6 weeks after.... I was very interested on scars after OHS during my research period.... here is mine in case you are wondering..... Not as bad as I was expecting.... my Amazing surgeon Dr. laks did the smallest incision possible!!! I am 95% recovered at
Journal posted on September 19, 2016
Today a very good friend passed away. He was 59 and healthy, but he had a sudden Heart attack and died.
Yesterday I went to church for the first tine after my OHS 3 1/2 weeks ago. He was so welcoming!!! We chatted and laughed..... he was so exited to see me doing so well in such little time.... and now he is not here anymore.
That got me thinking..... we , all of us here, we are so blessed!!!! We have tge opportunity to change our destinys by doing a procedure that will potentially be the fine line between life and death!
For those of us that have been through it..... praise the Lord for it!!! And those that have not done it or are afraid of doing it...... embrace the opportunity to take the reigns of your own destiny just for once, belive God is giving you a gift, the opportunity to be healthy again.... be courageous!
Today Is my 1 week mark!!! Horray!!!
I came home on my 4th day post op..... And I am so glad my recovery has been uneventful.
Sometimes I still can't believe It had come and gone. Recovery is not a walk in the park, I woke up from surgery with a lot of paun on my back and shoulders, and that is still a battle I am fighting.
Sleeping hasn't being easy, and having to sleep on my back hasn't helped my case.
I am down all the water weight from surgery +13 pnds.... My appetite has ups and downs.
I am so thankful to my mom and sister for taking their time to be here caring for me and my girls... To all of you going into this, God bless you, know that many of us went through this and you are not alone....ask questions, prepare yourself in all ways that make you confortable enough.
Thank you all for the support.
Surgery was a success yesterday. My aortic valve murmur and double ventricle was repaired.
Today was my first day and allmy chest tubes were removed.
I don't feelmuch pain on my chest. But my upper beck is killing me. Thans for al prayers.😘
It is 5 am. I am leaving my house where my to beautiful daughters are still in bed.
Today I 'll have my OHS. Not panicking yet but I am sure I 'll get there.
Thanks for all your support, all your prayers, all wirds of encouragement and happy toughts.
See you all on the other side.😘
I just saw that I am the next one!!!! That just freaked me out so much..... I don't know if I will have the strength to go through with this.... Oh God ... Help me!!!
I am so scared of the pain that awaits me on the other side of this....
Today I called my surgeons Office to confirm with them that he has received some of my preop tests.
The secretary very calmly said that they hadn't, and by the way, my surgery was going to be rescheduled for after the 25th, but she had no date yet!!!!
I don't have any family in the country..... My mom is flying in on monday ( my date was the 17th) , she was coming so close to my date so she could help me the longest after my surgery. She is only staying for 6 weeks ( time I need to heal my bone and be able to drive).I have 2 small children, and now my mom is going to be here and I will have to wait God knows how long!!!!
I am so frustrated, sad, anxious and felling so disrespected!!!
I understand things happen, but " with power cones great responsibility ". This Dr. has my life in his hands and I explained the situation to him... He told me it would be ok... To schedule it all... And know this!!!!
10 days!!!! Its coming faster and I am hoping to be prepared as possible!!!
Is it bad that I want to stay away from people???
Its like I am in the middle of a hurricane, and they are all sunbathing , waiving to me from the beach !
I have no patience for anyone this days .... Anyone else???
Good morning heart friends!!!! Hope you all have a blessed day!!!
Journal posted on July 27, 2016
So much support here, majes me feel happy!!! I keep you guys on my prayers, those of you recoverying keep up, you fought the battle, you eon!!! And for all of us, gearing up to fight ours... May God have mercy on us, give us strength and peace!!! Good night to you all....
Time is dawning on me.... I thought in weeks.... Now in days.......
The rolercoaster of emotions are incredible. I am at a point where I am tired of hearing everything will be fine, you have to relax..... I know that!!! But it doesn't make me any less anxious, any less scared.
Anyway, I just got a list of vitamins and things to do days and hours before the surgery...... Let me tell you... Argh!!!!
No soap. Special soap for 3 days prior.... Magnesium citrate.... Fleet enema!!!! What the hell!!! Isn't enough to cut me open like a chicken.... And I still have to be clean inside out?!?
This group has been a blessing!!! There is no support from family and friend that equal the support we get from those that are going through the same as us!
I thrust the team I choose... My brain knows that once is over life will be better..... But my heart (not the physical one) can is filled with fear! I fear the pain, I fear having my body open , violated ..... I fear been incapable of caring for myself and my family...... But inside my are my fears and mine alone.....
That scar will be on my body forever.... How will I fell about that??? ......and what if.... So many ifs!!!