Tomorrow is the meeting with the Surgeon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Journal posted on January 9, 2011
Okay, please let me make one thing clear I wrote in my last journal blog as the topic open heart surgery twice in one life time. I would just like to say that if it offended anyone that was not my intention I simply as you all I'm sure had a moment of weakness. for that I apologize. I realize some of you had it three or four or maybe even many more times then that. You are all my hereos no matter how many times you or we all have had it done. I know what it is like to be sick and for the most part I had open heart surgery as a baby so I don't remember what it feels like the only rememberance I have of it is a not so faded scare ingrained in my skin a hole that looks like a belly button that I got teased about as a kid. oh and painful accounts from my parents of what they felt and went through and the rest of my family. I have a support group of allthe people I love some have passed and some are far away, but never the less they are all here for me. As for tomorrow I am going to face the surgeon again but this time as an adult and I will know every account of what's going on I am also bringing my mother it is going to pain me to see her see her daughter go through open heart surgery one more time the pain the terror the angish of what might or might not be now as a parent i understand what it feels like to die on the inside when something happens to your child no matter how minor or how big. what is to come and what might be. i am scared I have a family my boys who I cherish more then words could ever speak. I know one thing I am going to fight as hard as hell to come back to them and if i don't it was'nt because I didn't try hard enough it was because my heart didn't try hard enough...
happy new year everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just have to say
Journal posted on January 1, 2011
Hi, to all my new friends on here, i just want to say I wish you all the best of Health and Happiness for you and your famlies now and in the coming years. Every day each one of us fights the GOOD FIGHT to stay strong and get ready for surgery recovery or newley discover all of the above. I believe we are not given more then we can handle Although I just question that very saying sometimes. We are special we are unique we are the chosen ones to I believe teach and have people learn from that is why we are given if you will this task it may seem like an understatement and like it's not much. How ever it is and as sure as the the sun rises and sets we will rise and fall and get back up again because that is life that is love that is strenght and what we are all fighting for in this battle of wellness to get there be strong and live another day for our family friends children and most of all ourselves. Sometimes it's hard o stay positive and be strong but we have a voice for those who don't to spread awareness and do our very best by example to just be ourselves love our family and just live another day in the end that is all that really matters... from my heart to yours God Bles and Happy new year
HI,everyone again just want to say to mark from texas and nancy from new jersey, ruth from maine tom from ny All you guys have been so supportive in answering my question giving me advice and comforting words, that my heart is happy right now and it makes all of this a little easier knowing there are wonderful people out there like you all. Thank you, so much you will never know how much this means to me. yes i did read adams book! i loved it i cried because it not only is a perfect account of what someone goes through, but it was written from the heart and i could see just how emotional it was for him like all of us. i pray for him and am so thankful a book that is so real yet very informing exists. i feel not only was he fighting for himself but in my heart i feel like it was for us to so thank you adam god bless you and your family. We are all in this together so if i can be comfort for any one of you please feel free to write me... love you all jaime
Hi, everyone I just want to say I'm happy to be on here and that here, this website if you will. Exists I, know back in the day when I was a baby my mother would have really appericated this. That was the first time I had open heart surgery. I am now a 34 year old married mother of two beautiful boys! I have to have a double valve replacement my tricuspid and paulmonic valves. I have an extensive history of heart trouble. What is crazy is I was fine for years. Till I had my second child. I was told not to have children but god and I had different plans for me. On january 10th I will find out the day I renew my membership to the zipper club it's a membership I wish I never had but am greateful to have if you understand what I mean. I would love to hear from any and all of you. Your all in my thoughts and prayers. My god bless us all.and give us the strength to fight yet another day to look beyond the mountain and know what the climber has inside them can move any mountain.