Hello everyone, it has been 4 months since my husband’s surgery. It was performed on 9/30/2022. We hit a bump right before the surgery and Jim ...Read more
Hello everyone, it has been 4 months since my husband’s surgery. It was performed on 9/30/2022. We hit a bump right before the surgery and Jim had to go in for an emergency root canal. This lead to being on antibiotics and a lot of NSAIDs for pain. Fast forward, this caused two duodenum ulcers. These ulcers bled post surgery as they put him on Eliquis due to afib. This lead to a longer hospital stay and then when he was discharged on 10/10/22, he had to return on 10/15 for a blood transfusion due to severe anemia. Ultimately, the heart surgery was smooth and our surgeon was very thorough.
Anyway, after several weeks of back and forth by my daughter and I, Jim was eventually released to come home. Things have been fairly smooth. His ulcers were treated and have resolved. We just receive lab work back that confirmed his anemia is all resolved as well. He did have to go through blood transfusions initially (total of 4) and we are very grateful for blood donors and the fact we got through all of that. The doctor’s, our surgeon, the hospital staff, were all on it and took great care of Jim.
Currently Jim is fighting off a cold which is no fun. Post surgery he had a cough that was caused by the EGD. It hung around until January and finally resolved only to have a cough from this cold bug. At least he isn’t dealing with the healing of his chest this time. He is on Metoprolol and aspirin. He has had a couple of odd heart beats here and there, but so far so good. He goes in for a 5 month check on 2/14/23…gotta love that it’s on Valentines Day.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to even believe we made it through a second surgery. Time seems so surreal…I continue to pray for his confidence to build in this surgery outcome. Since his first one failed, it makes it challenging to feel the confidence that all is good…that this valve will last.
I remind myself every day - one step at a time.
Ana Brusso Oh Ellen, one step and one day at a time. So sorry Jim and all of you have gone through so many healt ... Read more
Ana Brusso Oh Ellen, one step and one day at a time. So sorry Jim and all of you have gone through so many health hurdles but so glad and grateful he is on the mends. Hoping he stays positive that this valve will last. Will pray for you guys for strength and good health and that God will give His peace. God bless you and Jim and your daughter 🙏❤️
Ellen Higgs Thank you Ana - your prayers are very appreciated. I feel like I have PTSD, so I’m very reactionar ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Thank you Ana - your prayers are very appreciated. I feel like I have PTSD, so I’m very reactionary right now. Hopefully time will ease that. ❤️🙏
Rose Madura Hi Ellen, you guys have surely been through it! Both of you are warriors. Continue plugging forwar... Read more
Rose Madura Hi Ellen, you guys have surely been through it! Both of you are warriors. Continue plugging forward. Complications can be hard to deal with but you two seem to be handling it well. God bless you both.
Greg Lewis Hi Ellen! You two have had a lot to deal with! I know how it feels to think " OK, that's over, now ... Read more
Greg Lewis Hi Ellen! You two have had a lot to deal with! I know how it feels to think " OK, that's over, now it should only get better. " but then, your wind is knocked out, when you run into another problem. It's just so hard! You are not alone! We have been there. I am asking God to please help the two of you, and give you strength, and courage. Every one of these hurdles is a step forward, not backward. They are steps forward to a recovery. Every one is needed to get there. Jim will get to the ability he needs to be at. When You feel like you can't lift another problem, don't worry, God will lift it for you! Right into the place it needs to be! It will all be OK.
Greg
Rita Savelis Thank you for sharing Jim's story. I hear you. One step at a time.
Erin Feaker Oh my! I hope you can all stay positive! Y’all are some strong people to go through all of that. Pr ... Read more
Erin Feaker Oh my! I hope you can all stay positive! Y’all are some strong people to go through all of that. Praying for brighter days ahead for you!
Amy Berger Greg - such beautiful thoughts and perspectives!
Hello Everyone, I wanted to provide an update on our new aortic valve stenosis journey. We just met our new surgeon, Dr. Sharma. He is with Mercy ...Read more
Hello Everyone, I wanted to provide an update on our new aortic valve stenosis journey. We just met our new surgeon, Dr. Sharma. He is with Mercy General Hospital in Sacramento. He evaluated Jim’s CT and said that his bigger concern is the bovine valve. That although the Aorta is indeed dilated, it’s not the main issue. At this time he puts Jim at moderate to severe stenosis stage. This is just slightly over three years from when it was installed, March of 2019.
Dr. Sharma stated that based on Jim’s overall physical size, the Edwards Bovine Valve that installed is too small (23mm). He said this does create a situation where stenosis can set in much faster. He also said that given Jim’s age, he just turned 59 (so considered young) that stenosis can appear faster.
The procedure Dr. Sharma is recommending is AVR with root enlargement, he will install a 25 mm valve (Edwards), fix the Aorta, do a Maze procedure and a LAA (left atrial appendage) ligation. He talked to us about an increased chance of a pacemaker. Went over all the risks of course.
When he first walked in and saw Jim his comment was, “Wow, you are very fit.” We run a construction company and Jim is owner/operator - he never sits down. He asked if Jim was having any symptoms and at this time our answer was no. Dr. Sharma is going to have, or perhaps already has had, a conversation with our cardiologist Dr. Joshi. They will determine the best time for surgery at this point. My understanding is Dr. Sharma is two months out - it’s really crazy as he said he alone is doing 4 heart surgeries a week I believe. He did say however, that if Dr. Joshi tells him to get Jim in sooner he will do so.
He was wonderfully reassuring. Our original surgery was performed at another hospital (Mercy San Juan) and he shared confidently, that Jim’s this experience, at Mercy General, will be very different - it will be more positive. He even spent time talking to Jim about his past trauma around the surgery and how he understood - he was very compassionate and sorry that we were back so soon discussing another surgery.
So, all in all - even if we are back way too soon for this we at least feel good about the surgeon and how it’s being handled. It’s a bit uncomfortable knowing the bovine valve failed and that it could again. Dr. Sharma will be setting up Jim’s heart so if the valve fails early again they will be able to do a “fix” using a wire. We didn’t go into this in detail so I’m not sure what that meant. He also said his heart will be setup to receive another valve, if needed, without another open heart surgery. Too bad that wasn’t done the first time around.
Thank you everyone for listening. This is de-ja vu for us and not at all comfortable. We are blessed to have such an incredible support system around us both here in this forum (thank you Adam) and in our personal lives…we won’t be going through it alone.
Rose Madura Sounds like the new surgeon is awesome. Please keep us posted on the journey.
Ellen Higgs Thank you Rose…it’s scary to be going through it all again so soon. Jim’s recovery was a lengt ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Thank you Rose…it’s scary to be going through it all again so soon. Jim’s recovery was a lengthy one. I’m hopeful that this time around, although a full open heart this time, will be a bit better.
Brady Busch The doctor is very experienced,from your description.That's great.More is better. It also looks li ... Read more
Brady Busch The doctor is very experienced,from your description.That's great.More is better. It also looks like the surgeon is going to be very thorough.
Yvonne Deane Sending prayers. Hoping for all to go well for Jim (and for you)! 💖
Hello everyone - Jim’s first surgery was minimally invasive. From what I’m understanding his next surgery will be a full split. Can anyone share any encouraging ...Read more
Hello everyone - Jim’s first surgery was minimally invasive. From what I’m understanding his next surgery will be a full split. Can anyone share any encouraging information on the full split and recovery and how it might be different from the mini-split? My husband is pretty anxious over this and I guess I am as well. Thank you.
George Gardopee Ellen: my own experience with the “full split” was very positive. If you and Jim have the time a ... Read more
George Gardopee Ellen: my own experience with the “full split” was very positive. If you and Jim have the time and patience, I wrote a detailed day-by-day account in my journal.
It was not nearly as painful or difficult to recover from as I expected and I am a world-class wimp. I can honestly say that, other than the restrictions against driving and picking up heavy items, I felt pretty normal in a week or two. I did not take anything stronger than Tylenol by the third day after surgery. I was hoping for minimally invasive surgery but I had calcifications in my aorta that could have been a problem had they attempted robotic surgery. Also, the surgeon had to do a repair on a second valve that he did not anticipate. If he had done the robotic approach, it would not have been possible to do both. Something to consider - it would seem that the sternotomy approach does not require much, if any, severing of nerves and muscles, unlike the other methods. Everyone’s experience is different, but I found my surgery to be surprisingly easy to tolerate. Others will likely chime in here, but from reading many accounts, it seems like the sternal pain after surgery is often the least problematic issue for those who have had a sternotomy. Fatigue is usually a much bigger problem - and I don’t think the fatigue is related to the method of entry. The restrictions on your activity of course are longer with a sternotomy. I found the most annoying part of the restrictions was not being able to drive for 6 weeks. I felt well enough that I would often forget about the surgery and I would inadvertently yank on a stuck door. That would cause more discomfort than I felt the days immediately after the surgery - so it is advisable to be careful. Ask anything at all here - everyone here is very generous with their time and support.
Ellen Higgs Thank you George. Jim really did struggle with his first surgery healing. Not really physically, bu ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Thank you George. Jim really did struggle with his first surgery healing. Not really physically, but mentally. I tend to feel that when you go all your life being healthy and strong, having heart surgery is a huge knock to the psyche. He did have issues with the post medications - like the blood pressure medication and the beta-blocker. He also had side effects to the heart/lung machine. They ended up taking him off of the medications about 3 weeks after the surgery. He then ended up with an Afib event in 2020, exactly one year after his initial surgery. He only had one event, but they did put him on blood thinners for around 15 months. He is the owner/operator of our construction business so that was not a fun 15 months. He had to be extremely careful of injuries, as you can imagine, and since the blood thinner was Warfarin we had to monitor his INR every week. Anyway, we got through that and honestly he has finally been feeling more like himself. Only to run into this new, unfortunate bump in the road. He is very concerned about the full split. I thank you for the encouraging story and I will share it with him. It’s such a blessing we live in the times we do, because at least there are options for correcting these health issues.
Tom Everson Hi my biggest complaint after my aortic valve surgery was 1. Had to wait 24 hours before I could ... Read more
Tom Everson Hi my biggest complaint after my aortic valve surgery was 1. Had to wait 24 hours before I could drink coffee 2 My upper back was sore. It was not too bad, everyone is different. Stay positive and look forward.
Adam Pick Hi Ellen, I'm going to post two videos which address re-operations. The videos may not exactly answe... Read more
Adam Pick Hi Ellen, I'm going to post two videos which address re-operations. The videos may not exactly answer your question above. However, there is a lot of good info in these videos. The real important thing is that you find a surgeon and team that has very good experience with re-ops. Hope these videos help!
https://www.Heart-Valve-Sugery.com - Learn about complex valve operations and mitral valve re-operations in this special interview with Dr. Anelechi Anyanwu,...
https://www.Heart-Valve-Surgery.com - Patients who undergo heart valve repair or heart valve replacement operations may require a heart valve "re-operation" ...
Ellen Higgs Thank you Adam! I will watch these videos. 🙏
Adam Pick No worries Ellen. If you need anything else, please let me know!
Rose Madura I had a full sternotomy and I didn't have any trouble at all. That was the least of my worries and pa ... Read more
Rose Madura I had a full sternotomy and I didn't have any trouble at all. That was the least of my worries and pain. Most pain was in my shoulders and where the main line was. The hospital gave me what's called a heart hugger and I felt it really helped- more than a pillow would have.
Ellen Higgs Thank you Rose. With the mini split in 2019 we were so surprised that Jim had very little pain/body ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Thank you Rose. With the mini split in 2019 we were so surprised that Jim had very little pain/body discomfort during recovery. It was almost odd to me given all I had read. I’m sure there will be a bit more soreness/pain with the full split. However, he is a general contractor and I’m not sure there isn’t a day that goes by where he isn’t just sore from his occupation alone. I feel his bigger challenge, as I’ve read with other’s here, is the fatigue and his body temperature didn’t regulate as well for a bit, plus with his pericardium opened his heart could be felt beating by those of us who sat next to him - it was unnerving because no one explained this to us. I’m so glad that we have that understanding going in this time.
Rose Madura Yes, at least you know what to expect. Please keep us informed. Ok be praying for you both.
My name is Ellen and I wasn’t sure how this worked for the caregivers of heart valve patients. My husband went through his aortic replacement in 03/2019 ...Read more
My name is Ellen and I wasn’t sure how this worked for the caregivers of heart valve patients. My husband went through his aortic replacement in 03/2019 and we have run into issues with the bovine valve already. We go for follow-up on his CT tomorrow and we’re both pretty uncomfortable. I guess I was just looking for some support. I haven’t updated our profile or story. Just wanted to make sure I was using this platform correctly.
Tom Everson You are using it correctly. Write down your questions ahead of time. Ask if you can record your meeti ... Read more
Tom Everson You are using it correctly. Write down your questions ahead of time. Ask if you can record your meeting. Make list of your symptoms
Ellen Higgs Thank you Tom. Jim doesn’t have any symptoms. This was just his regular annual follow-up. It’s ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Thank you Tom. Jim doesn’t have any symptoms. This was just his regular annual follow-up. It’s been hard to process.
Rose Madura Hi Ellen. I'm sorry to hear this and I can sure understand why you are nervous. What kind of issue ... Read more
Rose Madura Hi Ellen. I'm sorry to hear this and I can sure understand why you are nervous. What kind of issues is he having with the valve?
Ellen Higgs Hello Rose, we are told there is calcium build up on the bovine valve itself. I was not at the follo ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Hello Rose, we are told there is calcium build up on the bovine valve itself. I was not at the follow-up with him, but Jim said they mentioned his heart wall was thickened mildly. I am going with him tomorrow to the CT follow-up and will know more then. I’m just so nervous about what is happening and the whys. He only just had his original surgery a few years ago.
Rose Madura Oh wow. That seems odd. And I can see why you are concerned. Hopefully the CT scan results will sho... Read more
Rose Madura Oh wow. That seems odd. And I can see why you are concerned. Hopefully the CT scan results will show something more positive. Please keep us updated.
Susan Lynn Ellen - Heart surgery is a team effort. Sometimes I think it's actually harder for the caregivers ... Read more
Susan Lynn Ellen - Heart surgery is a team effort. Sometimes I think it's actually harder for the caregivers than the patients. Take it one step at a time and don't let your imagination run away with you. As Tom suggests, write down as many of your questions in advance as you can. I'd be asking - What's the best case scenario? Worst case scenario? How common is this complication? How did it happen? How many of these cases have you successfully treated? What's the urgency to address the condition? Are there other methods to treat it or delay surgery? Is TAVR an option? And, if surgery is indicated, you may want to identify surgeons who specialize in re-repairs. Best of luck to you! Please keep us posted or just check in for a virtual hug when you need one!
Adam Pick Hey Ellen, Welcome to our community! I'm sorry to hear about your husband's tissue valve failing. ... Read more
Adam Pick Hey Ellen, Welcome to our community! I'm sorry to hear about your husband's tissue valve failing. Unfortunately, this is one of the challenges for patients -- there is no perfect heart valve replacement. That said, there is good news. Today, there are many options for re-operations and some of those options are non-invasive, like a valve-in-valve procedure. I think one of the goals, as you gather more information, is for you, your husband and your medical team to think about the lifetime management of his valvular disease. You guys look very young. So, I imagine your conversations with your medical team should elevate a shared decision making process when thinking about the balance of his life. I know that is not easy to do. But, you will get there. Today, I imagine you will get more information from the CT Scan. If you need anything, please let me know. I'm here to help!
Ellen Higgs Susan - thank you so much for all of that. I will update when I get more info.
Ellen Higgs Adam, thank you so very much for your supportive message. I am beyond grateful for everyone who has ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Adam, thank you so very much for your supportive message. I am beyond grateful for everyone who has shared here. I will definitely reach out.
William Trankle I had a porcine valve that lasted less than 5 years--it's pretty specific to the individual's body ch ... Read more
William Trankle I had a porcine valve that lasted less than 5 years--it's pretty specific to the individual's body chemistry as to how long those last. As I'd already had 2 surgeries, I opted for a replacement of the porcine valve with a mechanical (I have the OnX, and it's great). Now it should outlive me! Good luck, and just know that it's going to be okay.
Brady Busch I'm a relative newbie to the heart valve arena,having surgery about six months ago.They replaced the aortic and repaired the mitral. An Edwards Inspiris Resilia was used.It's treated with something to help prevent tissue calcification.Here's a little information. https://www.edwards.com/devices/heart-valves/inspiris-resilia
Brady Busch I'm a relative newbie to the heart valve arena,having surgery about six months ago.They replaced the aortic and repaired the mitral. An Edwards Inspiris Resilia was used.It's treated with something to help prevent tissue calcification.Here's a little information. https://www.edwards.com/devices/heart-valves/inspiris-resilia
*Based on bench data. Refer to device Instructions for Use for important warnings related to VFit technology.These features have not been evaluated in clinical studies to establish the safety and effectiveness of the model 11500A for use in valve-in-valve procedures.
Kendal Zinn I am on my second bovine heart valve. My first one only lasted 18 months. I was frustrated to have to ... Read more
Kendal Zinn I am on my second bovine heart valve. My first one only lasted 18 months. I was frustrated to have to go through a second surgery but this one has been flawless so far! I’ve been told I can replace the Aortic valve as many times as my health allows . I’m only 55 years old so I will probably have to get number three in the future. Any questions just ask. 😊👍
Patrick Schweitzer I just went through a valve in valve TAVR on April 7th. The Trifecta valve failed in 7 years. It was ... Read more
Patrick Schweitzer I just went through a valve in valve TAVR on April 7th. The Trifecta valve failed in 7 years. It was replaced with a Medtronic Evolut that was actually larger than the original valve. Operation was 90 minutes and out in a day. 3 days later back to normal.
Doran Herritt Ellen, Sorry to hear your husbands first valve isn't going so well. I too got the valve Brady mention ... Read more
Doran Herritt Ellen, Sorry to hear your husbands first valve isn't going so well. I too got the valve Brady mentioned above, while it was still in clinical trials in 2015. Pray everyday it keeps going, but you never know. So many things can happen. See Kendall's note above. Anyway, I read about lots of folks needing to get 2nd and even 3rd valves in their lifetime. Just kind of the nature of it with the tissue valves. Its not if, its when. Hoping the tests give a clear picture and you and your husband make it through this (again) in as quick and non complicated fashion as possible. Hang in there. All we can do is keep going! The technology gets better everyday. PS. If you know what specific valve your husband got the first time, id love to hear. Take care. Sending prayers and good thoughts! Drn
Ellen Higgs So to all of you "thank you". I'm so grateful for the outpouring of support and information.
Ellen Higgs So to all of you "thank you". I'm so grateful for the outpouring of support and information.
Brady, Jim has the Edwards Inspiris Valve now. They can't explain the plaque buildup on it, but that is the least of our worries. As an update to all, the CT shows that Jim's Aorta is dilated. Not a good thing and we wish this had been the case when he went for his surgery in 2019, it could have all been taken care of then. Instead, life has thrown a curve ball. So, we are looking at another open heart surgery and this time around it can't be minimally invasive. They will go in and replace the Aorta and give Jim a new aortic valve at that time. He is very upset by the news. I personally feel like this is all deja vu. It was just 3 years ago we had his initial surgery. He did not have a good experience with the heart/lung machine or the trach tube so he has a bit of PTSD. He also does not do well on medications. I am encouraging him to come out and talk about it. I'm beyond grateful to have a wonderful heart team looking after him.
We will be hearing from a surgeon who specializes in this type of surgery. HIs reviews are outstanding and is here in Sacramento, CA. So Jim will be in good hands from what I can tell. The surgery will depend on the surgeon's review of his chart - most specially the CT results. This gives the measurement of Jim's aorta presently. Right now they are estimating his surgery date to be anywhere from 4 weeks out to possibly 6 months - again, it will depend on the surgeon’s evaluation.
William, Patrick, Doran, Kendal - thank you for sharing your stories. I find that, at least for Jim, he feels he’s the only one this is happening to. I know that’s not the truth because of this forum. I will continue to post information as we move forward.
Thank you again - everyone!
Carter Mackiewicz Ellen, I’m very sorry that your husband will have to go through open heart surgery again. In Octobe ... Read more
Carter Mackiewicz Ellen, I’m very sorry that your husband will have to go through open heart surgery again. In October, I had the operation that your husband will have. I had a 5.3 cm aneurysm and a bicuspid aortic valve. So, they replaced both with the “Bentall Procedure “. They also used an Edwards bovine valve. So far, so good. I hope this will be your husband’s last procedure for a long time. Best of luck
Ellen Higgs Carter!…thank you so much for your share. I'm glad to hear things are going well for you and I ap... Read more
Ellen Higgs Carter!…thank you so much for your share. I'm glad to hear things are going well for you and I appreciate the name of the procedure - I will look that up. It must be nice to have 7 months under your belt on the recovery. My husband is not looking forward to the procedure, but I'm so very grateful this has a solution .
Brady Busch That's interesting.Is it plaque or calcium buildup?I read earlier,that Jim was at one time,on blood thinners,because of afib.Maybe a Watchman procedure could be talked about,with the doctors,if there is going to be a sternotomy done,that will probably be the best time to include it. It's one of the things,my surgeon brought up during our first talk,but didn't happen,which still has me a little puzzled and somewhat disappointed.I also had a pacemaker installed and there were 44 episodes of afib for about the first month after surgery and then they stopped,but I'm still taking Warfarin.I may also push to get the Watchman,which can be done by a catheter. The main thing for me,post surgery,was the exhaustion.It took a lot of will power,just to stand up for the first few times.But it did and does get better.There was also the afib going on sometimes,to which they gave me Metoprolol,which helped and I take it daily.
Brady Busch That's interesting.Is it plaque or calcium buildup?I read earlier,that Jim was at one time,on blood thinners,because of afib.Maybe a Watchman procedure could be talked about,with the doctors,if there is going to be a sternotomy done,that will probably be the best time to include it. It's one of the things,my surgeon brought up during our first talk,but didn't happen,which still has me a little puzzled and somewhat disappointed.I also had a pacemaker installed and there were 44 episodes of afib for about the first month after surgery and then they stopped,but I'm still taking Warfarin.I may also push to get the Watchman,which can be done by a catheter. The main thing for me,post surgery,was the exhaustion.It took a lot of will power,just to stand up for the first few times.But it did and does get better.There was also the afib going on sometimes,to which they gave me Metoprolol,which helped and I take it daily.
Ellen Higgs Hello Brady - I just saw your post. Thank you for sharing. I find it a bit hard at times to follow ... Read more
Ellen Higgs Hello Brady - I just saw your post. Thank you for sharing. I find it a bit hard at times to follow the postings and miss things. I will provide an update on what our new surgeon said in our journal. So you can take a look there at what they will be doing as it will not just be a valve change this time. Jim has a terrible time taking medications. He always seem to get side effects. So he had been on Metoprolol when discharged from the hospital, but they removed him from it within a couple of weeks. He just couldn’t tolerate it. They also removed him from the beta blocker - I believe it was that one that gave him nightmares. Jim only had one Afib event and that was a full year after his surgery. We feel it was induced due to some caffeine (Jim doesn’t drink caffeine, never has) he had and the level of stress he was under at the time. There is a lot that went on for us after the first surgery. I’m really hoping that we can go into this one in a better mental state and that Jim will do better. He had a rough time with the side effects from the bypass machine too and remembers the intubation tube so he’s feeling a bit scared and uncomfortable having to go through it all again so soon.
Anyway, after several weeks of back and forth by my daughter and I, Jim was eventually released to come home. Things have been fairly smooth. His ulcers were treated and have resolved. We just receive lab work back that confirmed his anemia is all resolved as well. He did have to go through blood transfusions initially (total of 4) and we are very grateful for blood donors and the fact we got through all of that. The doctor’s, our surgeon, the hospital staff, were all on it and took great care of Jim.
Currently Jim is fighting off a cold which is no fun. Post surgery he had a cough that was caused by the EGD. It hung around until January and finally resolved only to have a cough from this cold bug. At least he isn’t dealing with the healing of his chest this time. He is on Metoprolol and aspirin. He has had a couple of odd heart beats here and there, but so far so good. He goes in for a 5 month check on 2/14/23…gotta love that it’s on Valentines Day.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to even believe we made it through a second surgery. Time seems so surreal…I continue to pray for his confidence to build in this surgery outcome. Since his first one failed, it makes it challenging to feel the confidence that all is good…that this valve will last.
I remind myself every day - one step at a time.
I am asking God to please help the two of you, and give you strength, and courage.
Every one of these hurdles is a step forward, not backward. They are steps forward to a recovery. Every one is needed to get there. Jim will get to the ability he needs to be at.
When You feel like you can't lift another problem, don't worry, God will lift it for you! Right into the place it needs to be! It will all be OK.
Greg