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Journal posted on March 9, 2011
Hi guys. I wanted to remind you all that are subscribing to my journal and therefore writing in my journal, you need to sign your name at the end of what you are writing because I can't see your email addresses etc so I don't know who is writing in my journal to respond to your questions personally or publically in this journal. So then I find myself emailing the people I think might have asked the question asking them if they wrote the question which takes more time than if I just wrote emails to ya all. Wow, so whomever is asking the question dated 9 March, who are you? thanx Lori
Hopefully I won't go into a funk and cancel this appointment. I need to keep this. I can't continue to cancel appointments especially a cardiologist. How come I can know and say the right thing but can't do it when it comes time to act. Luckily I have a job to do so I can't go on a road trip. Although I've thought about a trip a couple of times. I'm also keeping busy working on a kitchen remodel. That might keep me out of trouble.
Permission granted to hold off on the endocronologist as long as I get my butt in to see the cardiologist in the next two weeks. Getting my butt in first gear now. Put the request in for the appointment. They'll get back to me with a date probably tomorrow. Sigh. More later, thanx
Frustration and my attitude will need adjusting again
Journal posted on February 19, 2011
Well the doc I've been seeing for my thyroid has passed me off to a specialist. I feel like the time spent with this doc has been a waste of time. And my thyroid has never bothered me period. Leave it alone and deal with the real problem...my heart. At least I talked with my nurse at my cardiologist who understands my frustrations and gives encouraging words...kind of!
I kept my ultrasound appointment and have been in touch with my cardiologist contact. A step in the right direction, but it's hard. It was much nicer being on the road and in the snow. But since I'm home and there is no snow my attitude is slipping. But I'm lucky that I can read, love to read, and have many books to choose from to to read and I can retreat into a good story. That helps! Hopefully more progress this week. More later. Thanx
Well this is a good road trip. My attitude toward upcoming heart treatments is improving! I'm still in Caldwell ID with friends. We were out and about in the town and heard a gal talking about her husband who had just had a heart valve replaced. We introduced ourselves and chatted awhile. She worked in the medical industry and gave a good piece of advice which I will adhere to. She said get myself approved on the heart transplant list now, that doesn't mean I have to go through with it. But if I should change my mind and decide to do the heart transplant, I'm already on the list. Made sense! Alright another foot in the right direction. Keep going Lori
But my attitude is still unadjusted. I'd blown off the cardiologist appt for an ekg and some other heart test, the thyroid doc appt, the ultrasound appt and INR test. I did call and cancel them not just not show up. I decided a road trip was in order and so Boo and I have been in Lewiston ID a few days, heading to Caldwell ID in a few days to stay with my friend Karen for a week then off to Sister OR to stay with my friend Lisa for a week. My thinking is changing for the better. The drive in the snow covered scenery did me good. I called an set up my appt for the ultrasound the day after I return to WA. It's a start!
Ok, I said I'd behave until the end of the year and do everything the docs told me to do, take all the drugs I'm supposed to. That was a hard thing for me to do. I detest drugs, I hate doc visits day in and day out, but for the most part I did what I was supposed to until the last week of Dec. Then I took a break from the doc visits and readjusted my attitude with the intention of starting back up in Jan