Windy's Journal

So my husband's surgery was rescheduled for 4/29. We where both pretty upset about that. However it's over and done with and now he is on the recovering side of this journey :) His doctor started the operation at 8:32 am and finished up at 1:37 pm. We had to wait 2 hours to see him, his blood pressure had gone pretty high so they gave him extra meds, that kept him sedated longer it was so scary waiting for him to wake up off the vent, because it took so long. We are hoping to be released today, he is and has been up walking around for days now. He had to be put on blood thinner for the next 2-3 months so Dr. Sampath wants to make sure his numbers are therapeutic before he releases him. ( they are ) so hopefully today! We miss out kiddos! Words cannot express how thankful I am for my husband's surgeon and his staff nor can they express how proud I am of my husband ♡

For the last month my husband has been the nervous one, by all rights he deserves to be I'm just on the sidelines of this journey cheering him on. I've been nervous as well but I hide it better, I read other patient stories, research for more information about his surgery, and try to give him and our boys positive information to hang onto. Today though as my 8 year old sleeps on my lap, the older boys are playing and my husband is napping in the recliner (the recliner we only needed because of this surgery) I feel like I'm ready to have a melt down. All the positive information I have given them isn't sticking with me today. Today I am scared, worried and maybe even a little angry. Not at him of course but angry for him. If that even makes since. This is so not like me. Maybe this has come about because surgery is Wednesday and today I've been packing his hospital bag, and my children's bags for their stay with grandma. I have ever been away from our boys for longer then 2 nights. And his surgeon said to expect to be in the hospital 5-7 days. I know that he will feel better after his surgery (he doesn't feel horrible now just tired a lot) I know that he will have a better quality of life afterwards, I just hate that he has to go through this. My heart hurts for him. I need him to be ok, I pray that his recovery goes smoothly with no problems.

For the last month my husband has been the nervous one, by all rights he deserves to be I'm just on the sidelines of this journey cheering him on. I've been nervous as well but I hide it better, I read other patient stories, research for more information about his surgery, and try to give him and our boys positive information to hang onto. Today though as my 8 year old sleeps on my lap, the older boys are playing and my husband is napping in the recliner (the recliner we only needed because of this surgery) I feel like I'm ready to have a melt down. All the positive information I have given them isn't sticking with me today. Today I am scared, worried and maybe even a little angry. Not at him of course but angry for him. If that even makes since. This is so not like me. Maybe this has come about because surgery is Wednesday and today I've been packing his hospital bag, and my children's bags for their stay with grandma. I have ever been away from our boys for longer then 2 nights. And his surgeon said to expect to be in the hospital 5-7 days. I know that he will feel better after his surgery (he doesn't feel horrible now just tired a lot) I know that he will have a better quality of life afterwards, I just hate that he has to go through this. My heart hurts for him. I need him to be ok, I pray that his recovery goes smoothly with no problems.