I've had this heart valve in me for 12 years plus now, and have written about everything but...
Many times I wish I would have kept journals of my experiences with the medical community, and perhaps that is the peripheral reason why I joined this journal.
The truth is that there are things that I want to explore, and as I said in my "Story", I am considered "palliative" treatment only according to my physicians; no curative treatment. Yet I am now confronted with a cancer that may be one hundred percent curable. How will I be treated, and how will my treatment be, considering the fact that I already have an artificial heart valve.
What is such a big deal? Claim: The medical community treats differently those who have incurable or intractable ailments. The fact that I already have received so much medical care, and that they are spending so much time and energy and money on me, with a heart valve that is already on borrowed time, and therefore, I am on borrowed time.
Remember the fact in this always that no cardiologist will agree to replace the damaged valve, citing that I would not survive the surgery.
Frankly, I tend to agree that should I attempt another heart valve surgery, and should I survive such surgery, any life I have left would be of very poor quality and not worth living.
And screw everyone who says that to live is the greatest gift, and it doesn't matter how, just live...well, I can only say to come and life in my skin for 10 or 20 years. You probably couldn't make one week.