Fred's Posts

Hey everyone it's been 9 days since I last posted which was my best day. The following days were a challenge. I stayed in the hospital for 6 days with the last 4 being hard. My stomach was in discomfort on and off causing nausea and loss of appetite. After more testing, X-rays, scans, I was cleared to go home. I became exhausted, I was placed on a no sugar, low sodium, low carb diet. The surgery effected my blood sugar levels to dietetic levels. I'm on a pill and once my body heals this part should return to normal. It's been hard. Some days better then others. Today as of 6am feels like it's going to be a good day. The worst days were the first 3 days at home. Oh my god was I in stomach pain, aches, weak, my parents did not really get any sleep those 3 nights as I needed help out of bed, all night....many times I needed them to sit me up and just massage my aching back. I had swelling in my foot, leg area on both legs so they helped with massaging that area. The home care nurse has checked my inr levels /vitals everything is in normal range. I ended up going to my parents house after the hospital and I'm so glad I did. Support is everything, and now that I am in recovery, it's the only thing that matters. My family has very much stepped up, my challenged wife is probably upset that I went to my parents house. But because I knew she was going on a 4 day weekend trip with friends which I expressed was wrong and shows lack of concern for me. A real wife would have cancelled. She got back home early Sunday and I have not heard from her since Saturday night. She has so much pride that she can't inconvenience herself to drive and help me, my mom and dad. While i spent the most grueling first 3 days of my life at home with my family, she was away on a trip having fun. What kind of love is that ....it's not. But I am at peace. The only pain I feel is the body aches. The unconditional love I receive from my mom and dad who are 70 is just unmatched. I feel it. Not the contemptuous and withheld love the wife offers and I refuse. I pray to god that he gives me the focus and strength to heal. It's not easy at all but I do see the light. I'm walking, Swelling is gone, appetite is back, I'm eating good food now....I honestly have it good. Thank you all for your support. I will get back to you and the questions.