Surgery for 11/1 was rescheduled because I have an upper respiratory infection (as does my husband, one daughter and 4 of the 6 grandkids!). Depressed does NOT begin to explain my emotions. Am basically in self-imposed isolation from everyone but my husband. Am sleeping in a separate bedroom and no good night kisses either! Missing the 6 grandkids like crazy as we are blessed to have then live close and are use to seeing them several times a week including sleep overs and family suppers! This has been the hardest past--along with the waiting for a new surgical date. While, as a nurse, I know I was not in optimal respiratory condition for open heart surgery with 2 valve replacements scheduled, as a patient the waiting is excruciating! Thankful for family and friends who are flooding us with prayers, cards, emails and facebook messages of love and support. We are taking much strength from the support of those we love and who love us. As my husband says, "It is what it is" and we will get through this as we have all the other dilemmas in our 42 year marriage--TOGETHER!! So thankful for him!!
Found out on October 10th that my surgery was being postponed until November 1st. The surgeon was unable to get the OR and the staff he desired for the 6 to 8 hour surgery as he wants me to be the only case they do that day. While we deeply appreciate his precaution, waiting two and a half more weeks has been a struggle. Once the tears subsided I got on line and ordered tons of Christmas presents for our 6 grandkids (which all arrived yesterday so I will be wrapping the next couple of days!), started baking pumpkin bread, finished making applesauce for the freezer and generally getting back in the life going on here. Am trying to stay busy and mentally "psyched" for October 31st (bummed we will miss Trick or Treat though) when we go to Iowa City for the pre-op work-up. Hanging in there and "ticking" along!