Kirk's Journal

Dan Baltazor  Praying you can find some Peace between now and then. We understand exactly how you feel. So much to process. -Stephanie

Marie Myers  Yup. I felt like that too. Just have to trust the docs, the science, and accept what has to be. You will be through it soon... Wishing you all the best!

Rob Sparling  Kirk, what you feel is normal. The lead up is scary, the time travel is effortless (for you) and the waiting/wondering is a heavy burden on spouses! You got it right. But, it is the best alternative and it is the way to reclaim the lifestyle you deserve and want. We’ll be praying for you and your family and will be looking forward to a post here that you are thumbs up! You can do this! ❤️💪

(And don’t forget to keep in mind what gift we are all given by these talented surgeons and the teams! Focus on waking up, dude. It is a key element!)

Valerie Altman  You're leading the way for me next week!! I know exactly how you feel I'm having a panic attack every other minute I feel like I'm hyperventilating but I'm also sick of feeling sick. Prayers your way

Jennifer McInerney  Guys, having just gone through this I can confirm the same fears. The worry for my family was difficult to cope with but the joy when I woke up fixed was priceless. It’s tough but so worth it when you consider the alternatives. You can do this!!!

Dan Vechiola  You got this Kirk! You are feeling very normal feelings. It is hard thinking about our loved ones and the anguish they will experience while we are in surgery. However, when they get the good news following your surgery they will be ecstatic. This is your chance to reclaim your life expectancy . I felt the same way as you because I was asymptomatic and felt good. After surgery I now can say for the first time in my life that I have a healthy heart without a murmur. The peace of mind you will attain is worth so much for you and your family. Visualize a successful surgery and think positive because this is going to happen so fast you won't believe it. Keep us posted on your progress.

Rob Sparling  Kirk, you joined thes site just a short time ago. Each of the people posting above have undergone a transformation during the preparation process.. You just haven’t seen it unfold. Read our journals and posts.

Get fired up to stare this thing down. Look it right in the eye. It is not bigger than you, you are bigger than it. And don’t underestimate the toughness of your loved ones!

There are some meditation and relaxation apps out there — I used one three times and found it helpful — and you can “dial in”. One of Dan V.’s best pieces of advice is to distract yourself. Think: “It isn’t OHS, it is a healthy new chapter.” What happens between now and then is a technicality! Those are merely details! ❤️💪

Louanna Miller  You will do great. One step at a time. You have madevotvthrough everything up to this point. This is just the next step in the journey. You will wake up in ICU and hear your loved ones voices. That was so awesome for me. I wasn’t awake, but could hear them. I will pray for your peace and comfort. Take it one day at a time.

  I am sure your wife is ready and willing to support you and you her in any way you each can. I snuck a few comfort items in the bag my husband was holding to occuppy his mine while surgery was being done. A new book to read, crossword puzzles, and some of his special treats for snack. Will be keeping you and your wife in my prayers.

Susan Lynn  Kirk - you're going to do just great! I was also worried about the same things. I said good bye to my family before I went into pre-op, so there was no drama before going into the OR. I was only awake for about 5 seconds after they administered the anesthesia and I wasn't confused at all when I woke up. Don't worry about it - you will feel like you were asleep for one minute and it'll be over. All the best! We'll be here waiting for you!