http://www.heart-valve-surgery.com/heart-surgery-blog/2007/03/06/open-heart-surgery-recovery-update-surfs-up/#comment-3854 Sat, 26 Apr 2008 15:18:02 +0000 http://www.heart-valve-surgery.com/heart-surgery-blog/2007/03/06/open-heart-surgery-recovery-update-surfs-up/#comment-3854 I went through a valve replacement surgery around six weeks back. Right now I am in cardiac rehab.I spend half of my day crying. I just can't get over with my depression. I am a documentary film maker. I was in the middle of two productions when I almost collapsed. Everything happened so quick that I didn't get a chance to prepare myself for this long term inactivity. Now when I see my camera glaring at me, I feel the pain of my helplessness. I am coming off my upper body restrictions but still not able to pick up the camera. This disease gulped down my career as a pilot at the age of 20 and now I feel that I am losing the battle again at the age of 38. I have been a fighter all my life and now I feel very low. On top of it I feel very detached from family and friends. I don't feel belonged to anything or anyone. If I lose my ability to make films I am sure I will lose myself completly. Your post has given me some hope but I am still very skeptical......Thanks for sharing I went through a valve replacement surgery around six weeks back. Right now I am in cardiac rehab.I spend half of my day crying. I just can’t get over with my depression. I am a documentary film maker. I was in the middle of two productions when I almost collapsed. Everything happened so quick that I didn’t get a chance to prepare myself for this long term inactivity. Now when I see my camera glaring at me, I feel the pain of my helplessness. I am coming off my upper body restrictions but still not able to pick up the camera. This disease gulped down my career as a pilot at the age of 20 and now I feel that I am losing the battle again at the age of 38. I have been a fighter all my life and now I feel very low. On top of it I feel very detached from family and friends. I don’t feel belonged to anything or anyone. If I lose my ability to make films I am sure I will lose myself completly. Your post has given me some hope but I am still very skeptical……Thanks for sharing

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