On April 16, 2014...

Marie posted a note for Susan that says:

Hi Susan,

So glad to read your last reports on how things are coming together for you. I meant to say hello a few nights ago but started working on my story first that I have been editing to finish here and there. I always get caught up in it when I start writing. Then after working on it for almost 2 hours, my hand somehow hit the left side Patients Guide thing and went to that page. It's not the first time I've done that after writing things here.

It's so frustrating because if you don't submit your edit every so often to save what your writing and hit this Patient thing by accident you can't get whatever your writing here back. Even a guestbook thing. I wish you could just hit a back button and get it back but you can't unless you save it every so often as you write.

So anyway, I haven't forgot you I just had to take a break from the getting on my laptop every night before bed and writing for a while. Had a couple routine doctors appointments myself over the last 2 weeks which is good to get out of the way in the Spring. Saw my OA doctor yesterday. He's good and listens to me and gave me a new script for my pain so I will have have enough as needed.

Ran into a problem renewing the one I had with less. Unknowingly came up short for 5 days with 1 pill left this month and couldn't get pick it up for 5 days for insurance reasons. But I got by with my older other script I had renewed for night time if needed or emergencies like this one.

He also referred me to get an x-ray of my spine when I told him about the pain I have there everyday that sometimes with the OA pain in th mornings just get to me a bit. I just want to really know what's causing the spine pain there so then I can figure out what I can do to hopefully get help for it but without surgery.

So I'm trying to get caught up on all my doctor visits and test. Got to get a bone density scan, those are fun, a mammogram and now a spinal x-ray and oh ya that wonderful blood test and last but not laest got a dental cleaning app. coming up. After that I'll be all caught up and hopefully done for the summer.

Presently we have hired a friend/painter and he came today to start the process of repainting our living and dining room, repair and paint ceilings, painting our woodwork white, and walls after and restaining the kickbacks and sides of the staircase. I haven't decided on the wall colors yet but I will.

So I came downstairs today after he had worked and left and he had primed the woodwork in the dinning and living room. What a difference after 26 years with the old stained woodword. It's just primer and I was so encouraged and happy to see the beginning of a nice change. So there's alot going on and I'm trying to take care of my self and not get to stressed over the house or having it perfect etc. before he and his future helper come in to work on the ceiling Friday. I will have Thursday do some more general cleaning and my husband is helping too cause he's not coming Thursday.

Then we/I have to leave the house for Friday casue of the smell of this ceiling paint and my heart health he told my husband. So we're going to a nice motel/hotel in town Thursday night to Saturday morning.

That will be a nice little break and relaxing to do. We actually had our 35th anniversary on March 3, this year and didn't really do anything specail cause it was so cold out. We went out to dinner a litter later that week so this can be our little anniversary get away.

Also, after all I went through,and the time it has taken me to slowly recover I haven't actually gone away anywhere over night just for a little get away even. So this will be nice even though it's in our town,it will be fun, a nice break. And when I come home my ceilings and woodwork will be done.

Well I hope you didn't mind me sharing all this stuff with you.Just though it would be nice to say I'm doing ok and good things are happening because of God's love, grace and blessings in my life. I'm excited about us updated our house.

We have done some things in the pass few years like our upstairs bathroom for one. But these rooms really need these changes and updates and I waited for this for a long time. We're also will be putting in new floors when the painting and staining is complete. Sometimes even small changes of our everyday lives of something we desire or need in our surrounding enviorments, can help us to get a little spark of life back in our spirit that we kind of loose for a time. It's due to what we have been through for a time or during our road back to the living. I know that I for a time even at home kind of lost any excitement about life. It was more of just a day to day sleep, get up, make sure I eat, take vitamins and my protein drink, work not to get sick, watch tv, try to go to family things when I was stronger. Being thankful for what I came out of but also kind of just living day to day, and functioning better over time but not really excited or even looking forward to much of anything special. So, I also know it's not really about material things, it's a healing process with God's help and us seeking Him and talking to Him and giving our burdens to Him. Many times in the battle which is in the mind when I would just pray and sometimes cry God would hear me and then the bad feelings would be lifted.

I also listen to some good Gospel music and love to sing. When you start singing and worshiping God, His presence starts to fill your spirit. Then your mind set is changed and you aren't down anymore. We /I just sometimes don't do it enough when those feelings come over me. But things have gotten much better for me though I'm not perfect and still have my moments sometimes. God's has blessed me with many blessings in my life. Blessings that I can easily forget sometimes. But when I just think about them and start to be thankful, my negative thoughts will begin changing right then. And this is true for everyone, so I hope it helps you as you head towards your surgery date and your recovery as well and anyone reading this. I'll be praying for your victory through this. Hope your sleeping peacefully. God Bless You, My Friend. and hope

On March 19, 2014...

Marie posted a note for Susan that says:

Hi Susan,

I know there is a lot of inner stress on you. First just because of weakness and tiredness a serious heart problem causes. Then dealing with having to do all these things leading up to your surgery yourself. So all these other things that are problems you have to deal with can add a lot of extra stress that you need to release.

Sometimes you may feel overwhelmed and start to cry. Don't be afraid to let it out because it is a way that we sometimes get a release from built up stress, When it's over you may fall asleep and wake up feeling so much better because the stress of it is gone.

I know because this happened to me many times but in my case it was many times after my surgery. It happened many times in Rehab.and at the most unexpected times on and off for about 10 months when I came home. I had help before my surgery cause I'm married and my doctors and hospitals were not far away. I was on a paid medical leave from my job also from Sept.until my surgery in late Oct. and have good insurance. So I wasn't under the stress of my job and preparing for surgery.

I'm glad you have your appointment coming up. Maybe you can just find a microwave on-line and have it delivered and set up for you and have them take your old one out if you explain your situation. Ask to talk to a manger if it will help.

About Frances your baby, lol maybe you can get a friend to take her to the vet. for you for her routine stuff. Then have your vet call you to verify that you give him permission to check her and then talk to him by phone if there any problems he needs your ok to take care of.
Well hope you don't mind that I wrote all this. I know, I think Gabi suggested getting someone to help you take out the old microwave. Anyway don't stress over this stuff but make your request known to God and I'm sure the answer will come. He knows what we have need of and He will answer before we ask. So ask it shall be given as the scriptures say. Your in my thoughts and prayers that it will all work out. Blessings to you.
P.S, I have a male cat almost 2 years old. His name is Rondo and he's my baby.lol.