Truly it feels like my very first time, although its not.. It'll be my fifth. My fifth open heart surgery, happening June 13th. I should be used to the idea now right? But it happened all when I was young, so now I know what's actually going on.. And it scares the sh*t out of me. The surgeon is going to be repairing my arotic valve and upsizing the size of my fontan shunt. Should be a fun time! I really just hope after It will help me.. My valve has been leaking for a few years now, and lately it's made my entire life slow way down. I'm supposed to be in college and enjoying life but I can't even do simple tasks like doing my makeup without feeling like I just ran a mile. Now i'm just hoping everything gets better.