Hailey's Journal

I started a blog a few months ago, and it shares my story of my health issues, mental issues, recovery, and just random thoughts or feelings that i have. heres the link: haileykarin.wordpress.com

I had gotten sick beginning of march 2016, started with shortness of breath, then slowly started progressing, mind you at this time i was smoking meth (never injected) ... My symptoms from march up until i was admitted into the hospital in july 2016 was as followed but not in that exact order: fever up and down, hypothermic levels, shivering, severe hot and cold flashes, headaches, body spasms, pass out spells, tachycardia, intense intermittent chest pain, also dull, intermittent chest pain, heaviness in my chest, like i i drank gallons of water, enlarged spleen pushing my ribs out (it looked like my body was literally turning around), my left side of my body literally sank into the bone, you could just see the outline of my bone, nasty dull and severe left calf cramping sometimes not so bad and other times excruciating charlie horse pain to where i couldnt stand, severe and noticable leg swelling (was in one and both legs) redness of skin on my left side, weird bubbles in random muscles spots (it looked like a huge bulge coming from my muscles at random times) when they disappeared there was like a fluid build up afterwards. I had mottling skin (starting to happen again) I had nasty numbness in my arm and leg (left side), dizzy spells, i lost a TON of weight, barely ate, sweating was on and off, extreme fatigue, nausea, and a few more issues that i cant remember at this given moment... Well i was going to the doctors on and off for months, doctors and the er. The doctors kept telling me it was all in my head, but i knew there was something wrong.... Id hit the floor continuously... I have had anxiety and depression for years so that didnt really help at all... I ended up getting MRSA with nasty lesions all over my body, and i picked at them (ive been picking my skin since i was a child, its called excoriation disorder) so that made it worse, I was on 5 different medications, lotions, and bodywashes and nothing helped... I went to the walk ins with a sore swollen throat (had my tonsils and adnoids taken out when i was 6) They told me it tested negative for strep, well they were wrong. I went to the er i believe within 3 days after that... I had pustules coming out of my skin, nasty ones, i have pictures to prove that... They tested positive for MRSA. Strep A and staph (yeah i know they are basically one in the same, but thats what the doctor had said) So i was admitted quite quickly... The doctors started doing tests and really didnt find anything until they did an echo and a CT scan WITH contrast... They found i had endocarditis, 2 infected vales, 2 calcified valves, a septic nodule with septi satellite nodules in my liver, and a septic pulmonary embolism in my left lung with septic satellite nodules. The bascteria started eating my spine. Messed up my hypothalamus, and almost killed me... I also had systemic invassive Strep A. Stayed a week in the hospital and was put on a PICC line for a month on heavy duty antibiotics... I was healthy for months after that... It has been a full year since my PICC line, and i am started to become sick again, i can feel and see it happening all over again... I had subacute bacterial endocarditis... I knew there was something wrong and the doctors didnt want to listen. I know there is something wrong now, im just scared its the same thing all over again (minus the drug use)... Since having the endocarditis i have had 3 strokes, started having nasty seizures, and ive had a heart attack... I am 24 years old. I cannot stand for more than a maximum of 10 minutes at a times because my heart cannot take it, i still have pass out spells randomly, a hard time breathing, nasty chest pain, heart palpitations, and im fighting disability, not because i want to but unfortunately because i HAVE too... If you feel there is something wrong, then do not hesistate to go to the doctors regardless of what they think... I was told that if i had not gone to the hospital when i did with the pustules, i would have died within MAYBE a week or less... So please, you know your body better than anyone else, if you know or feel there is something wrong, whether they find something or not please go to the doctors! for months the doctors told me they couldnt find anything and that this was all in my head until i was almost dead in their patient room. Do not ever let someone tell you its all in your head... because mine wasnt, mine was real, even after the months of someone telling me it was all in my head... I have been behind in bills for a long time, lost my job, and have been extremely depressed... It feels like its starting to happen again.... I did create a gofundme page for help with bills, but no such luck. And its okay because im still here fighting... I havent given up yet, and dont plant to anytime soon... https://www.gofundme.com/2pkj5xgc This is my gofund me page, there may be more information about what happened in there... But after everything that has happened and with the seizures and passout spells my memory is becoming extremely bad...