I am so confused right now. I am 60 and have been experiencing shortness of breath for nine months. I am an insulin dependent diabetic with high blood pressure and very overweight. I have a congenital heart defect called dextrocardia. Recently after a heart cath I was told I have to have an Aortic valve replacement and bypass on a 100% blockage. Many of the posts that I have read are very positive and uplifting however I am not there right now. My surgery should have already been done but my daughter is getting married in a month and the surgeon was concerned l would not be ready to travel at that time so I made the decision to have it done when I get back. The date is not set yet but I expect it will be mid November. I do not feel brave, strong, or even determined. I actually feel the opposite. I am mad at myself for not taking better care of my health and now I'm facing this surgery. Instead of having my diabetes under control and my weight where it should be and physically active I am again the opposite of these things. How did I let myself become like this? Are there any others that had open heart who had similar health issues? I would be very interested in how your surgery and recovery went. Thank you!