i was on this web site along time ago when i had my surgery 2005. I was to crazy then trying to find myself and maybe saying why me. Now after all these years, pushing my buttons to get back to my life as it was. Still to this day i have problems but push on. I see many people here that are nervious a littel scared. I now i can help you and maybe even make you laugh. I sure hope so.
Good morning everyone. I really love this site and if you read my story i have been to hell & back with my 2005 heart operation. I know we have are own beliefs. I am a roman chatholic church person.
This time i want everyone one to listen. My blogs hear are truthful, sometimes funny. What is going to get you through your surgery is You, if the man upstairs want you he is going to take you. If he doesn't he will leave you here for bigger and better things.
Don't worry he is above you watching over you threw all this, not a problem. But if you are depending on him to get you through that shows that you are not strong enough. Here is a reminder of one thing i said and did the day before my surgery.
( I went to my dads grave site. Sat there put my hand over his foot stone, looked up at the sky and said: Dad i will either see you tomorrow or not, wish me luck.) well as you can see i am still hear so it is not my time. Maybe writing this and helping people is why i am still here. When you are all done with your surgery and you see the people you love around you. Then thank the man upstairs. Or you my be greeting the man downstairs. Either one just say Hi. (that last part was a joke ). Good luck Everyone.
P.S If you wake up from your surgery i would buy a lottery ticket no questions asked. If that isn't luck then i don't know what is. Don't worry you will make it thru.
Mark Sherwinsky I would like to thank you all for the response. I want everyone to look up what pump head means after surgery. (google it). Also did everyone look up Bills Clinton Madness? I got alot wiser after my surgery. I am not afraid to see the man upstairs. I am a chatholic but, i have done so much research that i reaaly don't need the man upstairs now. i am not afraid if i see him tomorrow or in 20yrs. I am going to change my profile pic. i ski, i lift wieghts, & i am a leader not a follower. I want to give everyone near information so that maybe it will help.
My surgery lasted 9hrs. i develope carpatunal syndrome in my right hand that night. Rushed to surgery again or i would have lost my hand. at that time i had 6 incesions left open in my ahnd to relief the pressure . they also damaged my thoratic outlet in my right clevical . that is where they put the heart lung machine thru. i developed nerve damage in now left arm, right shoulder. so basicly i consider me a tough person that will not give up. so if i can help anyone out here with how i deal with this. i guess day by day. it's been 12yrs. now. there are days especially when i forget stuff with my kids that i wounder if it was worth all this. i have believe it or not, cheated death 5 times now. my wife say's i am like a cat.
the scare is going down the middle of my chest if you look close. plus in my left clavical in picture. it is also collapsed. i am like a old house with new siding on it. it looks good from the ouside. definitly damaged inside. picture probally taken summe
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December 24, 2014
I would like everyone to google in this: Bill Clinton's Madness.
He has everything i have. i really tried to contact him but you know what the chances of that are.
I am 57 yrs. old. surgery in 2005. I am still screwed up and probally will be for the rest of my life. Now after all these years i say to myself, was it really worth it. i keep alot of things to myself even thou my family doesn't think so. as i am writing this i can't stop the tears.
i am such a strong minded man, a strong person, a leader. now i feel like a loser, i can't control my life, memories that are so precious gone.
i have used spell check 3 times with this little story.
if anyone wants to talk & respond please do, as i have know one out here that i can relate to .