Lisette's Posts

I'm back over here, life (thankfully) seems like a whirlwind so much of the time, but that is good, because while I haven't felt I had the time to write on here, that means I've been out LIVING!!! Back to my story - January 10, 2018 - TEE day. We decide to take my two younger kids (8 and 10 at the time) with us, as they were homeschooled at the time, and they are very accustomed to waiting politely while I go to appointments, etc. Any other "young" patients get a million comments about being "too young to need these tests"? Yeah, me too. Let's just get this over with. Well... Right after my test, the what must have been very young cardiologist walked right into the waiting room, and started peppering my husband with questions: "Does she get dizzy? Has she had sudden weight loss? Tired?" They had discovered severe mitral regurgitation, as in 60% leakage. "She is going to need open heart surgery, she'll need her valve replaced, etc." RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY KIDS. Oye. My husband consoled them, and came right to me in recovery, asking if I had heard the news. I had, and honestly, I was ticked! I might have said, "This is stupid! I don't have time for this!" Not my most mature moment, but the shock...that feeling is hard to describe. I was just checking the box, taking care of this little thing we had to keep an eye on. I spent the rest of the evening resting and having a pity party. So many questions. So much to process. That's what I remember about that day most wondering so many things and having to wait to speak to more doctors for the next steps. It ended up being 12 days of waiting to get my next test, an angiogram to check the blood flow. It was a long 12 days of trying to rest, realizing that I was indeed having symptoms (I'm 6'2", so I never thought much of how often I would get dizzy when standing up too quickly...), thinking too much, and praying. Music really helped me maintain some peace, and I will share some of my favorites from each stage. This was one for that time, when the waiting is SO HARD. https://youtu.be/r49V9QcYheQ