10 weeks post-op, and life couldn't be and it couldn't feel better
Journal posted on April 6, 2015
I would like to share this quote with everyone that will go into surgery, and with those who have undergone surgery. It is also for your family and friends:
“If you put yourself in a situation of unpredictability and then find that it's completely possible to accept it, then you become an observer.” – David Tudor
And to state the obvious, things are easier when you're the observer because you're not involved; you really don't have to do anything because in reality we've all done everything that we can do. So what else can we do?
I found the quote yesterday while doing my guided meditation. But instinctively that's what I did before and after my surgery and it helped me, and I hope and wish that it will help you too.
This is me, three weeks after surgery, with Dulce.
She is just a wonderful person that has helped me and supported me throughout all this.
Home, at last!
Journal posted on March 31, 2015
I´m 37 years old from Mexico City, Mexico, and I had aortic valve replacement, due to aortic stenosis, on March 13th, and just today I got back from the hospital.
But now that I´m home I feel overwhelmed by the fact that there are certain things I can no longer eat, and of the things that I can eat it has got to be very moderate. Not to mention the fact that I will have to wait, probably several months, until I can exercise again. And even though I am fully aware that many of these things are for the time being, I feel... somewhat lost.
I was aware before going into surgery that I would have to change certain things, but I didn't fully realized that until today when, at the hospital, the doctors and nurses gave me all the information. It hit me like a rainfall of boulders.
And now that the surgery is done and that my life will continue... I've got no more strength. I kept the chin up and the spirits high when I was diagnosed last December and while I was at the hospital. But I can't do it no more. I am aware that (hopefully) with time I will regain my strength, but in the meantime I don't know what to do.
I feel emotionally weak, physically I know I'm weak at the moment. And I don't know what to do. Never in my life had I felt like this. Never.