Hello all.
I had double bypass in March this year. I am 49, and I started going to college in September. My depression is a major problem. I have difficulty ...Read more
Hello all.
I had double bypass in March this year. I am 49, and I started going to college in September. My depression is a major problem. I have difficulty remembering how to do math problems, I'm doing them over and over and over, and at test time, my mind goes blank. I am going to tutoring every day.
I get glimpses of what I was like before the surgery, and I can't understand what the hell is wrong with me. I know it is depression, and I'm taking new meds, and I'm going to therapy, but my therapist is not working out.
Because of my personality change, my girlfriend who has been through all of this with me and supports me in every way possible is suffering because of my behavior. Her patience is running out, and so is mine. She tells me that I am a different person. I feel like a different person.
I am rambling because I have so much to say, but no time to organize and say it. I have to get back to struggling with my homework.
I appreciate all that I have read here, and I feel like I am not alone. I hope that my scattered post isn't confusing. I will contribute more as time will allow me.
Thank you all so much.
Sean
Jackie Owens I'm 2 months post double heart valve replacement and I've had the same issue. I talked to my cardiol ... Read more
Jackie Owens I'm 2 months post double heart valve replacement and I've had the same issue. I talked to my cardiologist about it and was told it's a version of PTSD. I thought going back to work might help, but like you said, remember things are an effort (and I work in a ER in patient care)....so I can't be off my game! I hope when I am 100% healed I will turn this funk I'm in around. My husband is always asking what's wrong and I don't have an answer.... I just can't explain it! Good luck to you !
Sean Kupisz Hi Jackie. Thank you for your message. I hope things will get easier for you. PTSD makes sense. Our b ... Read more
Sean Kupisz Hi Jackie. Thank you for your message. I hope things will get easier for you. PTSD makes sense. Our bodies have been through a traumatic experience, as well as our minds. I thought I was starting to feel better, but getting used to the funk is probably the reality. Getting used to feeling different. The glimpses of what I felt like before the surgery make me ache inside. I can't wait to feel that way again. I wish the same for you.
Jim Kelly-Evans Sean, I'm eight months out from AVR and still feeling the mental/emotional effects also. One thing I' ... Read more
Jim Kelly-Evans Sean, I'm eight months out from AVR and still feeling the mental/emotional effects also. One thing I'm trying lately is just not allowing myself to think about anything that bothers me or makes me sad. instead i try to focus on pleasant things in my life. I wish you well and hope you can get past the depression.
Sean Kupisz Thank you so much, Jim. I wish it were that simple. I am not feeling in control of my emotions or moo ... Read more
Sean Kupisz Thank you so much, Jim. I wish it were that simple. I am not feeling in control of my emotions or moods, which seem to be triggered randomly. I can be feeling fine one minute, and I'll look at a flower and start crying. Or, my significant other will say something and I will take it out of context and have a temper tantrum like a three-year-old.
I am so grateful for the wonderful people and situations in my life, I am recovering, yet I am disconnected. Patience for myself is wearing thin.
I am from: New York, New York
I am so grateful for the wonderful people and situations in my life, I am recovering, yet I am disconnected. Patience for myself is wearing thin.