Oh yeah..so much to be thankful for..what an incredible wkend with family..so many joyous moments ..hope I never forget..what a great lesson..let go and "BE"..and noe it's down to the wire for having my heart repaired..like I told my beautiful grandsons..take out the old and put in the new..just like fixing your bike or your car..and with new parts it will work perfectly again..a child's simple lesson..and then 8 hrs for pre-op..hello do you have all the stats you need.. this is suppose to be easy peacey..one good pointer given by icu nurse..pick some place you want to be when doc says happy sleeping..so 5 o'clock this morning I choose to be at Lake Hollingsworth running the lake with my family..stopping in church to hear the choir and finishing in record time..long term goal run women's half marathon in Nov..Yippee..if others can do it I CAN! tomorrow quiet day..pack smellies..blankie..huggie..and send all my love out to my incredible family..xoxoxoxoxoxo :) :) :)
Wishing my friend Karen the best today..second back surgery..a better day..with my daughter having drama in her life and having to share it with me takes my focus off self and places it somewhere else... interesting..also a day to do and be since Rich had tax school all day...never without things to do...shop till you drop...new shoes...new vera bag...disappointment at Doctors..have not gotten OK from ins for referral to have Cat Scan done before surgery...oh well..oh well..can't do anything about it.."GIVE IT UP'...love knowing that REL is continuing with weekly prayer group...can;t even think about how much I will miss this child...and yet wish her and Reid a journey filled with Love & Laughter...so another closer to family reunion...Yippe e e e :)
up early..couldn't sleep..attended church with Rich..love to hear him belt out those songs...trying to organize menus for family's arrivall..without cooking..so that means all prepared menu...actually should be simple...counting on daughters to pick up kitchen duty...but most likely it will be Rich...we'll see..i really am going to try hard to step BACK and let them all fend for themselves...looks like weather is going to be in our favor so we can spend time outside..dbl wide mobile home will be packed for 2 days with 9 of us...so off to park and pool with boys...fun...
But each day brings me closer..can't wait for it to be over..this anxiety of wondering what all these body signs mean..tough sleeping..night sweats..tightness in chest..back spasms due to restless sleep..o.k enough..on the bright side..4 days till family arrives and then I can change my focus to something positive.. sit back relax and watch joyful activity take place..been gathering stuff for the boys to help occupy them..but the real pleasure is snuggle time with books..after they leave then 4 days to surgery..i should play the lottery with lucky #4...Wow 2014..always begins with celebrating my baby girl Arielle's B-Day..1-1-89..and knowing so many good things are in the making already..but for now i'm off to Hooters with my Favorite guy..Old Guys Rule
Susan..what a pleasant surprise to meet you..very familiar with your area..parents formerly lived in Stuart..I'm located in Lakeland..between Orlando and Tampa..My cadio Dr. and surgeon are in Brandon..surgery scheduled for Jan 16th..since my youngest daughter (23) at time had open heart surgery and my brother this year replacing his aortic valve.i am pretty familiar with procedure and recovery..BUT that does not relieve the anxiety of my facing this ...I.play out every possible scenario and outcome with the most positive results...in my mind's eye I am the perfect patient overcoming all challenges..#1 example to my children and hopefully and honestly with SELF..i't a real pain in the ---to be such a crazy thinker..around and around and you end up at the same spot..how do I really "GIVE IT UP?" 3 wks ..lets take each day and find some peace..My youngest daughter about to celebrate her 25th B-Day..amazing..born New Years Day..whole family gathering soon to run the Disney half marathon..coming from NC & NH..to celebrate their Dad's 70th..Get to hug my two favorite Grand sons..lets keep it simple and laugh and make loving memories..Yup don't get much better! :) :) :)
It's a great day..Richard's 70th B-Day..began with a refreshing cleaning...literrally inside and out.. words to live by "GIVE IT UP"...there is truly much more to my journey than I think I am directing..so many times my journey has been blessed beyond all exspectations... But only when I have been willing to "GIVE IT UP!"... has it brought comfort and joy in knowing that when I "GIVE IT UP" all is well and in divine order..so I wish to hold to this TRUTH for myself and for all that I LOVE :)