behind you. Be strong!
It's been a while since I've been on here. I wanted to wait until I had something good to report. Sorry to say, this isn't the case. Well, I take that back, ...Read more
It's been a while since I've been on here. I wanted to wait until I had something good to report. Sorry to say, this isn't the case. Well, I take that back, my INR is finally stable.... Yay Me!! But since I was on here last, I've had pneumonia twice, and now I have pleurisy. My last echo, in September, showed another leak but because of the weird placement of my Mytral Valve and all the metal, everything doesn't show up like it should. So a couple weeks ago I had to have a TEE which showed a hole in the RCA just above my Aortic Valve, or as they called it, a VSD. So tomorrow I have to go have a CT scan so they can see exactly where it is. Then I will be scheduled to go Back in the hospital to have it fixed. I haven't even fully recovered from my last surgeries and I have to go back in for another one. However, this one will not be an open heart procedure. From my understanding, it's more like an angiogram but I will still be knocked out.
So if I could ask you all to keep me in your prayers, I would greatly appreciate it. I just keep telling myself, one of these days, I will be past all of this and back to living my life. I can't wait because I've lost almost a whole year of it.
Rita Savelis Oh, Nicki, so sorry to hear of all that you've been through. One of these days you will be past this, ... Read more
Rita Savelis Oh, Nicki, so sorry to hear of all that you've been through. One of these days you will be past this, as you say. But right now is still hard. I hear you. My recovery was also long with various aftereffects. Wishing you some relief in the near future. Take care.
MARIE PICUN May God have his hand on you You will get through this. Your a strong woman.
Jennifer McInerney So sorry to hear this. You are a strong heart warrior. I will be praying for you
Susan Lynn Nikki - I'm sorry to hear your news, but you can do this. Hopefully, you'll be on a quick road to ... Read more
Susan Lynn Nikki - I'm sorry to hear your news, but you can do this. Hopefully, you'll be on a quick road to recovery after this repair. We'll keep you in our prayers and look forward to your good news! ❤
Nancy Luth Prayers for you, your family and your surgical team.
Lisa Guinan Wow. I just read your story. Sorry you had such a bad experience. My annual ECHOs always showed my ... Read more
Lisa Guinan Wow. I just read your story. Sorry you had such a bad experience. My annual ECHOs always showed my regurgitation was mild moderate. My atrium was always enlarged and this year my ventricle started enlarging. My dr. ordered a TEE and it showed severe regurgitation. I'm so thankful he ordered the TEE. My surgery is Tue. Prayers to you and your drs.
Dan Baltazor SO many medical mountains. You are in our prayers.
Lisa Guinan Also, thank you for posting about your INR number. That was something I wasn't familiar with. I'm a ... Read more
Lisa Guinan Also, thank you for posting about your INR number. That was something I wasn't familiar with. I'm an easy bleeder and bruiser and have been worried about that. I was able to see on blood tests that my rating is in the normal range. That makes me feel better.
Well, I haven't posted in a while, I started feeling like I was always complaining. Metaphorically speaking, I feel like I've been at an amusement park. I've ...Read more
Well, I haven't posted in a while, I started feeling like I was always complaining. Metaphorically speaking, I feel like I've been at an amusement park. I've either been on a roller coaster, going up and down (INR) or I've been on a merry-go-round, (vertigo). I'm on the phone with my Doctor every day regarding my INR. Well, after increasing my Warfarin from 9 to 14, my INR finally started rising, slowly. I am happy to report that FINALLY, my INR is at 2.8 with me taking 12mg of Warfarin. It's still fluctuating but not drastically. Now, if only I could get all this other crap figured out.... Like, when I get up walking around, my feet swell up but my left one swells much larger than the right🤔 And when I take a deep breath, my whole chest pops and hurts. I'm still waking up every morning with a headache. I got the nausea under control because I found that putting an ice pack on the back of my neck, in the morning, makes it go away.
So, this time it wasn't all bad. But it's definitely one step forward, two steps back. But I do have an appointment tomorrow with my Cardiologist so just maybe, he can get a few of these other things figured out.
My husband is going to take of work to take me so I might even get to go out to lunch, if the appt doesn't take too long. My Doctor is 90 miles away and counting traffic that could mean a 2 1/2 hour drive. Yuk!
Judy Shaw Good to hear from you Nikki and that some things are better for you. Best of luck at your appt tomorr ... Read more
Judy Shaw Good to hear from you Nikki and that some things are better for you. Best of luck at your appt tomorrow. Keep us updated.
Kelly Stoll Nikki, congratulations on the things you have made progress on. Those small steps, be it forward or ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Nikki, congratulations on the things you have made progress on. Those small steps, be it forward or back, mean you are still walking. Keep going. Your determination will pay off. Hang in there and know you always have friends here. Sending you my best wishes for whatever will help you most.
Nancy Surprenant Takahashi Nikki, I feel your pain, I too have run into some speed bumps after surgery. Really frustrating , I felt great before surgery now 9 weeks out I can't walk 1/4 of a mile without stopping. Trying to stay positive is difficult. Best of luck tomorrow.
Catie B I'm thankful to read that your INR levels are improving. Hope you can get answers and relief in these ... Read more
Catie B I'm thankful to read that your INR levels are improving. Hope you can get answers and relief in these other areas very soon!
Rita Savelis You never complain Nikki. You are a realist and tell it like it is. Post surgery is hard. Take care.
Janet Skinner Hi Nikki. Baby steps forward. I too, had a difficult recovery, so I focused on one day at a time. It ... Read more
Janet Skinner Hi Nikki. Baby steps forward. I too, had a difficult recovery, so I focused on one day at a time. It was MY journey and I stop saying "I thought I'd be along much further by now." Instead, I said "I've come a long way since the first month - I was an inpatient in two hospitals and had several procedures, including a pacemaker insertion.
Stay positive, give yourself all the time you need to heal and keep on top of your symptoms. It WILL get better for you. (I am now ten months post surgery and I can honestly say that I haven't felt this well is years. We're having a heat wave here so I'm not working in the garden, and I'm very thankful for the ocean breeze, however slight it is. lol)
It's 1:00 in the morning. I'm now experiencing insomnia because I'm afraid to go to sleep. Lately, when I go to sleep, I wake up to my Lovenox injection sites ...Read more
It's 1:00 in the morning. I'm now experiencing insomnia because I'm afraid to go to sleep. Lately, when I go to sleep, I wake up to my Lovenox injection sites bleeding. I'm worried about this whole INR issue. I just don't understand it. I was on Warfarin prior to this OHS, due to my OHS in 2014, and did just fine, never had these types of problems. Now, yesterday, one of the team Doctors, my main Doctor is out of town, uped my Warfarin to 14 mg!! Just trying to get my INR to come up. I'm don't want to eat anything, I'm afraid it's going to go down even more. I have to stay on the Lovenox, even with the bleeding, until I'm at least at 2.0. I'm just miserable.
Marie Myers I am so sorry you are struggling. I hope things straighten out for you you!
Susan Lynn We're here with you. Hang in there, Nikki.
Catie B Oh Nikki, I'm so, so sorry. I hope they can resolve things with you soon-soon! It must be nerve wrack ... Read more
Catie B Oh Nikki, I'm so, so sorry. I hope they can resolve things with you soon-soon! It must be nerve wracking! Hugs and prayers!
Noreen Kitchen I had surgery in March 2017 and am also on Warfarin. I had been stable until about a six weeks ago an ... Read more
Noreen Kitchen I had surgery in March 2017 and am also on Warfarin. I had been stable until about a six weeks ago and had been dealing with the same stuff you are. I finally got above 2.0 this week. The injections are awful I agree but they keep you stable. I always bleed a bit at night too so I just started covering them with band aids at least you won’t wake up in a panic. I finally went to see a hematologist last week who bumped me up to 12. I also had been really limiting my diet and he told me not to anymore that they would adjust the Warfarin to fit my life not to adjust my life to fit the Warfarin. I wish there was a better way too and they tell me there will be something better soon. Just know you aren’t alone in this and it gets better. I always remind myself that at least my heart is healthy.
Judy Shaw I'm so sorry Nikki. Praying this gets figured out.
Kelly Stoll Thinking of you Nikki. Hang in there and keep us updated.
Nikki Escue Thank you ALL!! It's nice to know you guys are here to listen, offer kind words, and give support. ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you ALL!! It's nice to know you guys are here to listen, offer kind words, and give support. It really does make me feel less alone in this whole mess 💕
Kelly Stoll How have things been going Nikki? Thinking of you.
Nikki Escue Kelly, thank you for thinking about me😊 I think depression is starting to set in. It's just all ... Read more
Nikki Escue Kelly, thank you for thinking about me😊 I think depression is starting to set in. It's just all too much. I actually tried sleeping in bed last night, I've been sleeping in the recliner since I came home from the hospital. Well, I couldn't move when I woke up this morning. I couldn't raise myself up out of the bed, I had to call my daughter to come and help me get up. I'm so over all of this, the pain, the low INR, the bleeding from the injection sites, the weakness, nausea, etc. It's been 13 weeks since my first & second OH surgery and 11 weeks since my third. My recovery should be a lot further than this and my family tells me so almost on a daily basis.
Nikki Escue Kelly, I'm sorry. This was probably A Lot more info then you were expecting. I didn't mean to unload ... Read more
Nikki Escue Kelly, I'm sorry. This was probably A Lot more info then you were expecting. I didn't mean to unload on you. It's just been one of those days. Thank you again for thinking about me 💕
Catie B Nikki, we're here with you, your heart family. It takes as long as it takes. Three surgeries back to ... Read more
Catie B Nikki, we're here with you, your heart family. It takes as long as it takes. Three surgeries back to back, plus a world of complications would knock anyone off their feet. I'm so sorry your family members aren't being more patient! Post as much as you need to. You deserve compassion and support! What you've been walking through is a nightmarish experience and no wonder you're more than ready for things to turn around, so you can feel better and regain a sense of normalcy. Be patient with you, too. Your body has been through so much! Hugs to you!
Susan Killian So sorry to hear that, hope things are going better. I hope the get it sorted out quickly. I agree ... Read more
Susan Killian So sorry to hear that, hope things are going better. I hope the get it sorted out quickly. I agree too, recovery takes as long as it takes, there are so many variables and ups and downs, if you are truly feeling depressed do not be afraid of discussing with your doctor. It is a real cardiac surgery syndrome and with all you are going through it is not surprising.
Kelly Stoll Nikki, thank you for your honesty and know others do care. I am so sorry that sleeping in your bed di ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Nikki, thank you for your honesty and know others do care. I am so sorry that sleeping in your bed did not go well. Feeling weak and needing to depend on others for even basic needs can be both troubling and difficult. I know you feel there is a timeline for healing, and perhaps to some degree there is, but this journey is yours. Your body is going to heal in its own time and its own way.
A few years ago, I nearly lost my life to a bacterial infection and I remember a nurse we know looking at me and just shrugging her shoulders when she heard what I had. In her words,"you just take a few pills. It'll go away. No big deal."
At the time she said this, I was on my sixth relapse, had lost over 70 lbs. in less than 3 months, and had begun working with the top doctors in the country to try to help save my life. It took a full year, but eventually I beat the infection.
My main point is, I lost almost all hope but found even when I hit the bottom, somehow there was still enough inside of me to keep fighting. Overcoming that infection was exhausting, soul crushing, and literally destroyed my life... but I got through it. I bounced back, slowly. I got stronger and my health improved. I lived. There are scars- emotional and mental ones. I am not shy about them. Depression and anxiety were the trade I made for getting my life back.
No two journies are the same. Hang in there and keep putting one foot in front of the other, even when you question why bother. Things WILL get better. One day at a time, one step at a time. Unfortunately right now, you have a ways to go before you can see how far you've already come. I have a feeling though that you can do this. You managed to make it this far, right? :)
Nikki Escue Ok, I have to say, Catie, you opened the floodgates, and Kelly, when I read your message, I couldn't ... Read more
Nikki Escue Ok, I have to say, Catie, you opened the floodgates, and Kelly, when I read your message, I couldn't stop the flood of tears. I have to say you ladies are truly awesome. I have felt more compassion, concern, and support on here, from strangers, then I have in my own home. I can't tell you enough how much that means to me.
Katie, what a story! Thank you so much for sharing that with me. We all get in our places and think that it's the worst there is. But we tend to forget that others have or have had it much worse. I'm so glad that you were able to fight that infection and finally recover. But a 70 pound weight loss in 3 months, I know that alone had to have taken a toll on you. I say that because I've lost 40 pounds since my last surgery and I feel it.
Susan, I have delt with depression in the past, for many years. It kinda went hand in hand with the MS. After years of being on medicine for it, my Doctor and I agreed it was no longer benefiting me and I really didn't need the medicine. I was able to handle things on my own. But this whole mess that I've been going through well, I'm sure you all know, some days are worse then others. But you All are really wonderful and I thank you all so much 💕😊
Kelly Stoll You are welcome. That's what we are all here for.
The 70 pound weight loss was in final months pr ... Read more
Kelly Stoll You are welcome. That's what we are all here for.
The 70 pound weight loss was in final months prior to our (later canceled) wedding. Oh the dresses I accumulated! It was almost a full dress size every week. In the end, we were married in my in-laws living room on our socks (6 months early) and I regained most of the weight back again during the next few years. I actually got my health back just in time to help my mom during the final year of her life.
I have learned through all of this that life is unpredictable and we do what we can, as we are able to. There is always an upside or a light in the distance. It just may take some time to find it. I learned not to push my body before it was ready or to expect others to understand what it is like to walk in my shoes. The biggest lesson though was finally understanding what true compassion is. This lesson I am exceptionally grateful for, especially as the (former) daughter of an over-exhauated heart patient who brushed off "I'm too tired" more times than I can count. Now, the lesson continues as I create my path forward, where my mom's left off.
Life is a journey and this one is yours. It can't be compared to anyone else's, because your experiences are unique to you. However, you are not alone either. Remember that and keep walking.
Catie B It's easy for us to offer listening ears and shoulders to cry on. You've got the hard work of walking ... Read more
Catie B It's easy for us to offer listening ears and shoulders to cry on. You've got the hard work of walking through this phase of your healing. I'm not surprised that you're battling depression with all this. If you need medication again or to see a therapist, I hope you won't hesitate to seek out the help. I dearly hope a breakthrough is on the horizon with stabilizing your INR. Battling with that piece of things sounds just exhausting! Fresh hugs for today and lots of warm thoughts headed your way. Prayers, too. <3
Nikki Escue Kelly, sorry to hear about your Mom. It's been a year and eleven days since I lost my Dad. I, too c ... Read more
Nikki Escue Kelly, sorry to hear about your Mom. It's been a year and eleven days since I lost my Dad. I, too cared for my father before he passed. It was 6 months from the time he was diagnosed to the time he passed away. That has also been really hard on me because my first OHS, 4 years ago, he was the only one, besides my Husband, that was at the hospital every day. This time around, he wasn't there. I've never really been on good terms with my Mom.
Unfortunately, my children are all too familiar with the phrase "I'm too tired". For the past couple of years that has been my answer to everything. I'm so looking forward to when I'm fully recovered and I can say "Let's do that again"!
Catie, I've thought about the medicine but I'm not that far yet. Going back to my Therapist would mean someone would have to take me to my appts. I'm still not driving. Maybe once I start driving again but by then the brunt of it should be over. I've always been the one to take care of everything. And I never asked for anything. Not because of pride or anything like that but it was always so much trouble to get someone else to do something for me without them complaining to high heaven or me owing them forever. So I am just going crazy right now having to depend on people to do stuff for me. Now mind you, when I say people, I'm mostly talking about my kids. But I'm sure I'll make an appt, if things get bad enough.
Thank you all for listening. It's nice to have people to talk to.
Catie B Ahh, I didn't realize you weren't able to drive and the challenge of getting to appointments. My hear ... Read more
Catie B Ahh, I didn't realize you weren't able to drive and the challenge of getting to appointments. My heart goes out to you over losing your dad, especially in light of how important he was in your life.
Please keep us posted on your INR battle. So hoping your health struggles will ease soon.
Kelly Stoll Hi Nikki. It is difficult to lose a parent, especially when you are close. My mom passed away almost ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Hi Nikki. It is difficult to lose a parent, especially when you are close. My mom passed away almost 6 years ago, post OHS and after her seventh heart attack. She had heart issues for over 13 years straight. They tell you it gets easier... in time, it really did for me.
I did have to remind myself many times with my surgery that I am not her and everyone's journey is unique. I wished she was here a hundred times at least. My husband and others though helped fill the gaps, including new friends made here.
Keep that in mind with your kids. I know they may not seem to understand now, but maybe one day they will and if they are lucky, they will appreciate everything you did to get here.
Until then, keep going my friend. A therapist is a good suggestion, if and when you want to check that out. Personally, I see one and take medication too. However just having someone to talk to is a help also. So keep chatting. Keep posting. Remember, we are here to support each other. 🤗
Nikki Escue Thank you Catie, I do miss him dearly.
And as far as driving goes, well, that's just another part o ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you Catie, I do miss him dearly.
And as far as driving goes, well, that's just another part of my slow recovery. The weakness, dizziness, occasional nausea, etc. I'm still walking with a walker. I'm hoping it won't be much longer before I'm back up on my feet and fending for myself. I ordered these tension bands to exercise and help strengthen my muscles. Hopefully they work.
Catie B You've had a long journey and there are more miles to go. I hope the bands help. I use them myself fo ... Read more
Catie B You've had a long journey and there are more miles to go. I hope the bands help. I use them myself for PT exercises. The grief takes a lot out of a person, too. I lost my mom in 2014, just as I was moving south to help my aging parents and I had another loss this year. It takes real time to heal our hearts. So keep extending grace to yourself as you've been through a bunch!
Well, I woke up at 4:30 this morning, again, with blood stained clothes from my Lovenox injection site bleeding out. Good thing Clorox 2 gets blood out of ...Read more
Well, I woke up at 4:30 this morning, again, with blood stained clothes from my Lovenox injection site bleeding out. Good thing Clorox 2 gets blood out of clothes or my clothes would be ruined. I understand the whole concept of why I need to be on the Lovenox but man, these side effects are wild!! Like being on the Amiodarone, thank God I'm not on that anymore, those side effects were a nightmare. At least the majority of those are gone. Thankfully, even the nausea is letting up a little, my "morning sickness" isn't lasting all morning. But this bleeding issue is one that I don't think I can handle for very much longer. I'm already anemic so it can't be good.
Here it is 3:00 in the morning and I'm awakened by the feeling of dampness on my stomach. I turn on the light and find that my shirt has a big patch of fresh ...Read more
Here it is 3:00 in the morning and I'm awakened by the feeling of dampness on my stomach. I turn on the light and find that my shirt has a big patch of fresh blood where I did my Lovanox shot last night. It had a band-aid and cotton ball on it but it blead through it. As of yesterday, my INR was 1.8. Monday, I was at 1.9 and the Doctor had me take 11mg of Warfarin Monday night. I wake up Tuesday and it has dropped to 1.8. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't eat anything green. I look up all questionable foods, herbs, vitamins, etc. I just don't get it. But this is definitely not how I like to be woken up! 😭
Kelly Stoll Nikki, I am so sorry to hear this. What an shock to wake up to! Another thing you did not need this w ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Nikki, I am so sorry to hear this. What an shock to wake up to! Another thing you did not need this week. Thinking of you today and hoping little by little things improve for you.
Susan Lynn Nikki- I'm sending you a big virtual hug! I know you will improve, but sometimes you just need comf ... Read more
Susan Lynn Nikki- I'm sending you a big virtual hug! I know you will improve, but sometimes you just need comfort rather than explanations. Thinking of you! ❤
Willie Radl Rita, doesn't the vitamin K make your INR lower? Vitamin K is what the hospital would give you if yo ... Read more
Willie Radl Rita, doesn't the vitamin K make your INR lower? Vitamin K is what the hospital would give you if you were having bleeding issues. Based on her efforts to get her INR higher she should not increase her Vitamin K consumption now. But I agree once she gets it stable, a consistent amount of vitamin K is good.
It does take some time for the warfarin to kick in, I'm not sure you should expect a real change from Monday night to Tuesday morning. Also, are you testing at home? Maybe you should get tested at a clinic. Remember that INR is not very a very accurate test. My thrombosis DR. told me the INR test is +/- 0.2, which is why they give such a large range to be theraputic. Its just too hard to try to always hit a specific INR consistently. Hang in there.
Liz Gephart So sorry you have to struggle with all you have. You are amazing. I’m so impressed with what folks ... Read more
Liz Gephart So sorry you have to struggle with all you have. You are amazing. I’m so impressed with what folks go through, learning, am a newbie to this, but have had a murmur for years and now it’s letting me know it needs medical attention. Thank you for sharing all your braveness. Inspiring. Sending good thoughts to you and yours.
Rita Savelis Oops. You're right Willie. Vitamin k does make inr lower. Sorry. I got confused. I still eat everythi ... Read more
Rita Savelis Oops. You're right Willie. Vitamin k does make inr lower. Sorry. I got confused. I still eat everything in moderation, vitamin k foods included.
Nikki Escue Thank you all for your comforting words and support. Believe me, it really does mean a lot to me, I d ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you all for your comforting words and support. Believe me, it really does mean a lot to me, I don't get much of it from home.
Susan, sometimes it's the hug and reassurance that we need the most 💕
Liz, if that murmur is calling out, please don't hesitate. Get it checked before it turns into something big.
Willie, I too questioned the accuracy of my home INR self check machine so I called the manufacturer and found out that it is calibrated every time I put in a new strip with a different code. I still wasn't or convinced sure so I took it to my Doctors office and compared it to the one he uses and we came up with the same numbers. I have also gone to the lab, had my blood drawn, done my test at the same time while still sitting in the chair, and the next day when my Doctor called me with the lab results it was only 0.1 number off. Also, having a test difference from 1.9 to 1.8 or even 1.9 to 2.0 isn't a big enough difference to go to the lab for testing.
I mainly went into detail about the home INR machine so no one starts questioning the accuracy of their results, like I initially did. I figure the more information the better. 😉
Thank you all, again, for your support ❤️😊
Phyllis Petersen How scary for you! I hope they find a way to even out your INR soon.
Catie B Nikki, I'm sooo sorry you're going through all this. Forgive me, if I've missed this, but do they hav ... Read more
Catie B Nikki, I'm sooo sorry you're going through all this. Forgive me, if I've missed this, but do they have you on name-brand Coumadin? It is a thought, if your issues persist. My mother could not take generic warfarin because her INR literally would not regulate on it. She took it 20+ years. The same thing happened to the lab tech's wife who monitored my INR after my surgery and his wife (mechanical mitral valve) had to take Coumadin only for this same reason. It's more expensive, but in their cases, it worked. Hope things calm down for you!
Nikki Escue Catie, I am on the generic form of Coumadin, which is Warfarin. I wouldn't have even thought of that ... Read more
Nikki Escue Catie, I am on the generic form of Coumadin, which is Warfarin. I wouldn't have even thought of that to be an issue. But that is very interesting and now that you have mentioned it, I will bring it up with my Doctor. Thank you for letting me know about this because so far the answer has been to take more Warfarin and the Lovenox shot and see what happens. Well, it's not working 😕
Catie B It is at least worth discussing. I don't know the lab tech's wife personally, but her story sounded ... Read more
Catie B It is at least worth discussing. I don't know the lab tech's wife personally, but her story sounded just like Mom's. They tried my mom on generic Warfarin numerous times and her levels absolutely wouldn't stabilize at any point, whereas they came into line and remained manageable on brand-name Coumadin. I really hope they can get things working for you soon!
I have a Physical Therapist that comes to my house twice a week to do cardiac training, help exercise/strengthen my legs, and check the wounds left by the retention ...Read more
I have a Physical Therapist that comes to my house twice a week to do cardiac training, help exercise/strengthen my legs, and check the wounds left by the retention sutures. Well, today she tells me that 2 of the wounds are infected! Not sure how, but they are. So now I'm back to the Betadine wash and bandaging twice a day.
Also, my INR has been at 1.9 for the past 5 days. I have the Alere self check home kit so I'm checking it everyday. I'm now taking 10mg a night of Warfarin plus I have to do the Lovanox shot in my stomach. My stomach is all bruised and I'm so miserable, I just want to cry 😭 😭😭
Rita Savelis Oh gosh, Nikki, you have had way too much happen. I want to cry with you. I'm hoping that your INR wi ... Read more
Rita Savelis Oh gosh, Nikki, you have had way too much happen. I want to cry with you. I'm hoping that your INR will just shoot up all of a sudden like it sometimes does, or at least begin its slow progression upward. I haven't had multiple surgeries but I do have multiple replacement valves and repairs.... and I feel for you. Take care.
Kelly Stoll Hi Nikki. Hang in there and know thoughts are with you. I hope you begin to regain some stability and ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Hi Nikki. Hang in there and know thoughts are with you. I hope you begin to regain some stability and good health soon!
Sommer Russell Nikki, what is your range for INR? On a bright side. A couple weeks ago the FDA approved a reversal ... Read more
Sommer Russell Nikki, what is your range for INR? On a bright side. A couple weeks ago the FDA approved a reversal agent for Eliquis and my cardiologist said they are doing trials for Eliquis with mechanical valves as we speak. I think Eliquis will be in our future soon! This is good news. Sending hugs and warm wishes your way. Things will turn around soon.
Nikki Escue Sommer, my INR range is 2.5 - 3.5 they would like me at 3. I have to stay on the Lovanox until I am ... Read more
Nikki Escue Sommer, my INR range is 2.5 - 3.5 they would like me at 3. I have to stay on the Lovanox until I am 2.3, only because my Doctor doesn't want another blood clot forming on my valves like before.
Every anticoagulant I see advertised on TV says "Not for use with mechanical valves." If they could come up with something, Eliquis, so we could get off this Warfarin/INR roller coaster, that would be wonderful!
Rita and Kelly, thank you so much for the kind words and the support. It really is comforting to know that we are not going through this journey by ourselves.
Sommer Russell In trying to figure out this Coumadin stuff, I had asked our Nurse Liaison and he said that my docto ... Read more
Sommer Russell In trying to figure out this Coumadin stuff, I had asked our Nurse Liaison and he said that my doctors follow a low INR at the bottom end of 2. They would use a St. Jude for me. Does this differ because of a different mechanical valve or is it physician preference?
Rita Savelis Sommer, Each mechanical valve has its manufacturer's recommendations. Your specific case and problem ... Read more
Rita Savelis Sommer, Each mechanical valve has its manufacturer's recommendations. Your specific case and problem is also taken into consideration by your doctor - whether you have multiple valves, specific problems, afib, etc. And there are differing opinions. So it's a combination. Many now choose valves that are marketed as needing lower INR rates.
But some patients have less choice in the matter because of their specific heart problem. So there is no norm really.
Nikki Escue Sommer, and with the resent history I have of a clot forming on one of my mechanical valves, my Docto ... Read more
Nikki Escue Sommer, and with the resent history I have of a clot forming on one of my mechanical valves, my Doctor wants my INR higher to prevent that from happening again.
But you are fortunate to be able to have your INR on the low side. Fighting to keep up really sucks!
Rita Savelis I have a high INR target range (3 to 4.5) because of 2 mechanical valves. I think especially with the ... Read more
Rita Savelis I have a high INR target range (3 to 4.5) because of 2 mechanical valves. I think especially with the mitral valve replacement a higher range may be important for me. The lab sometimes calls me when I get up in the 4.5 range because they think it's too high, but I tell them it's not. I have no trouble staying at this range now, but it took a LONG time to get up there, and when I have had to stop anticoagulants temporarily (for example when I had breast surgery) it took weeks to get my INR back up again. What a drag. The meds are re-introduced slowly. It's a pain, but I've forgotten it now and test only once a month and my INR fluctuates but stays within range. I take 8 mg 3 days and 10 mg one day.... So I hear you, and I know how hard it can be. At some point you will be able to forget all this INR worry, hopefully, and just carry on (I am 3 yrs post OHS).
Nikki Escue Rita, WoW! And How? Wow, that your INR range is that high. Do you ever experience symptoms or side ... Read more
Nikki Escue Rita, WoW! And How? Wow, that your INR range is that high. Do you ever experience symptoms or side effects when your INR goes too high? Before this round of surgeries, I would get a migraine type headache that was different than a typical migraine. I would always get them when my INR was in the 4 or higher range. I have had mri's done just to make sure there were no bleeds.
And How did you get it that high? How do you keep it in that range only taking Warfarin 4 nights out of the week? I'm currently taking 10mg every night and still I'm at 1.8!!! What is your diet like? At this point, I feel like I have to cut out everything.
If you can't tell, I'm just amazed at how well you are managing your levels and I would appreciate any tips you might give.
Also, you mentioned breast surgery. I hope everything went well with that and I hope you had a full recovery. God Bless 🙏🏻
Rita Savelis Nikki, I do take anticoagulants 7 days a week (but I alternate: 3 days 8 mg, 1 day 10mg, 3 days 8mg, ... Read more
Rita Savelis Nikki, I do take anticoagulants 7 days a week (but I alternate: 3 days 8 mg, 1 day 10mg, 3 days 8mg, etc...) I don't notice anything when my INR is lower or higher. I used to freak when it was high, but just because it was high, not because anything happened. I eat what I like. Greens. Everything. No dietary changes. I was told it was okay to eat everything and base my meds around my standard diet. It took many weeks/months to get my INR up to that level, but now it's fairly constant. I hover around 3.5 actually. I've never had an MRI done (I can't have them because I have a pacemaker which I got as a side effect of OHS). I don't bruise much. I have tried to stop worrying. It didn't help me to worry.
I had a lot of vascular headaches for the first years after OHS, but they have stopped. They usually lasted about 5 or 10 minutes and were not like migraines. My cardiologist didn't have much to say about them. I have had migraines for the past 20 years about once a month. They were there before OHS and are still there now, and are a drag (nauseated all day..!)
I find that travel is the main factor that changes my INR. A change in time zones, a big change in diet, etc.
It is important to test (maybe once a month if you can manage to be relaxed enought to wait a month, or once every 3 weeks) and important to be a fairly responsible person and not go on a drinking binge for example. But otherwise you just have to carry on and have faith that things are okay. This can take years (after OHS). Being relaxed, I mean, especially when you have had myriad problems and multiple surgeries.
I do think that testing too often may not be good because it can lead to worry and INR naturally varies, even in the same day, or in different drops of blood. So one can overdo it. But each person needs to find their own way....
I've had breast cancer twice (tiny tumors) but because of my childhood cancer and the consequent radiation therapy I had many years ago (which ruined my heart valves) I can't have radiation therapy anymore. So each time I've just had a small surgery. This last time (2 yrs after OHS) they wanted to do a preventative mastectomy even though the tumor was in situ. Mainly because they couldn't radiate. I said no, and am just having mammograms regularly now. Getting my INR back up to a good level after that last tumor surgery took 2 weeks!
I wrote a long post on my site about living with anticoagulants.
And I hear you, they are a drag. And in a perfect world I wouldn't take them and I wouldn't have 2 mechanical valves or a pacemaker!
Take care, and wishing you some peace.
Sommer Russell Wow Rita. Really appreciate the info. I've been told the same- eat the same foods consistently and ... Read more
Sommer Russell Wow Rita. Really appreciate the info. I've been told the same- eat the same foods consistently and you should be ok. I really don't want to be on blood thinners. One more thing. This is a female question- so the guys may want to read on. What about Coumadin and menstruation? My ob/gyn suggested an uterine ablation prior to OHS and Coumadin. My cardiologist has given cardiac clearance. Thoughts or experience with menstruation and Coumadin?
Rita Savelis I feel "lucky" because i had an early menopause and so did not have to deal with this. Your periods w ... Read more
Rita Savelis I feel "lucky" because i had an early menopause and so did not have to deal with this. Your periods will be heavier because of anticoagulants, but i'll let my younger friends answer. This topic has been brought up before on this site. Have not heard about ablation though, ever. Another female complaint is that because many hormones are affected (temporarily) after OHS, many women get an unexpected. . period in the ICU, just when it's the last thing they need on top of everything else to deal with...
Sommer Russell Period in the ICU, well then there is that to look forward too. What the what???
Nikki Escue Sommer, I'm 47. Prior to this OHS, I had not had a period for 6 months. Beginning menopause? Probab ... Read more
Nikki Escue Sommer, I'm 47. Prior to this OHS, I had not had a period for 6 months. Beginning menopause? Probably. But , like Rita mentioned, things happened in ICU. They continuously asked me if I was on my period. I said no, I don't have them. Well, I had one the whole time I was in the hospital until well after I got home, something like a month. I've not had one since. Come to find out, it was from the Heparin.
I was also on Coumadin before this OHS due to an OHS 4 years ago. That being said, I never had problems with my periods, heavier, more painful, longer etc... nor have I ever heard of needing or a Doctor suggesting a uterine ablation prior to surgery. However, our bodies are all different 😊
Rita Savelis Sommer, you are probably getting too much information, sorry, but in many ways it is good to be forew ... Read more
Rita Savelis Sommer, you are probably getting too much information, sorry, but in many ways it is good to be forewarned about things that may or may not happen. It helps one to feel normal and not like this is only happening to me. Then those side effects happen or don't happen. I think knowledge is power and am always thankful for those doctors who were very frank and honest with me. My experience is not like others' experience, but there are always bits and pieces in common. I am thinking of you. It is never easy to be young and a heart patient. It is not easy, period. But it is doable and you can't overthink it. You just have to take it one day at a time and not think that you can control it or that you are doing anything wrong. It will all happen, no matter how prepared or unprepared you are. It's all okay. Take care.
Sommer Russell No, no, no Rita. Please inform away. Things could easily spiral emotionally if you only prepared fo ... Read more
Sommer Russell No, no, no Rita. Please inform away. Things could easily spiral emotionally if you only prepared for the way for "how it is supposed to go" and not what actually happens. I like knowing every possible path in front of me and being ready for it. I LOVE the information and please do always share with me and others!!!
Nikki Escue Sommer, I don't think it's possible to get too much information. I think it's better to know what yo ... Read more
Nikki Escue Sommer, I don't think it's possible to get too much information. I think it's better to know what you're in for, whether it happens that way or not, then to be left wondering what to expect.
While I was in the Hospital the second time, after surgery, my heart rate kept bouncing from a-fib to
a-flutter. It got so bad that when they got me up to ...Read more
While I was in the Hospital the second time, after surgery, my heart rate kept bouncing from a-fib to
a-flutter. It got so bad that when they got me up to walk, I would get short of breath and almost pass out after just a few minutes. So the Doctors decided to knock me out and do an Electrical Cardioversion to try and get my heart back to a normal rhythm. Luckily, it worked. However, in order to keep my heart in rhythm, they had to put me on a couple different medications, Metoprolol and Amiodarone. Since I have been home, I have been sick everyday with nausea, loss of appetite, and dizziness. At my last Dr. visit my Cardiologist took me off the Amiodarone, saying that was causing the bad symptoms. He did do an EKG first just to make sure my heart rate was as it should be. He also cut my Metoprolol dose in half. The problem is I'm still getting sick everyday. It's like a morning sickness ( and, no I'm not pregnant, lol ). The other symptoms have gone away but this one is the worst and it's lingering. My Dr. said the symptoms would last for a while because the medicine was so strong. He did, however, give me yet another pill for the nausea but it triggered my migraines. It seems like I take so much medicine as it is, along with shots for my Multiple Sclerosis, I always cringe when the Doctors say, "We have a pill for that!"
I guess through all my ramblings, my question to all of you is.... Have any of you been on Amiodarone and did it affect you this way? If so, how did you handle it? Thank you for your help 🙂
Mark Wilbur Hi Nikki. My wife has been on metoprolol and amiodarone for 18 months as the result of Afib. She has ... Read more
Mark Wilbur Hi Nikki. My wife has been on metoprolol and amiodarone for 18 months as the result of Afib. She has not experienced the side effects you report; however, her hair has noticeably thinned, apparently due to the amiodarone. Both drugs have been significantly reduced over time and since amiodarone is not intended for long term treatment, we expect that drug to be terminated and/or replaced in the coming weeks. You can check the side effects of every drug and interactions between drugs at Drugs.com. Your problem may be interactions between drugs recently added or changed. We learned that timing between taking certain medications can also affect their effectiveness. We wish you well as you continue to recover. God Bless you.
Nikki Escue Hi Mark, Thank you for your feedback. I'm very thankful that I didn't have to stay on the Amiodarone ... Read more
Nikki Escue Hi Mark, Thank you for your feedback. I'm very thankful that I didn't have to stay on the Amiodarone as long as your wife. I will definitely look into what you suggested. I hope your wife is doing well. Thank you again and God Bless 🙏🏻
Catie B Nikki, I was on Amiodarone for several months. I suffered nausea, starting in the hospital, probably ... Read more
Catie B Nikki, I was on Amiodarone for several months. I suffered nausea, starting in the hospital, probably off & on a total of 3-4 weeks. But it settled down and I didn't attribute it to this med. They also had to tweak and re-tweak my Metoprolol, ultimately giving the smallest dose possible. There are other rhythm meds they could try with you, but all have various side effects. I hope you start feeling much better soon! BTW, I don't know whether you have or feel you need an electrophysiologist.
Nikki Escue Hi Cathie B, my Cardiologist didn't say anything about needing to see an electrophysiologist. He did ... Read more
Nikki Escue Hi Cathie B, my Cardiologist didn't say anything about needing to see an electrophysiologist. He did however, mention, while I was still in the hospital, the possibility of having to do some sort of ablation later on, if the meds didn't work. But they did the Cardioversion and that put my heart back into rhythm. The meds are just to keep it in rhythm. They have adjusted my Metoprolol several times as well. Right now I'm on half a pill.
After, talking about all of this with you guys, it really has me thinking.... During my very first OHS 4 years ago, for my first Mitral Valve Replacement, the Surgeon also did a Maze procedure and I didn't have to deal with all these medicine issues afterwards. Same Surgeon did all my surgeries, I wonder why he didn't do something like that this time? It's Just a thought.
Jim Harvey Hi Nikki, I am on both Amiodarone and Metop. Amidarone is continuation from post-surgery because I h ... Read more
Jim Harvey Hi Nikki, I am on both Amiodarone and Metop. Amidarone is continuation from post-surgery because I had both 'pause' and a-fib, but the dose is 1/4 of what it was when I left. However, the metop. is 2x what I was on, again due to a-fib and a-flutter. This is an adjustment process that affects us each differently. My current mix keeps me in sinus rhythm which after 8 weeks is a good feeling! I also had the cardio version about a week after hospital release in order to get my sinus rhythm back.
Amiodarone has a long half-life -- stays in your system for a long time. If the doc cut it down or out, it may take a little while for it to completely clear out. Stay well hydrated in the meantime, that should help with the nausea too.
PS - it took me about a week to be able to pronounce Amiodarone correctly! HA!
Rose Madura I hope you adjust better soon to the medicines. It is definitely a hard thing to do. I'm glad you ... Read more
Rose Madura I hope you adjust better soon to the medicines. It is definitely a hard thing to do. I'm glad you are off the Amiodarone. But it will stay in your system a while. Dizziness, no appetite and nausea are all part of the process - at least they were for me. Certain smells made me nauseous for some reason and I still can't stomach the smell or taste of peppermint of all things. It's a journey for sure. Best wishes that you'll be feeling better soon.
Sandy Laine Amiodarone did not sit well with me, either. After a few days of getting up, taking the meds, going ... Read more
Sandy Laine Amiodarone did not sit well with me, either. After a few days of getting up, taking the meds, going for a walk, then coming home to vomit, decided to skip the walk to see if it was the walks or meds making me sick. Still vomited. The walk may have helped - because the night I skipped the walk I was VERY ill - so then I quit taking the amiodarone (only a few pills left). The cardiac rehab nurse convinced me to take the last few pills when they saw afib when I got on the bike (not the treadmill - just the bike) a few weeks later. I think there were only four left. I took them - but hope I never have to again.
Interesting history for amiodarone - which we looked up when we decided it was what was making me sick. Put on the market to assist with angina I think in the 1960's - then pulled because of the side effects. Put back on the market in early 80's for afib... (may have dates a little off), and apparently still considered the 'best' medicine for that.
Janet posted the half-life table for amiodarone after you posted your query. It sticks around awhile (but maybe that, too, helps people keep from going back into afib...)
Good Luck!
Catie B Well, I sure hope you feel much better soon, Nikki!
Nikki Escue Thank you everyone for the helpful feedback. Jim, yes, it took me a while to be able to pronounce it ... Read more
Nikki Escue Thank you everyone for the helpful feedback. Jim, yes, it took me a while to be able to pronounce it as well. Most of the time I just called it Ami. lol
Rose, surprisingly, smells affect me too. I keep a ziplock sandwich baggie with a sliced lemon in it. When smells start to get to me, I stick my nose in the bag. Usually, not all the time, it keeps me from getting sick. That's a trick I learned when I was pregnant with my first. I carried a baggie of sliced lemon everywhere.
Sandy, movement also caused me to get nauseous. I knew that all these strange things were from the Amiodarone. My Husband thought it was because I didn't want to walk. And I wouldn't walk, eat or drink because everything made me sick. Thankfully, most of the side effects are gone. However, I am still waking up in the mornings with a headache and nauseous. But I am able to eat, drink and walk (still with a walker) in the afternoons.
Sandy, regarding your history on Amiodarone, my Nurse flat out called it Poison!! But she said it is what works for a-fib and that's why it's used. It's sad that Big Pharma can't come up with something that isn't referred to as poison, doesn't cause us more problems than we had to begin with, but still work to cure what ails us.
Thanks again y'all 😉
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My scheduled Mitral and Aortic Valve Replacement Surgery, which was on 03/08/2018, did not go quite as planned. After the surgery, ...Read more
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My scheduled Mitral and Aortic Valve Replacement Surgery, which was on 03/08/2018, did not go quite as planned. After the surgery, while I was still in the recovery room, I started bleeding. They took me back into surgery, and had to reopen me to try and see where I was bleeding from. From the time they first took me into surgery to the time I got to the ICU was 12 hours. I developed fluid on my lungs, which resulted in them doing a thoracentesis on the same day that I went home, 8 days after surgery. I wasn't ready. I didn't feel right about going home but they kept saying I was medically ready. So I left the hospital.
I was home for 3 days before I was taken to my local hospital by paramedics because I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was being suffocated. I can remember the Paramedics coming to my house and saying "Everything appears to be normal, EKG, my stats were fine but they took me because I had recently had surgery. By the time I got to the local hospital, maybe 10 minutes away, I felt like an elephant was standing on my chest. The Doctors in the ER contacted my Dr. at Cedars and reported that I had pneumonia. My Dr. said to get me to Cedars ASAP. After that, all I know is what my husband told me, which is that they knocked me out, intubated me and air lifted me to Cedars-Sinai Medical and took me straight to ICU. My one and only helicopter ride and I missed it!! I spent 3 days in ICU in a medically induced coma, hooked up to every machine you can think of, because my lungs were filled with fluid and they didn't want to take the chance of doing surgery with me in that condition. Finally, they decided they couldn't wait any longer and they needed to go back in because my heart was failing. Somehow, in the short time of the first surgery, 15 days, a blood clot had formed on the new mechanical Mitral valve and it had stopped working. So on 03/23/2018, I went in for another open heart surgery for another Mitral Valve Replacement. ( Say goodby to Mitral Valve #2, the first one was done in 2014 ) Sooo, this time, they used a different mechanical valve. Also, it was placed in a slightly different position to make it fit better. And since I had been opened up 3 times in 2 weeks, my skin was very weak. So they had to use retention sutures on each side of the main incision, which was stapled. Let me tell you, the first time I saw those retention sutures, while the nurse was cleaning them, I almost cried! I had never seen anything like those before. And I wish I never had because those things have left problems all their own. Anyhow, after several blood transfusions and many more thoracentesis's, I was released from the hospital 16 days after surgery.
I'm home now and 65 days after the last surgery, I'm still struggling with my recovery. My incision has healed nicely however, remember those retention sutures I mentioned? Well, I still have painful, gaping, wounds on my chest. Some have said that I look like I've been shot with a shot gun. I'm still not able to care for myself, I can't raise my arms. I'm still weak and walking with a walker.
My family feels I should be up and back to normal by now. They are tired of having to care for me. I understand this is hard on them too but the more I move around the more it causes these wounds to bleed. I just didn't expect it to be like this. I recovered so much quicker after my very first surgery (01/2014) of course, that was just the Mitral Valve Replacement and Tricuspid Repair, and I was younger (43). But now, my family just expects me to bounce right back just like before, and I can't do it. And I'm the one that feels guilty.
Sorry this was so long, but that's my story, and there was a lot to tell. Believe it or not, I still left quite a bit out. Like, after I got out of the hospital, my husband had to take me back down to Cedars every week, up until 3 weeks ago, to have a Thoracentesis done because fluid kept building up on my lungs. I'm so glad that has stopped! What a pain!
But Oh Yeah, I said I was done. lol
So thank you for listening to my story. And remember, for those of you who haven't had your surgery yet. Stories like mine are NOT the norm. Most go like clockwork. For example, Arnold Schwarzenegger had his surgery a week after mine, same hospital, and left before me, not to mention all the others they did and do on a daily basis.
Above All, God is Good. And I thank Him and my Doctor for giving me another chance ❤️
Susan Lynn You've been through so much. I'll keep you in my prayers, but you will get better and all of this w ... Read more
Susan Lynn You've been through so much. I'll keep you in my prayers, but you will get better and all of this will be a distant memory. Stay positive - we'll walk with you through your recovery. ❤💕💖
Natalia Margulis You must be a very strong person to pass through all of this. The best wishes for recovery
Kelly Stoll Nikki, congratulations on being home. It sounds like you have had quite the battle. A friend and fell ... Read more
Kelly Stoll Nikki, congratulations on being home. It sounds like you have had quite the battle. A friend and fellow zipper club member recently gave me a framed photo that says "Never be ashamed of a scar. It simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you"... continue to stay strong and may your "scars" heal well.
Gina Fiorentino Nikki, I just read your story. Thank you for sharing and posting, and I truly hope you continue to f ... Read more
Gina Fiorentino Nikki, I just read your story. Thank you for sharing and posting, and I truly hope you continue to feel stronger in your recovery. You have indeed been through so much, and I know you might not feel very strong at this moment, but you most certainly are. I have felt that my recovery has been hard on my family too, and yet we just have to exactly where we are in the healing process. Ive experienced folks on this site to be compassionate... and I seem to recall that Adam mentioned something in his Patient's Guide-- that sometimes it is hard for family and friends to understand. You are truly blessed to have made it through so much. I wish you well and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Nikki Escue Ladies, I want you all to know that your words of compassion and encouragement mean more to me than y ... Read more
Nikki Escue Ladies, I want you all to know that your words of compassion and encouragement mean more to me than you will ever know. My eyes filled up with tears as I read each of your posts. It's nice to hear the kind words and to know that I am not alone. I finally have people who understand what I am going through.
Bonnie Stone-Hope Dear Nikki,
You are a very strong women!
And have been through so much.
Bonnie Stone-Hope Dear Nikki,
You are a very strong women!
And have been through so much.
Please know you are not alone. Prayers coming your way. Take it one day at a time, and be proud of yourself and how you have dealt with these challenges.
My Mother frequently mentioned a familiar quote which has always provided comfort in time of need (for example, childbirth!) ........"THIS TOO, SHALL PASS"
God Bless.
Nikki Escue Bonnie, Thank you for your kind words. "One Day At a Time" is a song that I have always loved. Thank ... Read more
Nikki Escue Bonnie, Thank you for your kind words. "One Day At a Time" is a song that I have always loved. Thank you for reminding me of that. And "This Too, Shall Pass" is a wonderful motto.
I ... Read more
I recall feeling a bit off after my surgery, but chalked it up to all the medication. The feeling did eventually dissipate and I suspect yours will, too. You've been through alot and it may take a little longer, but you'll get there. It sounds like you have a lovely family and great adventures ahead. Be forthcoming with your doctor and keep going back until you feel improvement. All the best! ❤
Mabel, I totally understand what you mean about it interrupting your life. I literally lost all of 2018. And yes, it made me sad, angry and frustrated too. A whole year of my life gone and in the process I think I aged 10. How fair is that?? lol
Susan, I don't know about Wonder Woman, but thank you. When I do stop and think about it and look back at the pictures, it is hard to believe that I've been through all of that. But it also reminds me of how much progress I've made. But I still can't help feeling like I've climbed so many mountains and I'm stuck at the bottom of another one one and I lost my rope. If that makes any sense.
Thank you guys for the support. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this.
Thank you all for your kind words, understanding and being here. I just want you to know that I greatly appreciate it 💕
praying. One day soon, all this will be behind you. Be strong!