Thanks to all you have written, I spend most day time healing alone, it so nice to connect to you all.I am feeling really good and sometimes feel like I should be doing something constructive and productive.What do you all do during the day? Maybe it's cause it's been cold and rainy here I think I should go out and walk but I hate the cold. Sorry if I am a bit whinny. I need to concentrate on how amazingly lucky I am that everything went so well.
It all happened so fast and yet it was like time stood still for a week.I have been home for five days. I am feeling so much better!I have doing my breathing excercises probably not as much as I should. My appetite has not returned yet in fact my taste buds feel like they changed but I think it is only temporary.Everyone is back at work and I have a lot of time on my hands. I am so glad I am not in pain and feels so good so soon. When I went into surgery I thought I would just need the valve to be mended but it turns out it needed a replacement. I now have a pigs valve inside of me.It sounds so strange to me but I know it is a blessing!!
As the 20th gets closer my anxiety has reappeared. I am very positive about the outcome and thankful I caught it before it got worse.Yesterday Susan and I spent 5 hours at the hospital most of which was waiting. I got a physical,had blood work, watched a video about the surgery and filled out a lot of paper work. I was totally exhausted, yet I had trouble falling asleep. My concern is more about recover and what it will be like.
I know as soon as I get better I need to finally get a job.
I am trying really hard to be in the present moment and to create positive thoughts, sometimes it gets difficult.
Time for a rest I am exhausted.