Well, I woke up this Saturday morning in fairly good spirits. I had last week off to begin to prepare for my surgery (valve sparing aortic root replacement) to occur this coming Thursday July 10th. I've been spending time with family and friends and getting some last minute things in order. Time with loved one's is an incredible blessing. Also doing several things to care for myself: extra sleep, a massage, visit with my minister, messaging friends about visiting me during recovery.
With all of this, I still have a deep down fear. Hard to describe. Actually, hard to believe that I'm going though all of this at the age of 52. I do trust my doctor (Ikonomidis) and his team. Probably fear of a big procedure and the recovery (it won't all be a bed of roses). Also, probably some fear of,the unknown, a bad outcome (even though unlikely), and the future (for my health and family).
Please forgive my ramble, simply where my mind is at as I approach surgery. Any words of wisdom or encouragement would be highly appreciated.